Billy Chandler's blog
"Diary of a former Courtyard student:
How I'm coping with Covid-19"
January 11th - January 17th
"38, another blog, another week, a full lockdown week, another time of unpredictable madness, COVID deaths are the highest they've been, COVID is hitting more closer to home than ever, pubs and restaurants are most likely opening in May, don't know what's happening with everything else, Mum and Dad's holiday in March got cancelled, so Frankie and I won't have the house to ourselves, my Auntie and Uncle just got COVID, my youngest nephew just finished isolating after a classmate tested positive, one of my nieces are upset because she can’t see anyone due to isolation, it is all mad, sometimes I'll react to these things, and sometimes I don't know if I can react anymore because nothing surprises me with COVID. Welcome to another blog, and before I head into my week, an important lesson for everyone, existence is pain.
Kicking off with Monday, cor I can't wait to see what Billy got up to, well Billy I got up to nothing. Wow Billy, really? Nothing? Really? The week just started. Well Billy I had the house to myself so I just chilled at home, no reason for me to go out.
Following that tragedy is Tuesday, which was essentially the same day, the only difference was that I met Mum after she finished her shift at 6:30pm and then collected a takeaway.
Next up is Wednesday, are we flying through this or what? Guess what I got up to, nothing! Yay! Wonderful! Another day of nothing! Is this blog great or what!
Coming up is Thursday, and you know what I got up to, come up guys you should all know me well by now, I got up to nothing! Again! I can't believe it guys we are flying through this week! Better for all of those who don't like to read too much.
Flying right into Friday, and guess what, drum roll, 15 seconds of an intense drum roll passes, a silence is present, until Billy takes a deep breath and announces, I DID SOMETHING TODAY, AND THE CROWD DOESN'T JUST GO WILD, THEY GO BALLISTIC!! To start, and this was a plan made just yesterday, I met Ms. Vidal, finally giving her my Christmas present. I bumped into Ms. Shepherd before meeting Ms. Vidal, shoutout to Ms. Shepherd, proper legend; I then met Ms. Vidal outside The Courtyard and we walked to a bench nearby in the St. Mary Magdalene Garden, I gave her my present and card, got her a Ted Baker gift set which she loved and the card I gave her was a Christmas card I wrote before our meet up was cancelled a month or so ago, I thanked her for everything over the last nearly 8 years and said that I can't wait for hugs when this pandemic is done. Now, Ms. Vidal's present to me, firstly I was caught surprised by the size, and I opened the present, she really spoilt me, the present was Beats Solo3 Wireless by Dr. Dre, I found myself lost for words, I had no idea what to say, of course I said thank you, and I smiled, but I couldn't say a proper sentence, it was overwhelming, mind blowing; she didn't need to do that for me, but she did, and I loved it, she gave me a card too, lots of nice words and sentences in there, always nice to hear or see something positive from Ms. Vidal. Afterwards we spoke for another 20 or 25 minutes before she had to go back to The Courtyard, as she was walking away, I remembered that I wanted a selfie for the blog, but the time was 1:35pm, she had to be back for 1:30pm, so I didn't want to make her late or even more late, at least I got a picture of her present and card to me; it was so nice seeing her, first time we met up since August, and it's always lovely speaking to her about anything and everything; once I got home I charged my Beats and tried them, and the sound was incredible, especially my bass, my mum tried them, and put it this way, she loved them more than I did the way she was dancing around. Later on that evening I met my dad after he finished his shift to pick up a takeaway together, and that was Friday, the first day this week with proper plans, and it was a good one.
Coming up is Saturday, and I went out shopping with my mum, and my youngest nephew who came last minute who recently finished his isolation, we went up to Angel and met mum's friend, who we dropped the shopping off to last week. Whenever my mum and her friend went into a shop, my nephew and I stood outside chatting to each other, we even bumped into one of my drama teachers who my nephew took a liking to. On the way home, my nephew suggested we should have Starbucks where he and I both got Strawberries and Cream Frappuccinos. After that, I went to his house, and we both played the new Spider-Man game on the PS5, I was with him for nearly 2 hours, it was really nice, spending all of that time with my nephew.
Finally it's Sunday, originally a day with no plans, and it became a busy day for me. Do you recall last week when I mentioned about going to visit every football stadium in London? Only on weekends? I decided that this day would be the start of that, I got up, had something to eat, brushed my teeth, got dressed, and out of the house I went. To begin this adventure, I took a walk to the Emirates Stadium, the closest stadium to home, and not far from The Courtyard either, I have a history with Emirates Stadium, I watched a game where the Arsenal Youth Club took on the Chelsea's Youth Club, my cousin's cousin, shoutout to Thomas Cruise, was playing for the Arsenal Youth Club at the time so some family members and friends came, Arsenal won 4-2 in an excellent game with a great atmosphere, I watched my brother play a few games there which was amazing to watch and an incredible opportunity for him, and with one of my best friends I watched Arsenal have a game in 2016, can't remember who they faced but Arsenal lost, and we left before the final whistle blew, very frustrating watch; lastly is a piece of legacy that could either be here for years to come, or hopefully until the end of time, on Armoury Square, there are at least 18,000 stones, one of those stones has mine and Frankie's name on it, I rediscovered it after looking for it for at least 15 minutes, next to one of my best friends, that same best friend I watched Arsenal with in 2016, I found the stone of another friend there, we were friends in Primary and grew closer in the last nearly two and a half years, in those nearly two and a half years we've become the closest we've ever been, I was frozen just staring at these stones, and had deep thoughts about the future, one day, we'll all die, and one day our children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren, and great great grandchildren, would wanna know about all of us, and one thing they can do, is head to Emirates Stadium, to the Armoury Square, and look at our stones, nice to know that after life, there is a bit of legacy left behind for all of us. After this I took a walk around the stadium where I saw a number of people either exercising or doing activities, and then I walked to Holloway Road Station, where I got the Piccadilly Line to Finsbury Park, and then I got the Victoria Line to Seven Sisters Station, once I got off I took the 349 to White Hart Lane Station where I was outside the Tottenham Hotspur Stadium, Tottenham's stadium that opened in April 2019, from the outside, beautiful stadium, the entrances were locked off so I couldn't walk around like I did with the Emirates. After that I took the 259 back to Seven Sisters Station, where I took the Victoria Line to King's Cross St. Pancras, and then took the Metropolitan Line to Wembley Park where I visited, you guessed it, Wembley Stadium, que sera sera, whatever will be will be, we're going to Wembley, que sera sera, leaving the station to see Wembley Stadium in front of me will always give me chills, I've attended Wembley Stadiums five times in my life, seeing Robbie Williams, Take That, Ed Sheeran, Coldplay and Billy Joel, all fantastic shows, was supposed to see Westlife last summer but that got postponed to this summer, hopefully that still goes ahead, could you imagine if I had to wait yet another year? I would laugh. Also I'm hoping for a wrestling show at Wembley Stadium one day fingers crossed, now that's a dream right there, Vince McMahon, Tony Khan, anyone that's a CEO or Chairman of a big wrestling promotion, you know what to do, give the people what they want. I walked to the blocked off entrance and just stared up at Wembley Stadium for the next 10 minutes, it was like staring at a towering giant, and I couldn't look away, until I realised I got 10% of my phone battery left, and dinner was in under 2 hours so I had to make a move, I did try to go to Starbucks to get a frappuccino, but the lady working there said they were closing in 12 minutes so they couldn't make one, but it takes 2 or 3 minutes to make one, you can easily tell when someone just can't be asked and absolutely hates their job. From there I took the Metropolitan Line to King's Cross St. Pancras and then took the Northern Line to Angel then I walked home, and that pretty much was my Sunday.
So that was my week, just over the first half not much happened, and then after that quite a bit happened, a nice little blend of doing stuff and not doing stuff. Continuing This Is Us has been great, the recent episode got me all emotional, I began Wandavision, the first two episodes were absolutely fantastic, can't see to wait what happens over the next two months, and I didn't mention from last week, my Mum and I have been watching the other episodes of Dark Side of the Ring, I've already seen all the episodes but it's been great seeing my mum watch them, and giving her thoughts, and of course seeing her reactions, her reactions sometimes are priceless. I need to read, I need to read BIG TIME, even if it's just a chapter or two a day it's still something. I've had packages come to my door nearly everyday, somehow I just keep winning bids on eBay, oh well, it's always nice to see, and fun too. So now, we shall enter another week, little to no plans, nothing going on, and an unforeseeable unpredictable future, lovely jubbly. I hope you all enjoyed the blog for what it was, I reckon it was one of my shortest, though that long paragraph for Sunday says otherwise. Despite barely anything going on I'm glad I've got my plan for visiting every London football stadium, from the list I found there were 22, 3 are down, 19 to go, next stop is The Den in Millwall. Thanks for reading once again guys, and I'll see all you next week, adios."
January 4th 2021 - January 10th 2021
"It's Blog 37 now, still wondering how we made it this far, and look at us now, Lockdown 3, if you told me a year ago that COVID would have a significantly bigger impact on the world and put us in 3 lockdowns, I would refuse to believe you, but here we are, 2021, in yet another lockdown, this time without an end date. On a positive note, with 3 vaccines, and them slowly getting to people around the world, this looks to be the beginning of the end, and hopefully, we'll be out of this mess between Spring and Summer, can't imagine having to continue to go through this next Autumn or Winter. This blog, pretty big one, it's the first whole week of 2021, and though it's been a week, I can't tell if it has gone quick or not; anyways, thank you all for dropping by here again, don't know how you lot do it after 37 weeks of me writing and writing and writing, but I appreciate you all for it, and now, let's get to the week.
"So how did we kick off Monday? I had to wake up at 6am for a wrestling show that was airing in Japan, they do this massive show every January 4th in the Tokyo Dome, and this had the biggest capacity for a wrestling show since the pandemic started, this show had 12,689 people in attendance, and this included social distancing, wearing masks, and no shouting or screaming things out, and I have to say, it's so good to see that many people at a show. I didn't have the best sleep, so I ended up falling asleep half way through the show, I wake up two hours later to see I'm in the main event, so I had to rewind and watch the two hours I missed, it was a fantastic show overall, it's just the time zones and waking up early that just kills me. After this I popped up Jack's house and chilled with him for two hours, that was nice, especially the part where Jack was on the phone to TalkTalk about where his router is and every time he made a good point I just shouted out "YEAH!" After this, I went for a little walk around Old Street before heading home. Oh yeah and that night we all found out we were in Lockdown 3, as if that was any different to Tier 4, WONDERFUL!
Next up is Tuesday, woke up at 7am for another wrestling show in Japan, they'd always have one on January 5th but only last year they started doing their January 5th shows in the Tokyo Dome, I didn't fall asleep during this one, and somehow, someway, it was a better show than the one yesterday especially with it's 48 minute long main event, and those last 15 to 20 minutes, incredible, and it had the second biggest capacity for a wrestling show since the pandemic started, with 7,801 people in attendance, so in total, 20,490 people came to see the shows, you love to see it. After the show I didn't do much, just chilled, relaxed, napped, just had a chill day.
Following up with Wednesday, and I only did one thing on Wednesday, took a walk to Shoreditch. In my opinion, if you're coming to London for the first time, or if you're looking for more places in London to explore, Shoreditch is one of those places just for how visually stunning and unique it is, I walked up to Chance Street where I came across a mural of Brodie Lee by artist David Speed, check out his stuff on Instagram @davidspeeduk. I had to come see it, and it still feels weird after 2 weeks knowing that Brodie is gone, death is weird ain't it, one minute a person you know or know of is alive, next thing you know, you're living in a world without that person, and you reflect on when they were alive, the moment you find out about their passing, everyone else's reaction, and how the world was with them in it, and the world now, death makes us do a lot of thinking. After seeing the mural of Brodie Lee, I decided to make my way home, the cold was beginning to get a bit much and it was slowly becoming dark.
We then bring you to Thursday, what I did, nothing, yep, nothing, and if I did I definitely forgot, so yeah, that was my Thursday.
We then carry on from that underwhelming event to Friday, where I had a bit more going on. Firstly I had a phone call with Ms. Vidal for around half an hour which was nice as usual, as soon as I heard her voice, I smiled a very big smile. Later on I met my dad after his work shift to pick up a takeaway with him.
Look at where we are now it's Saturday, and I went out to do shopping with my mum, we got shopping for ourselves and for a family friend who has COVID, we then got a bus to her house where we dropped the shopping off, with social distancing of course. After getting home and relaxing for a bit, my mom had an idea that I should go for a walk to South Bank, which I haven't done for a while. I walked to South Bank, got a slice of pepperoni pizza from a Pizza Pilgrims stall, which was amazing, first time having Pizza Pilgrims and definitely not my last, afterwards I got the bus home, I believe I was out on that walk for around 2 or 2 and a half hours.
Finally it's Sunday, originally for Sunday I had no plans, and with everyone inside and quite a bit of noise, I felt my sensory beginning to get me worked up, so I had to get out of the house. I went for a walk around Angel for around an hour or so, and it definitely helped.
That was my week, upon reflection I can't tell if it was quick or slow, but here we are, another week done, and hopefully another week closer to the end of this darn pandemic, gosh darnit this pandemic is driving me nuts! Luckily there's things to look forward to coming out and things on to watch right now, I finished Season 3 of Cobra Kai which was fantastic, Season 4 can't come out soon enough, This Is Us is back and came back with a great episode with very good pacing, and Wandavision is coming out in a few days which I am very excited for especially with it being the first big Marvel Studios release since, I believe Spider-Man: Far From Home a year and a half ago. Also I've made a new plan for myself, definitely to do on weekends, I want to see, how many football stadiums in London I can visit, I believe it's impossible to do all stadiums in one day so I might do one a day, or two, even three depending on time and distance, it's something to look forward to and something to do, and I've gotten to the point where I am bidding on tons of stuff on eBay, maybe too much stuff, I looked on my account and yep, I got carried away, now I'm hoping I don't win some of the stuff I've placed bids on because, money, remember guys, money is important, I just want something to do, something to focus on, something to look forward to, Lockdown 3 is bringing me to desperate levels, and desperation brings out an animal in me. Just gotta hang in there, this is the beginning of the end, and hopefully we'll be out of this between Spring and Summer, I know I've typed it before but I just want to remind myself and anyone reading this. I also realised that during Lockdown 3 I should read, still got that new Hunger Games book that I haven't finished, and for Christmas from my friend who I was with for New Years I got an Elton John autobiography, perfect gift since him, myself and a friend of ours are seeing Elton John in November. I need to exercise more too, that has always been an inconsistency with me since this pandemic started so I need to stick to that more. I have also been shook up with a lot of COVID news and stories recently, my older brother and his family have all got COVID, my cousin and her partner had to isolate with their children staying at their grandparents, it's all really hit close to home but luckily they're all getting better. I've even been thinking about my future, I can't even tell if it's bright, or it's dark and bleak with how unpredictable life can be, and I've even been thinking about my success so far and the legacy I've left behind and what if that all vanishes, gone, turn to ash, all that I've done and worked on for nothing, the thought of that tears me apart. I know at this point I'm rambling, there's just a lot going on in my head right now, a lot of thinking, overthinking, and definitely anxiety, but I’m happy I have this platform to release all of that and help me feel at least a bit better, just got to do what I can to get through this, and I hope you all do too, take care guys, have a good week."
December 28th 2020 - January 3rd 2021
"Blog 36, the first of 2021, the new year, that's crazy to think about, I'm still doing these blogs, during this pandemic which is still going, I just can't wrap my head around it, but here we are, you're reading this, I'm still writing these, and we head into another week where we don't know what will happen next. Happy New Year guys, hope this new year treats us all well, now it is blog time!
It's Monday, you know what that means, it's the beginning of the final week of 2020, and the first week, or first few days of 2021. On this day Mum and I went up to one of her best friends' houses, where another one of her friends was there and we had a lovely roast dinner, I know it was only 3 days after Christmas Day but you can't go wrong with a good roast, especially during the cold weather. It was a really lovely day with lovely people.
Next is Tuesday, and not much happened on Tuesday, I just met my mum after she finished her shift at work at 4pm, and that was it, the only thing I really did that day.
It's now Wednesday, and Wednesday had a bit more going on, firstly I had a lovely video call with Ms. Vidal who is always a pleasure to talk to, I honestly feel like I can talk to her about anything, and if you feel that way about certain people, then you are around the best kind of people. Later on I met mum after work again, this time her shift was finishing at 6:30pm so it was much darker outside, one thing I didn't mention from yesterday was that we found out my 2nd to youngest niece, at this point I may as well mention her name instead of making it all complicated, it's Poppy, and I feel like I mentioned her name before, and everyone will know her name eventually, because she's one talented kid, and who knows, maybe she'll be the one bringing all the money in for the Chandler family, she'll just come home from spending 3 months working in America, and will just casually throw at a fat cheque at all of us, like "here's your 7 figures, use it wisely," I feel like I've gone off topic, anyway, we found out yesterday she was sleeping over at my youngest nephew's for the night, that night past, and after getting home I knocked to check if she was still in, she was, and she wasn't happy, she was crying because all her and my youngest nephew did all day was argue, so here I am, Superman right here, pick her up, and take her into mine, lay her down on the sofa, throw a blanket over her, give her that massive penguin teddy we have every Christmas, and put a film on; we looked after her for around 2 hours before her dad picked her up.
Moving onto Thursday, and Thursday is New Years Eve, this is it guys, the final day of 2020, WE'VE FINALLY MADE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To begin, Mum and I leave the flat, and we see an old family friend that lives in the flat, with her doggie, a little bulldog, and I remember meeting this little bulldog around when the 2nd lockdown started, my mum met this doggie as well, so the doggie sees us, and runs to us, and this sums up this good doggie’s mindset "oh I remember those two hoomans, I need to say hi and show them I'm a good doggie!" After that I did some shopping with my mum, and you know how I like to get my own things while I'm shopping with mum, well I got myself Pop-Tarts, a brand of toaster pastries made by Kelloggs hugely popular in America, had the Frosted Strawberry Sensation flavour, and they were amazing, easily one of the best discoveries I made of 2020, which was on the final day of 2020. Later on, I went to Wanstead to celebrate the New Year with a friend of mine, his family and a few of his friends, got an Uber there and the driver and I spent the whole time talking about Islington, families, the pandemic and films, easily the best Uber trip I ever took; it was a lovely evening, had a laugh, played games including Uno, and watched the countdown together; the fireworks were a pleasant surprise, with some being near the O2, a 10-15 minute bus trip from my workplace, and the realisation of 2021, we have made it, 2020 is no more, it is 2021, it is 2021, IT'S 2021, WE HAVE MADE IT, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT WE ACTUALLY MADE IT!! The rest of the evening was a continuation of games and laughs, and then I fell asleep somewhere between 2am and 3am, my friend let me sleep in his bed as he ended up sleeping on the sofa, which he didn't need to do, I would've been fine with the sofa.
I wake up around 10am Friday morning, feeling rough from the night prior, went downstairs as my friend went upstairs to his bed, and I had breakfast with his mum and a special friend of hers, wink wink, we all had a sausage and egg muffin, and it was amazing, gave McDonalds a run for its money. After that I got changed, and I went home, my mum ordered me an Uber so I spent a few minutes waiting outside, and then a Ford Tourneo Connect turned up, there's no way that's for me, I looked at the number plate, and it was, I couldn't believe it, I'm getting picked up, to be taken home, by a Ford Tourneo Connect, starting the year off in style! As I got home, I just spent the rest of New Years chilling, and I had another roast, I need to watch those calories big time.
Look in the sky, is it a bird? Is it a plane? No it's Saturday! On Saturday I popped up to see Jack, who just returned to London that morning, I gave him his Christmas and Birthday present, Christmas present was an Amazon card with £20 or £30 on it (can't remember) and Birthday present was a sweatshirt with Deadpool on it, and Deadpool is in a director's chair saying "cut!" Jack and I were just chilling, and then we went out to do shopping at one point, got more Pop-Tarts for myself because why not, chilled some more and that was that. During the evening, Mum, Dad and I sat down and watched a two part documentary, some backstory on this was that I watched this series during the early days of lockdown, the series is called Dark Side of the Ring, all about wrestling's darkest moments, stories and characters inside and outside of the ring, whether you're a fan of wrestling or not I highly recommend it, the two parter we watched together was about The Benoit Tragedy, which I remember hearing about as a kid when it all happened, and people that never watched wrestling knew about it, it was all over the news, no one could believe it, it was the tragedy that nearly ended the entire wrestling business; if you have around 90 minutes free in your day, I highly recommend you watching both parts, it's a very sad and very interesting watch, the episodes are titled Benoit Part One and Benoit Part Two, I'll attach the trailer below.
Finally it's Sunday, and Sunday I had nothing planned so I ended up going for a walk for around 2 and a half hours, walking around Angel and Highbury, I even bumped into a friend of mine who I would normally see at my drama classes which was a nice surprise, and that was Sunday really, yep, that was how my week ended.
That was my week, decent week, doing good things, being around good people, celebrating, snacking, happy days. I don't know what else to end this on except COBRA KAI SEASON 3 IS OUT BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Already finished 7 episodes, 3 to go, and This Is Us comes back next week which I can't wait for, I need to wake up Monday and Tuesday morning for wrestling shows in Japan, inside the TOKYO DOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Good things coming up people, would be a shame if we entered a Tier 5 or a third lockdown right guys? Right? Anyway I'll see you all next week, for the first whole week of 2020. Watashi wa min'na o aishiteimasu!!"
December 21st - December 27th
"35, blog 35, Christmas Day and Boxing Day has just passed, and now we enter those weird few days between Christmas and New Year where we don't know who we are, who is around us, what to do, where did everything in life go so wrong, HOW DID WE END UP LIKE THIS!?!?! Sorry, I was having traumatic flashbacks. Anyway, despite the government changing things and putting at this point the entire country in Tier 4, I hope you all had a Merry Christmas, and am prepared to finally leave this year and head into 2021 with high hopes, that might get torn down because who knows, 2021 might be even worse than 2020; can you imagine that? At this point you may as well nuke the entire planet! Hopefully 2021 is the year of redemption for all of us, and if it isn't, 2022? Maybe? I don't know. This is the last blog of 2020, and this blog is describing a few normal days, Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, Boxing Day and a normal day to end it all, nicely lined up, and now you shall read, how I celebrated those days this year.
Kicking it all off with Monday, and I spent all day relaxing, yep that’s it, all day, just good ol’ me relaxing on Monday. Moving on.
Next is Tuesday, and I didn't do anything; it felt like such a weird day because it was Jack's birthday and from what I remember we would do something every year for his birthday since 2009, this year he is at his dad's. That day I just spent it chilling, I mean there was nothing else to do especially during Tier 4, unless you were Jack where he was where he was able to have a birthday meal at Wetherspoons, my jealousy was through the roof. After dinner I decided to go for a jog, for the first time in, I think over a month. I jogged around Angel and while I was jogging, something I didn't want to happen actually happened twice, so when I jogged it was after it was raining, I got to be honest I had no idea it rained because upstairs the curtains are always down and some days I spend most of my time upstairs, I didn't even look at the window or hear rain and only realised that it finished raining once I left the house, and I nearly slipped not once, but twice, made me feel anxious, would hate if I slipped and then I get something like a deep cut, or get a concussion, or maybe even break a bone imagine that, spending months healing a broken bone during a pandemic that sounds absolutely miserable. So I went home, and called it a day.
Following up with Wednesday, Christmas Eve Eve, and Frankie and I got Five Guys together for lunch, ordered it for delivery, I was planning to pay since I ordered it but Frankie ended up transferring me the money for how much the food cost and technically it would mean he paid for the food and I paid for delivery, nice stuff; and to prepare for the driver to arrive I put on a Five Guys beanie that Jack gave me last week, see if the driver would notice, and did he? Nope, he didn't care, the one thing on his mind was just handing the food over and getting out of there, what a decent bloke; and I got to ask, have I referred to Frankie as my younger brother in these blogs? I don't even know, I don't really say names of friends and family members because of privacy, and just in case anyone didn't like their names being brought up but Frankie doesn't care, he is super chilled. Later on during the evening I met my mum after work, and it was nice because it was her last day of work for nearly a week, home for most of the holidays; she doesn't like walking home alone when it's really dark so obviously I had to be a gentleman and keep her company; we got ourselves a takeaway and made our way home.
Now it's Thursday, and you know what this day is, IT'S CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The last day on the chocolate Christmas calendar, the day before the day, and, that's it really, sorry for the buildup guys. To celebrate Christmas Eve we celebrated opening our presents from my eldest sister, my brother in law and my youngest nephew and they opened their presents from us; to begin this lovely evening my brother in law went out to collect our orders from La Davina, which I highly recommend for anyone living in Islington, and what we ordered involved pizza and pasta. After we all ate our food we all opened our presents, I got an Amazon voucher, I absolutely love an Amazon voucher, put that into my account, and I'm either getting something cheaper or for free, happy days. After our presents we all just sat around chatting while Christmas music played, and it was really nice. Ended Christmas Eve having movie night with my parents; and overall it was a really lovely Christmas Eve, and now we prepare for the big day.
Moving onto Friday, and in words of Slade, IT'S CCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTMMMMMMMMMAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Christmas Day has arrived, that one day of the year everyone hypes up for nearly two months and a time where we all celebrate the most wonderful day of the year together. When I woke up it was so weird, I didn't even think it was Christmas, and then after lying around, it just hit me and I was like "it's Christmas? HOLY MOLY IT'S CHRISTMAS!!" After coming down the stairs, my youngest nephew came in as he does every year, he likes to help get the presents out from under the tree, and my Mum put two surprise presents for him under the tree labeled "to who helps get the presents out from under the tree." Like every year we all took turns in opening our presents, and we all did well with what we got, I got quite a few things here and there, got a nice present from Jack which includes aftershave, shower gel and more which will definitely come in handy, and some of my presents included bath bombs from Lush, two Hunger Games Pop Vinyls which adds to my Hunger Games collection (two down five to go), a white Ralph Lauren polo shirt with a golden horse logo, new jeans, new chinos, there were a few other shirts that I got I just can't remember the brand, another Amazon voucher and finally, the main event, coincidently the last present I opened that morning, I opened it, and it was a box, with a golden Jumpman logo on it, are they what I think they are? Are they the right ones? I open the box, and I see them, the pair of Jordans I saw a few months ago; here's some backstory, while my parents and I were in Southampton in late September (or was it early October I don't know anymore) I saw them in a store, and I knew how expensive they were so I thought maybe I can put them on my Christmas list and see what happens; go forward in time and here they are on my lap. The reason why I wanted these so much were because of the colour scheme, red, black and white, the same as an old pair of shoes I had, and that same old pair belonged to my Uncle Jimmy before he passed away, and now I can call these my Uncle Jimmy Shoes, or Uncle Jimmy Shoes II, either way it works. For my family, I got Frankie a new pair of tracksuit bottoms that he can wear for work and six tubs of chewing gum, and for my parents I got them tickets to a show next month, the show is The Show Must Go On at the Palace Theatre, dress circle seats, and the show features a variety of performances from musicals like Hamilton, Dear Evan Hansen, Wicked, Everybody's Talking About Jamie, Six, Tina, Book of Mormon, Les Miserables, Mary Poppins, Lion King, Phantom of the Opera, Matilda, Mamma Mia and more, so already it is looking like an absolutely stacked show, and all profits made from the show will go to Acting For Others and The Fleabag Support Fund, and I'm hoping Tier 4 or Tier 5 whatever it will be doesn't ruin the plans because this show is just at the end of next month, maybe the show gets postponed which is fine, or the show gets cancelled which will be shame since it is the Christmas present to my parents, but once I get the money back I can book another show, I already have an idea wink wink. After opening presents there wasn't really anything to do, Frankie and I did go in to see our nephew and see him play his new PS5, but that was it, usually every year we would go to The Britannia with my cousins, auntie, uncle and other family members but Tier 4 put that to a halt, so now there was nothing to do, except wait for Christmas Dinner, what a wait that was; my nan came up as she does every year and Christmas Dinner was lovely, I was so stuffed and absolutely fulfilled. Later on my older brother, his partner and my two youngest nieces came up and we opened presents from them and they opened their presents from us, and it was so lovely having us lot together, plus I did most of the babysitting, both of my youngest nieces were as good as gold. After all of that, we ended Christmas Day having another movie night, and that was Christmas Day, another one gone, the 25th Christmas Day I have lived in my lifetime, two months of advertisements everywhere for that one day done, despite the circumstances I was happy that we all had a lovely Christmas, and that Tier 4 didn't change too much of our plans, I did feel a little of a bittersweet feeling, knowing that there are families out there that didn't have a lovely Christmas, how this pandemic and the governments plans changed plans for people, my family from America were supposed to stay with us for Christmas which of course didn't happen, it did make me feel a little sad, but I couldn't let it ruin my emotions for the day; now Christmas is over and we await the New Year, it is always weird when Christmas Day ends, and now we have those few days where everything is weird, it might be rough one.
After that wonderful day it was Saturday, Boxing Day, which I don't think is anything to do with the sport boxing, and I just spent it chilling, there wasn't really anything to do, so I just chilled, relaxed, and that was how I spent Boxing Day.
Finally it's Sunday, so Billy, after that eventful week how did you end it? Well Billy I was on the PlayStation all day. Really Billy? I mean I know you like to go on there but all day? Yes Billy but there wasn't anything to do, plus football was on all day for my family, so I just found myself on the PlayStation, I got on there somewhere between 1pm and 2pm, and I got off just before 9:30pm.
That was my Christmas week, it was a good week, very quick one too; Tier 4 did some minor changes to this week, including cancelling my Christmas Eve shift which would've been from 9am to 1pm, and cancelling my Boxing Day shift which would've been from 9am to 9pm, and yes, I put myself down for that, because I was happy to, I'm always willing to show how good I am as a worker, and it was a shame that Tier 4 took that opportunity away from me. In the end as I said before, my family and I made the most of Christmas this year, and we're all thankful that it was a lovely one in these circumstances. I now remind myself, that this is the last blog of 2020, wow, 2020 done just like that, I can still remember when it just turned 2020 and celebrating New Years then, I even remember that whole day, I even remember a month later or the month after where a friend and I had a drink in The Angel Wetherspoons after a drama class, and we were speaking about our plans and what we have going on for us this year, and how we both were optimistic for the rest of the year, and then look how the year turned out, yikes. I remember celebrating New Years in Newcastle with friends, and soon as it turned 2019 and all the excitement turned down I was like "wait that's it?" and then around 6 or 7 hours later we all had to pack and get on the coach back to London and I made a comment saying "I can't tell what will happen next year I don't have 20/20 vision" to which everyone rolled their eyes, and I couldn't tell what was going to happen in the next year, but I definitely wasn't expecting a pandemic! I think it's all easy to say on behalf of all of us that 2020 was easily the worst year of our lives, and I don't even need to go through the reasons why it was the year that it was, so instead of going through everything that made 2020 the year that it was, I thought it'd be a good idea to go through the positives of 2020, and what I'm thankful for from 2020, I'm thankful for all of my family, I'm thankful for my neighbours who we all grew closer with during the first few months of the pandemic, I'm thankful for my friends and I'm missing most of them that I haven't seen a lot of them since before the pandemic started, I'm thankful for our new addition to the family Petey, we sadly lost Sammy earlier this year and now here is Petey who is a very good and very handsome boy and is so loved by all of us, I'm thankful for my workplace who I'm still working with to this day during this insane time in our lives and my work colleagues too who are feeling the same as I am, I am thankful for wrestling which hasn't stopped since this pandemic started and there was always a wrestling pay per view on an average of every 2 to 3 weeks to give me something to look forward to, I’m thankful for the people that I have met in regards to LNSEN that I’ll be working with Ms. Vidal on in the future as an Autism Champion Ambassador, I’m thankful for Ms. Vidal who, if it wasn’t for the pandemic, I wouldn’t have grown closer with or even have brought up the idea of this blog so you all can thank Ms. Vidal for that, I think that’s the thing I’m most thankful for this year, us growing closer and doing this blog, which has even helped me when times got rough, and I'm thankful for the fond moments and memories I had during the pandemic, I'm glad that upon reflection there are good memories and moments that were had during these times and that not everything was doom and gloom.
Before I finish up, I know I've written enough but let me do this one last paragraph. Now I haven't spoke about death much in these blogs, and there has been so much death this year, it either gives 2016 a run for its money or surpasses 2016 with the people the world has lost this year; there are some deaths that have really hit me hard this year, and recently was another one. His name was Jon Huber, to some he was known as Luke Harper, and to some he was known as Brodie Lee, he was a professional wrestler who was loved by millions of fans, and loved by all of his colleagues and peers, he passed away on Boxing Day from a non-COVID lung issue which kept him in ICU for two months and it was something not many people knew about, and whoever knew kept it quiet, I remember it being around 1:30am UK time on December 27th, and his death announcement was the first thing I saw on Instagram which was announced just 5 or 10 minutes earlier, and I remember talking to a couple of my friends who were awake at the time we all couldn't believe it, it was a death that hit all of us because we all started watching his in ring work in 2012 or 2013, and this year he was really showing the world what he could do and that this was the prime of his career and now he's gone, and to think he spent his 41st birthday and Christmas in ICU, it's so sad, it's even sadder thinking of his family, his wife, his two sons, I've been thinking about them a lot these last few days and I really hope that they'll be alright. I've seen so many posts on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram of him from so many people in the industry and it shows just how loved and respected he was by everyone, and I've looked and listened to so many interviews he did and he came off as one of the nicest guys; I look at some of the stuff he has done in his career and who he worked with and I smile knowing that he was given these opportunities and did very good with them, I'm gonna miss him, and so will millions around the world. Rest peacefully and powerfully Jon, we all love you, we'll all miss you.
Jon's death was a reminder that we need to hug everyone we know and love, and let them know we love them because we don't know what tomorrow will bring for us or those around us. Thank you for reading everyone, I hope you all had a Merry Christmas, and I'll see you in 2021, take care, I love you all."
December 14th to December 20th
"As we enter blog 34, and at this point in the blogs there isn't a reason or explanation to find connections with the numbers, but if you're a Londoner or any part in England recently hit with the Tier 4 news the one thing on your mind is WHAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON?! CURSE WORD CURSE WORD CURSE WORD CURSE WORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a weird week though, we went from having just a few days of being in Tier 2 left to being to Tier 3 the majority of the week, to being in Tier 4 which wasn't even created or acknowledged to begin with; now we all never knew how bad the numbers were going to be with cases and deaths going back to over a month ago with the recent lockdown, but from what I heard the number of cases a day are at their worst, if that was inevitable, we were better off staying in lockdown, but what do I know? Now we begin this blog, and the last week before Christmas.
Starting with Monday, what a wonderful start! So I went to see Jack, and Jack wanted me to keep this quiet from the blogs for the time being, and I didn't mention this the last few times I mentioned him, and now I can talk about this without any secrets and holding back, basically Jack has moved into his own flat, and the crowd goes wild! It's a nice flat too, big for a one person flat, spacious and isn't far from where I live, we're near enough neighbours so that's really cool. So I popped up, because he needed help with something that was arriving, at the time I couldn't remember what, and then I see it's the sofa bed, now, I thought whoever was delivering it was going to build it, so now it's a sofa bed, with unclear instructions, and it's down to two young men with mental disabilities to build a sofa bed, WHAT COULD POSSIBLY GO WRONG?!?!? Nothing, it was all fine, with teamwork, going through the same pages over and over again, finding the right sized needles, and even viewing two YouTube videos to understand unclear steps, we done it, mostly, took nearly two hours, and both of us were feeling cranky, but we did the best we could, we could've done a little bit more but Jack had work to go to so he was going to finish it off with his mum tomorrow, and I treated Jack and I to lunch, because I'm a good boy. I then get home, and receive an email from Ms. Vidal, and I find out that The Courtyard got a positive case, and that those I care about there have to isolate until Christmas Eve with their families, and of course this also meant that Ms. Vidal and I had to cancel meeting this week; all of this was a lot to take in for me, and felt overwhelming, another harsh reminder that COVID was still alive and well and ruining everything, that 9 months in and our government just keep messing everything up, how what happened to Ms. Vidal and those at the Courtyard could happen to someone or some people any day now and they'd have to isolate over the entirety of the Christmas holidays, that this positive case was very close to home, Tier : 3 was on the horizon and even with a vaccine the end still feels so far away, from the last few days to this day and to add my beyond ruined sleeping pattern to it and a very poor overnight sleep, I felt I was all over the place, and felt an anger and frustration to the point of nearly snapping, and I rarely feel this way; so after making a call to my mum speaking about how I was feeling, I shut myself off from reality, and spent the next, I don't even know how many hours lying in bed, not even caring if I fell asleep or not, I just needed to be away from everyone and everything. I came down just before dinner, my mum wanted to make sure I was alright, she gets upset when I'm in the state that was in earlier, it upsets her more when she feels like she can't help me, and that upsets me, a lot. I don't intent to be as emotional as I am it's something that after 24 years I'm still trying to work on and it's easier said than done, but the sooner I get it sorted the better. Mum and I then spent some time together, spoke about some things, watched some YouTube videos, and it was really nice, later on that evening my parents and I had movie night, which we had nearly every night during the first lockdown, and the first one since, I think my birthday, and we decided to put on a Christmas movie to get us all further into that festive mood, and that movie was Last Christmas, because my mum always wanted to see it, it's supposed to be really feel good, and I've always had a massive soft spot for Emilia Clarke; nearly two hours pass and the film left us all smiling, glowing inside, and definitely feel good, the movie is very predictable, but despite that it's really good, leaves you feeling good, and of course very festive; a great way to end a very up and down day.
We're on Tuesday now, IT TOOK LONG ENOUGH BILL! YEAH BILL WE DON'T GO ON HERE TO READ ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS! Well whoever is reading this that thinks that I don't go on social media to read about your problems, what has made you angry in the world, your political views or how well your supposed relationship is going because quite frankly, I really don't care; and if you're curious about what I go online or on social media for it's for memes, babies, doggies and positivity. Tuesday was quite a productive day from what I remember, I met my mum for lunch, got a coffee from Pret and a sandwich from Co-Op, and I need to say, I love it when during Christmas time supermarket chains do Christmas themed items, I can never say no to them, and fast food chains too, more of a reason why I love Christmas time. Later on I went to Wanstead to this Wetherspoons pub called The George to meet up with my mate, who I was meant to meet over the weekend but that got cancelled twice, we pretty much had to meet on this day, it was London's last night in Tier 2, and I had a present for him, so it was me, him, his mum, two of his work colleagues and a girlfriend of one of his work colleagues, so that made six of us, and surprise surprise, we bump into a old friend of ours from our college course, who we both haven't seen in a year and a half, so that was a really nice surprise. It was a lovely evening, full of laughs, and of course the Cookie Dough Sandwich because how can I forget that? My friend even opened his present, it can count as a Birthday present, Christmas present, pretty much both since they're both on the same day, and I got him this Ralph Lauren fragrance gift set, and it was the red one, because he loves Liverpool, and seeing how happy he was with the present was so satisfying, that's the beauty, love and joy of Christmas time right there, and ending our time in Tier 2 on a high note.
Moving onto Wednesday, the first day of Tier 3, and I didn't do anything Wednesday, nothing at all, not from what I can recall, so I guess we can go to Thursday.
Next up is Thursday, and it was exactly like Wednesday, nothing at all, and if something happened I clearly don't remember it, drama class got cancelled so I couldn't see my friends, teacher and the people I know at The Shakespeare's Head one last time before Christmas and New Years so that made me a bit sad.
Now it's Friday, talk about a change of pace, and Friday originally seemed like it was going to be exactly like Wednesday and Thursday, except plot twist, it weren't, as I got a call from Jack who was coming back from shopping to drop off his present to me, he sat down for a bit, asked if I wanted to come to his mum's for a few hours, since he will be with his dad for his birthday, Christmas and New Years, it would make for a nice change, seeing that I've just been indoors for the last two days. I went up there and I was there for around 3, or 4 hours before I came home for dinner, it was nice.
Following up with Saturday, and we had family come up, my brother, his partner, and my two nieces, it was the eldest of the two’s birthday tomorrow so we gave her her presents to open and then my brother and I did the majority of the babysitting for the rest of the day which was fine, both were as good as gold. Then, Tier 4 got announced, and originally we were all taking the mick, singing and joking about, and then reality hit us, my niece couldn't celebrate her birthday at London Zoo tomorrow and she burst into tears when she found out, my shifts on Christmas Eve and Boxing Day were cancelled, many people in the UK wouldn't be able to celebrate Christmas as planned unless they left to go to where they needed to be ASAP, it was incredibly frustrating, another example of the government being all over the place and after all this time still messing things up, during what is supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year, luckily it didn't affect my Christmas plans, but I thought of all those who were affected by it, after this rubbish year no one deserved to have a ruined Christmas, we've all been through more than enough, and again it begs the question, when will this madness end? It is obvious now that we've all had enough.
Finally it's Sunday, took long enough but here we are, and Sunday was a lovely surprise of a day, to begin, last minute decision on my part, I joined my mum, dad, nan and brother in law in going to the Islington Cemetery to see my grandad, my great grandparents and my uncle's parents, haven't seen them in a couple of years so it was nice to see them again, my brother in law came to see some of his family members including his grandparents, it was nice to see them all again, just before Christmas. After that my brother in law dropped my dad and I off as he and my mum went to do some shopping, by the lifts I bumped into a man who lived on the fourth or fifth floor who had this English Bulldog called Reggie, and Reggie was a big and handsome boy, he was easily one of my highlights this week. Afterwards I went down to see some family friends to drop off a present and cards, and I haven't seen them in months, including one of my best friends who I haven't seen since January, when we last saw each other, we went to a viewing party of a wrestling show at a sports bar in Old Street, that night I won a bottle of picasso which he and I shared, it was such a good night, easily one of the highlights this year. So we saw each other, sat opposite the table in the kitchen, and spoke for around 2 hours, a well needed catch up and a lovely way to end the week.
That was my week, quite emotional weren't it? A lot to take in especially with the whole Tier 3 and Tier 4 announcements in the same week, next thing we know there's going to be a purge or a riot, cor I can't wait for that, how exciting! Sometimes you can only push someone so far until they snap. So now, Christmas is next, can't wait to be put into Tier 5 on Christmas Eve that's going to be brilliant! Anyways guys, I hope you all have a Merry Christmas and I will see you all in the next one, 35, the last one of 2020, see you then. Merry Christmas to all, and to all, a good night."
December 7th to December 13th
"It's 33, say Billy what do you have to say about 33? Well Billy it is 3 and 3 together. Anything else Billy? No, not really. Really? Seriously? Is that, is that really all we have? I mean we're 33 blogs in my son, surely we've got to have more. No Billy, this is all we have, this is all we have to deal with, so no big fancy intro for the readers. That's underwhelming Billy. Well Billy so is life sometimes. That's another conversation between me and myself and here is blog 33.
It's Monday. because how else can we start? On this day, guess what happened? For the first time since before the 2nd lockdown I went to work, and this was the first evening shift I've done since either February or March. I always preferred the evening shifts because of the atmosphere, the hours, the night sky, and of course knowing I could wake up at anytime I wanted to, do what I want to during the day, then get ready for the shift, the travel there and on the way home isn't as bad as it would be in the morning or afternoon, then once I get home, and just relax, or even just have something to eat and go straight to bed. The shift I was doing was for the Ice Rink, my workplace sets up the Ice Rink every year for Christmas and New Years and we were all very happy to hear that even in these circumstances that the Ice Rink would be opening, and I was very excited to be working the shift because I wasn't able to get an Ice Rink shift last year. I was told in a message to wrap up warm so I had everything to keep me warm besides my hat, I forget my hat of all things now I'm going to have to spend 3 and a half hours with a cold head, lovely. So I get into work, get myself a radio, and go to my position with my work colleague and one of my managers, and I'm told that I won't be in the cold, but instead in the warm, in the entrance of the museum to help people entering with any enquiries regarding tickets, the Ice Rink itself and toilets, so I didn't need to wrap up or worry about being cold, buzzing. The shift was fantastic and easily one of the best in a while and one of the best I had all year, which isn't saying much seeing how most of the year I haven't been working and the pandemic has been driving my colleagues and I up the wall. The shift was mostly quiet and the majority of it was my work colleague and one of my managers chatting away from 5pm to 8:30pm, and my work colleague got me a coffee at one point, and I got myself one later on, drinking coffee on the job, love it. I was buzzing after the shift, I really did miss working the evening shifts, and I loved how it was a shift that was easy, mostly quiet, no silly or arrogant visitors, well there was one but there's always going to be one; in the end, it was great to be back, great shift back, hard to tell when I'll be working next with everything still changing, and me working zero hours again, we'll see what happens, and if this is the last shift of the year for me, then I went out on a high.
Next is Tuesday, and I'm meeting a friend, hooray for socialising!! So I went to The White Swan to meet a friend of mine, last time he and I met was I believe July or August, he's my closest classmate from secondary so it was nice to meet him before Christmas. We had a good chat, catching up on things, eating small meals and desserts, I paid for the desserts by the way, the taste of the Cookie Dough Sandwich is the closest thing to heaven. It was such a nice few hours, and after we said bye I walked home because the nearly night sky and Christmas lights around was making me feel festive, so I walked home listening to Christmas music, it was great, and bumped into my mum who just finished her shift at work, lovely stuff.
Now it is Wednesday, and my plan was to go into work to sort something out and make a little day of it in Greenwich, so now I am back to zero hours I have to submit my shifts and hours on a programme called ITrent, that's a part of how I get paid, and with the payroll cutoff being a day away, I thought to go in and get it sorted. So I get there, on the computer, and the programme isn't there, but Billy why can't you do it at home? Well Billy it's because it doesn't work at home which is why I am at work. So I got in contact with one of my managers and she was able to help me out. Afterwards I decided to go to Kaspa's, I had a lovely time going there in Croydon over a month ago so I thought to go in and get some lunch there, sadly they were only accepting takeaway and no sitting in, so I just got a milkshake to takeaway, After Eights Milkshake, it was lovely, made my mum jealous with that one; although, I did find out that there was going to be a Kaspa's opening in Angel soon, so I can take my family one day, can't wait for that day. For only the 2nd time in my life, I got on a boat on the Thames, so my workplace is right near the Greenwich pier and I decided to take the boat to Embankment, have a little stroll and then get the bus home. Being on the boat was just incredible, magnificent, and the sights all around were just marvelous, and I began to think "I should travel to and from work on a boat now" and then we got to London Bridge where we were stopping every 2 or 3 minutes and then I went "yeah maybe I shouldn't travel to and from work on a boat, time management will be a worry," got off the boat, took a stroll through Embankment and then got the 341 bus home, nice little day I made for myself.
Going onto Thursday, and I spent the day chilling until I went to my drama class during the evening, another great class with another great showcase of talent, and personally I felt like I had moment of the night, the actor I worked with had a line which went something like "look at you the dark horse," and I didn't know what to say so I made a gesture with both of my arms and hands that looked like a horse gallop and said "neigh," and it just made everyone laugh, it was so bad that it was unintentionally funny, I just didn't know how to respond, but if that was the best response, so be it, glad I was able to make everyone laugh. Afterwards we all went to The Shakespeare's Head as usual which was nice, it was a good evening overall.
Time to get down on Friday, and Friday was an interesting day, productive day too. Originally, and this is what I was hiding from the last blog, I was supposed to be seeing Ms. Vidal but she had to cancel unfortunately, but instead we had a video chat and that was really nice, and rearranged for next Wednesday so that should be good. During the evening I met up with a friend of mine, he use to work at The Old Star and we went to, you guessed it, The Old Star, and that was a lovely evening with some of it being spent talking about This Is Us since I've caught up, it was his idea I should watch it and I did, and now we have fun chats about it, met some of the locals that come to The Old Star too, including this man called Billy and his German Shepherd dog, Bailey (or is it Bayley, it's one or the other), and Bailey (I'll just spell his name as Bailey) is a big baby, two years old and he is a big handsome boy that loves everyone, except when he gets tired and worn out from all the love and attention, couldn't blame him. On the way home I got the 63 from King's Cross, and bumped into a familiar face, got off, and bumped into her mum and sister, her sister was in my class and use to go on my school bus with me, so this familiar face, was moving out and needed assistance, was I was told it wasn't going to take long, so I thought to help because my heart is too big and pure, and I find out that she's been having boyfriend trouble, he's out at the moment, and she's taking her stuff out, and the tv, what have I got myself into, why have I got myself into this, WHY AM I SUCH A NICE GUY!?!? Eventually, luckily without any drama, we leave, with her things, and the TV, and I believe a cabinet too, yeah what have I got myself into, and I helped carry some of the bags back to her family's flat which was a 5 minute walk away, the tightness of the plastic on my fingers were a killer, but eventually I get there, drop the stuff off, and leave, got home just after midnight.
OH LOOK IT'S SATURDAY, OH WOW I CAN'T BELIEVE IT EXCEPT I SHOULD BELIEVE IT!!!!! So for Saturday I was in my PJs all day, and I had some family members pop up, some are going to be spending Christmas in Spain so they're seeing us early and opening their presents and receiving our presents from them early, and it was really nice having us lot together, and all 5 nieces and nephews in the same room, all little blondies, though there's the 2nd to oldest who's either strawberry blonde or ginger, it's debatable. I was supposed to see the same mate from his party last week during the evening but that got cancelled and rescheduled to Sunday afternoon, oh well, at least I was having fun with my family.
Finally it's Sunday, and Sunday, it wasn't the best one, at all, so you know how I was meant to see my mate the previous evening and we rescheduled for Sunday afternoon, he was contacted by his workplace to do a last minute job which he didn't know how long it would take so I spent my Sunday waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting, until around 4pm or 5pm when he finished the job, we decided to reschedule for the following weekend, wasn't his fault or anything these things happen when it comes to work and that can't be helped. Mentally I felt like I was completely out of it for the majority of the day, tired, exhausted, drained, lost, so maybe us cancelling on this day and postponing was deep down a blessing in disguise; and that was how I ended my week.
So that was my week, more happened than I originally thought, in my head I was thinking "not much happened so this should be a quick one" and the more I reflected on the week, I was like "oh wow, I was quite busy" so this week overall, I say it was a good week, did have an underwhelming end on Sunday but in the end it was a definitely a good week, and now we enter another week, whatever could happen this week? Maybe Tier 3 could happen? Maybe plans I have will get cancelled? Maybe cases could go higher? With how crazy these last 9 months have been I am expecting anything, which I hate because this is Christmas time, it's the holidays, we should all be excited, happy and joyful, but COVID just seems to ruin everything for some reason, and once things get better, they also get worse, it's a never ending frustrating battle even with the vaccine out, which some people appear to be allergic to, IS THERE ANY WINNING HERE!??!?!?!? I swear I'm going to be bald by the time this thing is done. So that's blog 33, we're still going strong somehow, and here's to next week, whatever comes, and the last whole week before Christmas, I shall see you all then, Sayōnara!"
November 30th - December 6th
"32, I always liked the number 32 and I never knew why, it's one of those things where you look at something and for absolutely no reason you like it, so someone will constantly ask why you like it, and you never explain why because there's no reason why. In this week we celebrate the end of the 2nd lockdown, going back to some level of normality, and some theatres are back too which is just incredible, should've been months ago with limited capacity but nevertheless some are back and we are all happy, Christmas is getting closer, everything is getting colder and cosier, the nights are getting earlier, it's all looking good, and now in blog number 32, we go from the end of the 2nd lockdown to the beginning the the aftermath of the 2nd lockdown, and closer to Christmas and New Year's, LET'S DO THIS!
It's Monday, not another one, but it's a Monday in lockdown so it's ok, and I met up with Jack on this day, he came up to mine for a few hours, watched tv, had dinner, and dropped him off at the bus stop, bit straight to the point Bill, that's how I like to do things Bill, straight to the point.
Next up is Tuesday, and Tuesday was quite a productive day. To begin, I had to create my Microsoft Teams account for my meeting with Katrien from Think Forward to discuss the online etiquette and safeguarding for Friday, and that was annoying because I didn't know what I was doing, where to go, what to press, and it made me think, there's Google Meets, Zoom, Microsoft Teams, Skype, Houseparty, all of these apps, programmes and social media sites that involving video chatting, CAN WE ALL STICK TO ONE PLEASE, any way eventually I get it all sorted, all signed in and ready, and feeling very cranky so I didn't start off on the best note mentally. Then I had the meeting with Katrien that went really well, got to know a lot about her, she got to know all about me, we discussed Friday, and added each other on LinkedIn, so now I prepare more for Friday; and plot twist I didn't need to create the Microsoft Teams account because the call happened on Zoom so technically I was getting cranky for nothing, now that's kinda funny. NEXT UP, right after the meeting with Katrien, I met my Mum after work, and we both went to Angel together to do some shopping at M&S, got McDonald's to take home, and then on the way home I bump into one of my drama teachers, whose class is coming back on Thursday, and him and my mum met for the first time which was really nice. During the evening, I watched the virtual premiere of Silent Night, and this was an interesting experience, you book your ticket online, the link is attached to the confirmation email, you click the link, and it takes you to the online screening, the film is shown, followed by a Q&A; but Billy, why this film in particular? Well Billy it's because I know one of the actresses in it, her name is Sarah Leigh, I've known her for 3 years, worked with her a couple of times, if you've seen the short film I was in Boy in a Park, she played my mum, and she's fantastic, and it's so good to see her in a feature length film, and also in it is Joey Fry who was just in the Danny Boyle film Yesterday last year, and the film is great, plenty of twists and turns and a very engaging plot, would definitely recommend it, in cinemas December 11th, on digital and demand December 14th and on DVD December 28th. Overall, this day began a bit bumpy, but it ended up being a good day.
Now it's Wednesday, the day lockdown ended, and I couldn't have cared less, I know it sounds terrible but I actually really enjoyed this lockdown, chilling nearly all the time, having the house to myself half the week, I was having a blast and I wouldn't have been fussed if it got extended, and now I shall receive extreme backlash and proceed to get cancelled for my unpopular comments, sad. So I was supposed to see Katrien again to test Microsoft Teams, to see if we can use it for Friday, originally from what I remember it was scheduled for 1:30pm, and then I got a notification on my phone that Katrien gave me an invite on Google Calendar for 12:30pm, the time as of that moment, almost 12:30pm, so I rushed off the PlayStation and set everything up, and everything was working fine so now we are prepared for Friday. Besides that, I didn't really do much on this day, so I slept, a lot, and I forgot that lockdown even ended, when I was reminded I was like "ah ok," and that was that.
We then head to Thursday, where I spent the day chilling, and then in the evening, I went back to drama, after 5 long weeks, we're back, and the class overall was great, everyone was on fire, we all felt the same way about lockdown ending and wanting to go back and it just felt so good to be back, the positivity, the energy, the charisma from everyone, it truly was a great class. Afterwards, some of us went to Shakespeare's Head, WE'RE BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As soon as I went in I had this massive smile, being back in there, the Christmas decorations all around, the Christmas music, if there's one thing I love it's a pub and it's atmosphere during the Christmas season, that night I was told by one of my classmates that they changed the curfew, so last orders are at 10pm but you have until 11pm to leave, now that is much better and safer because having people all go home at the same time is risky, can get crowded on streets and on public transport, so nice change, shame it wasn't done earlier but better now than never, and it was a lovely way to end the night.
It's Friday, let's get down on Friday, and today was the day, today was the day where I Billy Chandler, was going to do a Masterclass Q&A for Think Forward, in front of 30, maybe 40, students and teachers, and it was going to be interesting, I did feel a little nervous, because this was something that was involving quite a bit of people, and I was worried if a connection would get lost or something would become unclear, after around 45 or so minutes that wasn't the case, and it went really well, I was happy with a lot of answers I made and I could've done it easily for another 45 minutes if it wasn't for lessons, or something popping up on schedules, but I was very happy to have that opportunity, and give teenagers and adults like me the best advice I could, I'm not a big storied success, I haven't been in any big Hollywood movies, I haven't got a 6 or 7 figure check, but right now with the position I'm in, it's a start, and maybe, hopefully, one of those participating in the Q&A can take my advice, and go further than I have so far, I'll be keeping a close eye on on who can do that. Later on I do what I usually do on Friday evenings and met my dad after work to get the takeaway.
So it's Saturday, originally I had nothing planned for Saturday, and then I get a text from a mate of mine, same mate that I watched the FA Cup Final with back in August, and he was having a party at his house to celebrate his birthday early, his birthday is on Christmas Day. So that evening, I got dressed, took the tube to South Woodford, and made it to his house. It was a lovely evening, and met really nice people, another one of our friends turned up and that was a great surprise. During the party, and here's some backstory, I mentioned it briefly months ago so I'll explain here, myself, my mate who was having the party, and our mate who came, the three of us call ourselves The Rat Pack, and I'm the Sinatra of the Pack so they nickname me Frank or Frankie, and everyone was calling me Frank or Frankie, I loved it. It was a lovely night.
Finally it's Sunday and today was the day, the day where I was going to take my parents out for their early Christmas present, Roles We'll Never Play at the Apollo Theatre, first show since February and I was very excited. We first went for a meal at Wetherspoons which was nice, especially the Warm Cookie Dough Sandwich with Ice Cream, if calories, sugar and anything else involved were never a worry I could eat that everyday. Afterwards we went to the Apollo Theatre where we had our temperatures checked, tickets scanned, and once we went into the theatre we went right to the box, I saw the door, slowly and anxiously putting my right hand on the doorknob, turned it to the side with suspense as if the whole world was watching me, I open the door to see, our box, all to ourselves, those 3 seats with the stage on the left and the entire audience on the right, we felt like royalty and it was all thanks to me being a good boy, though we had to keep our masks on despite being away from other people, and we really were away from other people, the box was like the three of us together in our own bubble, yet we had to keep our masks on, ok I guess. Overall it was a great show which was a wonderful showcase of upcoming, well known and veteran talent of people that have performed on stage especially in the West End, one person that performed had 18 West End credits, that's the dream right there; and they all performed songs that were either performed by characters of the opposite gender in a show, for example, a male singing Defying Gravity from Wicked by Elphaba, a female character, and so on, and even songs that are out of the performers comfort zones like the topics the songs tackle or the genre; it was a lovely show back, and it felt so good to be back, and I'm already looking forward to whatever my other upcoming trips will be, got another one booked for my parents, they don't know what the show is they have to wait until Christmas Day, and it's for a show in January, and I booked myself Les Misérables The Staged Concert in February which I cannot wait with a packed cast including Michael Ball, Alfie Boe, Carrie Hope Fletcher and Matt Lucas, there's also Back to the Future in May or June, yep a Back to the Future musical, gotta love it, and it's just great to see theatre slowly coming back, just pure joy, should've happened earlier but better now than never.
That's my week, back out of lockdown, getting closer to the holidays, back to work soon so that should be good, seeing a friend from secondary, and more friends, and I'm seeing someone very special I won't spoil it you have to wait until next week's blog to see who it is; things are picking up and it's nice. Looking back at what I've typed it was a very productive week, nearly every paragraph is quite lengthy, easily the longest blog in the last 5 or 6 weeks, and who knows how long the next one will be. I've caught up on This Is Us, now I have to wait until next month for more episodes, can't believe I actually caught up, and I was very impressed with the production, because of COVID and everything else that has happened this year, they postponed production and rewrote some of if not most of the scripts, began filming in September, and released their first two episodes the following month, and each episode is between 40 and 45 minutes so that is incredible that they did that much in such short time, everyone on that show in front and behind the camera deserves praise. I shall see you all next week, a week closer to complete normality, the first complete week post second lockdown, a week closer to escaping 2020, and a week closer to Christmas and New Years, it's gonna be good, au revoir!"
November 23rd - November 29th
"31, got nothing for 31, except my birthday lands on the 31st of July. That's all, I got nothing else to say. However, this is the last whole week of lockdown, we've got new tier rules that are worse than before, and we have a date for when the rules are going to be dropped, I wonder how long that'll last. Anyways this is blog 31, let's see how another week in lockdown went.
It's Monday, and Tuesday, wait there's more, and Wednesday! WOW, Billy are we really having three days in one paragraph?! You bet Billy, and you want to know what happened over these three days Billy? Not much, Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday were essentially the same days, except I did go on the PlayStation on Tuesday. I wake up, chill, eat lunch, watch some This Is Us, internet, laptop, dinner, nap depending on how I feel, bath or shower, everyone goes to bed as I stay up, alone, in sheer silence, and I can hear my thoughts, not really the telly is on with the sound but occasionally it happens. So that was my first three days of the week.
Next is Thursday, that's so weird to say, so weird to begin the week, and then go right to Thursday. On this day, I met up with Jack, him and I went to Bombay Burrito which I highly recommend to anyone living in Islington, and then we went to meet his sister, it was the first time I saw her in nearly 3 years, and it was on Jack's birthday, nearly 3 years later we meet again, how time flies. It was a good few hours, good chat, caught up with his sister, and I left them around 4pm, found myself limping walking home, and for that, I have to rewind a couple of hours. When I was getting dressed, I decided to wear my new pair of Converse, mostly white, bit of light blue, really nice pair, but high tops are always going to be hit or miss; I spent 10 or 15 minutes trying to put them on, definitely have some creases already, and there wasn't anything to pull onto to assist me in putting them on so I kept loosening the laces as much as I can, it got stressful to the point where I started sweating, and eventually I got them on, and now we go forward a few hours and why I was limping, new pair of shoes, not thick enough socks, and on the back of my right foot, it was like a blister, except it was popped, and the skin was gone, and it was killing me, it was painful trying to take the shoe off, so that's my right foot done for the next few days.
Coming right up is Friday, a more laid back day, my nan came up, and so did one of my neighbours, so we had some company and that was nice. Later on I helped mum hoover around the house, I mostly did the living room, by the door, by the stairs and the kitchen, it was good, it was quite annoying dragging it around, but it's something I could get used to. Later on during the evening I met my dad after work, collected our takeaway as we walked home together. I felt good later that evening, there's always a really good feeling on Friday evenings even when nothing is going on, it feels special. I'll never forget the Fridays where I finish school for the week, or college, work, even go to the pub or the club with friends, or a class at the Anna Scher Theatre, no matter what, that Friday feeling is always there.
Look where we are now we're at Saturday, and I spent my Saturday chilling at home, felt really tired, I even intended to watch the Tyson vs. Jones fight but I just felt so tired and so drained that I just couldn't be bothered. So all day I was just indoors, in my PJs, chilling, resting, my brother in law came in at point, and did my nephew, and my cousin's son, at one point I helped my mum set up the Christmas tree and I now have that festive feeling, so some stuff did happen here and there, but that was my Saturday, felt a lot like a Sunday.
Speaking of Sunday, here we are, the finale, it's Sunday, see another new one, I always come up with new tricks. To begin Sunday, I didn't get out of bed until 3pm, I just kept waking up and falling asleep, I couldn't believe the time once I got up, must've been from how tired I felt yesterday, now I wake up, after a total of 8 - 9 hours of sleep, at 3pm, an hour until it gets dark. Since I woke up I didn't do much, chilled, played on the PlayStation, had dinner, and then I went for a walk, to get some well needed fresh air, walked through Angel, Upper Street, Essex Road, City Road and other streets and roads nearby, I even came across 3 foxes, one I shared intense eye contact with as it went toilet, very charming sight that was, and by the time I got home, it was just before 9pm, and that was how I ended my week.
That was the last whole week of lockdown, the first half was repetitive, felt like living the same day 3 times, and then it picked up with the other half, and for a week overall it was fine, I've had better, definitely had worse. I created a LinkedIn account this week, took a few years but I finally did it, I feel like I can get used to it, might find some really good people to work with eventually using it, this could help me a lot. Started Season 4 of This Is Us, getting close to catching up now, just need to finish this season, and then it's just a few in the next season, nearly there. I'll be going back to work in over a week, will be working an evening shift at the ice rink, I'm really looking forward to that, miss working evenings, travel isn't too bad, the night sky makes it all feel cozy, and I can chill all day, finish my shift, and then spend the night chilling until I want or have to sleep. The next time I'll write, another lockdown will be done, stores will be open, pubs will be open, restaurants will be open, museums will be open, gyms will be open, and most other things will be open, it's going to be very interesting. I'll see you all then, for the first December blog, and another week closer to Christmas and the new year."
November 16th - November 22nd
"It is 30, THE BIG 3 OH, another milestone in these series of blogs that right now look like they're never ending, but with the vaccine getting good results, there might be an ending, eventually. It's wild how it has been 30 weeks, with no delay, no hiatus, managed to put one up every week, a lot has happened in these 30 weeks, I never thought these blogs and this pandemic would be going on for this long, and I keep thinking of what's ahead, what's going to happen, what does the future hold for these? I reckon I'll still be doing these at 35, when it comes to 40 we'll have to wait and see, depending on what goes on with this vaccine. Welcome to Blog 30, and let's see what I've done with another week in lockdown, with a big number.
Kicking it off with Monday, and Monday was me just chilling, playing on the PlayStation, watching This Is Us, and then I got my Christmas presents for Mum & Dad sorted, along with another present I got them, tickets to Roles We'll Never Play on December 6th at 6:30pm at the Apollo Theatre, a show featuring numerous actors performing in roles that aren't in their comfort zone, and I got my parents and I box seating so that's going to be quite posh, and the Christmas present, that's a secret, I'm not telling you. Doing things like this for my parents, especially after all they've done for Frankie, myself and the rest of the family for the last few decades, it always feels so good to do something back for them, because they deserve it.
Next is Tuesday, and there isn't much to say about Tuesday, pretty much the same day as yesterday, besides the presents, nothing really to say, just living that furlough life by chilling all day in my PJs.
Following up with Wednesday, and happy to say, as a relief to all of you, that something happened, and I did something, and for the first time in 4 or 5 days, I got out of the house, WOW BILLY WHAT AN ACCOMPLISHMENT, LET'S ALL GIVE HIM A ROUND OF APPLAUSE! But yeah, I never stay in the house that long, I don't even remember the last time I stayed indoors for so long so going outside felt very weird. I went out to meet Mum after work, she finished 2 hours early, and we got the 38 bus up to Angel where my mum and I did a bit of food shopping, and got a coffee from Costa, and then we made our way home, easily the most productive day I had all week.
We then go to Thursday, and don't worry guys, Billy did something, Billy got out, AND THE CROWD GOES WILD!!!! I met up with Jack for the first time in a few weeks, I believe it was 4 or 5 weeks since we last met up, and we both met at Angel, and went to Terrace, which is a Turkish restaurant at Chapel Market, we got what we wanted to eat and went to the park opposite Sadler's Wells to eat it, we would've ate inside or find somewhere to eat it in, but lockdown has a lot of places closed, so we had to sit, on a wet bench, outdoors, and luckily it wasn't raining, and the food was as enjoyable and filling as it was. Afterwards we took a walk to a cafe that Jack would go to sometimes on his lunch break, Jack treated the both of us to a hot drink, and the people working there were really nice. Afterwards we took a walk to his house where I saw his mum for the first time since, I believe it was July or August, and we all had a chat, speaking about life, family, things we've been watching like shows and films; I then went to Jack's room for a bit before heading off home, good day.
Heads up it's Friday, and my Nan came up, yay, that was nice, and I also felt at one point really cold, cold to the point where I was wearing a jumper over my pajama shirt, unusual for me to do that indoors. Later on during the evening I met my dad after work to help bring home the takeaway for our family and that was my Friday.
Now it's Saturday, and for a Saturday I didn't really do anything, and my energy was really low. During the evening however we had some family come into my sister's house, I came in to see them, just to go back out because the boys wanted to see Frankie, Frankie didn't mind, and then afterwards we went back into my sister's where we stayed long after our family who came up left, we just sat there chatting until 1:30am, and I had a walking stick with me the entire time, it was my Uncle Jim's before he passed away, I just thought to take him around with me that night, keep me company, and I'm happy to say he did.
Finally it's Sunday, and this was a plan I made around 2 or 3 days prior, and that was to go for a walk to Hyde Park. The reason for this was because I was thinking a lot about Winter Wonderland, and how it isn't happening this year, I went twice, once this year and once before Christmas last year, it's a lot of festive fun but extremely expensive, and it did feel a bit sad knowing a part of the Christmas festivities won't be there for everyone; so I went, walked from my house, through to the West End and all the way to near Marble Arch Station, where the entrance and exit to Winter Wonderland would normally be. I came across the Animals in War Memorial, and near there I saw a lot of tents, I presumed they were the anti-lockdown lot, and there were loads of police around, vans too, and there was a guy going up and down on his bike dressed in old police uniform, the hat made it look like a poorly done cosplay, and he was rambling loudly about some strike since 1872, I don't know, but people were going around filming him, you see guys social distancing is going very well, and an older man with a mustache and I looked at each other at the same time with the same confused expression, 2020 has taken its toll on some people, some worse than others clearly. I entered Hyde Park, bought myself a cappuccino and took a nice long walk around, took a lot of pictures, don't think you'll be able to see them all but the scenery was so beautiful I couldn't put my phone away, the trees, statues, lakes, memorials especially the one for the victims of the 7/7 bombings and the fountain for Princess Diana, I couldn't believe the number of people as well, you wouldn't think there was a lockdown. I left just before 4pm, just so I could get on the bus and get home in time for dinner, I felt extremely tired after walking nearly nonstop for at least 3 hours, and it was a lovely way to end the week, will definitely do this again in the next week or two.
That was my week, 30th week of these blogs, some days were more busier than others, and I felt I was chilling quite a bit, but it's the lockdown and furlough life, and I don't mind it at all, it would be nice to go back to everything, have everything back to normal, or have things lifted but we don't know what's happening next, one thing could be said one day, the next it could all change who knows what will happen. Update on me watching This Is Us, just finished Season 3, another great season, looking forward to Season 4, they've released 5 episodes of Season 5 and aren't releasing anymore until January so I should definitely be caught up then. See you all next week, hopefully the last whole week of lockdown, we can do this."
November 9th to November 15th
"It's funny, I was thinking of what to write in the intro for 29, and the only thing that came to my mind was WrestleMania 29, main evented by John Cena and The Rock, who a lot of you know as Dwayne Johnson, and it was the last WrestleMania that me and two of my mates stayed up to watch together, wasn't the last pay per view, but it was the second to last we did together, I still remember the Cena and Rock match, not the best match to main event a big show like that upon reflection, but at the time, we were out of our seats, so engaged, drinks getting spilt, the entire house waking up, gotta love it. How was that 7 years ago? Look at us now, finished school, and the rest of our education, done different jobs, gone to different countries, lost loved ones, found love, made new friends, found new interests and hobbies, too much can happen in 7 years. This is blog 29, the first whole week in the second lockdown.
Starting with Monday, and I had another blood test, it was to check how much my blood has improved in the last two or three weeks, this time I had the sharper needle since that gets the blood into the tubes quicker, and I looked away this time so I wouldn't feel funny like last time, I also made sure to take deep breaths as well; it went really well, Ceri doing a wonderful job again. Afterwards I got lunch in Exmouth Market and went home for a few hours, then I went back out to meet my mum after her shift and see Ceri, you see the photo in the previous blog, that was when the photo was taken, and then my mum and I went home, decent day to start the week.
Next is Tuesday, wow that was quick, but so is life so let's make the most of it before it's too late, because before each of us know it we all will be going through those golden gates in heaven above wondering "where did it go wrong? What would I have done differently? HOW DID WE END UP LIKE THIS?!" Anyway back to the blog; Tuesday was chilled, PlayStation, This Is Us, a nap and I went for a jog during the evening, get that exercise in, get that fresh air, burn those calories, improve that stamina; I was out for around 45 minutes and I jogged near Exmouth Market and through Angel.
Carrying what's been going on this week onto Wednesday, ah you see, different introduction, I can be original sometimes; and after that introduction I hate to disappoint you all but Wednesday was almost exactly like Tuesday, except there was no jogging; yeah, this is the lockdown life, now, let's get onto Thursday.
Now it's Thursday, and I'm happy to let you all know that Thursday was different. To start, I found out my blood test results, all is green, all is good, very happy to hear, and I just got to keep healthy, however if the sweating does continue, I will definitely look more into weight loss and even my anxiety, it's the continuation of a fascinating journey. Next I find a parcel in my name, I open it up, and it's a book, and it's a book written by a certain someone, and was signed by a certain someone, and I mentioned this certain someone earlier, John Cena, DO DO DO DDDDDDDDDDOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! I got a video message from him a while ago after I made the order and I was wondering during the last week "I wonder if the book will come?" and what do you know, it did, wild coincidence. Later on I had lunch, and I was planning this for a few days; so one of my favourite snacks to have is nachos, get some tortilla chips, throw some cheese over it, and some salsa, and some sour cream, warm that up in the microwave and there you go; today I wanted that but different, I wanted to see how it was in the oven, and compare the two, and I don't use the oven much on my own so I was a bit rusty getting it to work at first; so I got the toppings, set it all up on the baking tray, put it in, turned the oven and the grill on and now I had to play the waiting game; and watch from outside as the cheese melted all over the tortilla chips; afterwards I ate it, very filling, but that's definitely going to be my prefered way of making nachos now. Afterwards, the day keeps going I know, AND IT'S ONLY EARLY AFTERNOON! I had a video call, and this was only confirmed the day prior so I had a day, just under that to prepare, no problemo; my video call was with Stephanie Kaiser from Quantum Black who is helping Elena, myself and everyone else involved with LNSEN, a project that includes a website that will help neurodiverse people so it's pretty big stuff; the video call was on Zoom which I'm not a big fan of using, however I found using it on the laptop much easier than using it on the phone, and the meeting was supposed to be 40-45 minutes, ended up being over an hour because I can't stop talking, you give me questions, I give you big answers, maybe too big, but big answers; and I was talking to Stephanie about my work, past jobs, experience in education, my Autism, what and how I can help neurodiverse people, also I answered a question about what tools I use, for a laugh I got out a screwdriver, I mean come on it was funny; overall the call went great, and I was really happy about how I did, how I answered questions, getting to know Stephanie and I look forward to seeing what happens with this project next; and before I go onto the next topic, do you want to know my position in this project and the site? Autism Champion Ambassador, I love it, I love it a lot, and since it has Champion in the title, I may as well get a championship belt online and wear it every meeting, got to stand out somehow, and I'm an Ambassador, that's a lot to take in, Son, Brother, Cousin, Student, Uncle, Brother in Law, Actor, Apprentice, Staff Member, Team Member, Writer, Director, Ambassador, wow, that's a lot of titles, and there's probably more titles that I've had in my life that I haven't even mentioned, crazy stuff, but it's good crazy. Claire messaged me regarding my shoutout to her on the blog two weeks ago, got really nice words from her so that made me feel good, everything was good today what's going on?! During the evening Mum and I went up to Angel to pick up McDonalds to take away and that was my Thursday. This was a great day overall, which is rare for me nowadays, but yeah, Thursday was great.
Coming up is Friday, and I started Friday off with mum, myself and my older brother's partner going to pick up my youngest niece from nursery, it was really nice to see her happy face once she sees us. We all walked up until City Road and during that time she was chatting away, she now calls mum Nanny Choc Choc because she always gives chocolate, that's adorable, and she said to me "Bill Bill, you're my best friend and Frankie's my boyfriend," so cute, so funny, she's just brilliant. Once we said our byes, my mum and I made our way to my uncle and aunt's house, where we had a coffee and a really nice chat. After getting home, my mum went back out to pick up my youngest nephew, he wasn't feeling well and his parents were working so we took him back home to ours where we looked after him until one of his parents got home. A few hours later I met my dad after work to help him with the takeaways, and that was my Friday.
Looky here it's Saturday, here you go another new one, and with this lockdown I'm now dreading weekends, because everyone is inside, nothing to do, and sometimes that can be a bit much for me, and a bit overwhelming. Luckily it was more relaxed than anything, started off the day with McDonald's breakfast which is always a good thing, and my nan came up for a bit which was nice, we all had a great chat and laugh. Afterwards I found out my family in America have a new dog, his name is Petey, he is a German Shepherd mix, a 8 week old rescue puppy, and HE, IS, SO, CUTE!!! Can't wait to meet him once this pandemic is done and we can fly anywhere and everywhere we want without any problems, I'm gonna give that good handsome boy big cuddles.
Finally it's Sunday, and you want to know what I got up to? Not much, shame ain't it, that buildup to the last day and not much really happened, well what can you do. I played on the PlayStation for a few hours and that was it really, nothing else really happened on my Sunday.
And that was the first whole week in this second lockdown, it was, a week in a lockdown really, not much to say except I made most of my free time, had few things planned ahead so I looked forward to those, and yeah, bit anticlimactic I know, but what can you do? I did forget to mention that I am now beginning Season 3 of This Is Us, I've laughed, cried, I even cried hard, we're talking saliva, snot, the lot, probably the hardest I cried all year, I won't say what episode because spoilers, and I did watch a wrestling pay per view last Saturday, I believe I forgot to mention that but that was a really good show, there's always one or two things I forget when writing these, and that's it, yeah, another blog done, another big one next week, 30, the big THREE OH, also big 3 is a reference to This Is Us, won't say why because spoilers. I shall see you all then, number 30, another week of lockdown, woo hoo."
November 2nd - 8th
"I called it, I called it weeks and weeks ago, a 2nd lockdown, me still doing the blogs, and here we are, we're in a 2nd lockdown and I am writing my 28th blog, how did we even get here? So this week was the last few days of freedom and the first few days of lockdown, I've got to be honest it doesn't feel like a lockdown, I guess it's either because everyone else feels that way which makes me feel that way, or that I got so used to how London looked during lockdown that the sight of almost everything closed is very familiar. Well I can look at it like this, it's a 2nd lockdown, I'm sure it won't be as long as the first, right? I'm the only one in the house furloughed so that's fantastic, getting the house to myself a few days a week is always going to be satisfying, and the days when the whole family are inside, I don't know, I guess we have to take it a few days at a time, now let's start this blog during the last few days of freedom.
Kicking things off with Monday, and it was my youngest niece's 3rd birthday, it's a shame she couldn't have a party with everyone up because of the government guidelines, however my mum and I did decide to surprise her when her and her mum (my sister in law) were going to pick up her older sister from school. Mum and I approached the car after it got parked, and we saw her sleeping, she looked absolutely adorable, her mum woke her up, she had a little whinge, just a couple of seconds, and then she was lively and chatty. I gave her the present I bought her, it was a doll, but with the texture of a teddy so it was really soft, and the doll's name was Flora, and she kept saying her name, hugging her, kissing her, she kept asking if she was her's and if she can take her home, I don't think she understood that it was a present, she's so sweet. After picking up her sister from school, we stood around for a while, having a chat, and then they went home, before mum and I went to Angel to do some shopping. During the evening I went to the gym, got to make the most of the gym before lockdown starts, and I actually worked on my stamina on the treadmill, WOW NO ONE SAW THAT COMING, and what I did was that I spent a minute and a half walking, and a minute and a half either jogging or running, and I'd repeat those two for the next ten minutes, it was good, it was tiring, and something I need to get used to, the rest of my time at the gym I worked on my chest, arms, thighs and legs.
Following up with Tuesday, and I went to work, and not for a shift, but for coffee and cake with my line manager and some of my colleagues, there was a bittersweet feeling in the air, knowing that this was going to be nice for us lot to be together, but also that lockdown is coming up and the museum will be closed again, so for now, this is the last time we'll all see each other until next month, maybe longer depending on how lockdown goes. As we all met and sat down, my line manager gave us all a magnet each which was an art picture of Greenwich, and a card with a special message, I read mine and I thought I was going to start crying, the words I've heard and even seen before, but the meaning hit me so much more harder knowing that today is the last time we'll see each other for a bit; after an hour of chatting and having a laugh, we all went our separate ways. Once I got home, I settled down for half an hour before going out to get my haircut and a trim on my beard, instead of going into lockdown with the mindset of growing everything out, why not go into the next lockdown fresh and clean; so I went inside, and got a 1 on top and 0 on the side and I got my beard all trimmed and fresh, and then I went to see my mum at her workplace and she absolutely loved what I had done, and then I got the first of many comments I would get this week, this suits you so much better Bill, and that was only the start of many more who would say that.
Coming up next is Wednesday, and I started off my day with meeting my mum and her work colleague for lunch at a nearby cafe, her work colleague did my blood test 2 or 3 weeks ago (was it 2 or 3 weeks ago? I can't even remember), and I may as well say her name in case anyone from SMMA or The Courtyard recognise her, Ceri, ring a bell? There's a picture of the two of us below, you'll probably recognise the eyes. The lunch was lovely and we all had a good laugh, and I paid, because I'm a good boy. Later on during the evening I went to the gym, one last time before lockdown began, and I did what I did Monday with the treadmill, felt harder this time, I blamed lunch, and then after this I worked on my legs, chest, back and arms before heading home.
So right now we've got Thursday, the first day of lockdown, got no plans, drama class is postponed until lockdown is over, absolutely nothing going on, except, it was my youngest niece's first day at nursery, YYYYYAAAAAAYYYYYY, first she turned 3, now she is starting nursery, what is going on?!?!? So her mum spent time at ours after dropping her off and then her and I went down to pick her up, and her little face in her uniform could make anyone's heart melt, and she had a good day too so that was wonderful, all these kids are growing up too fast, I'm just wondering where niece or nephew number 6 is coming, unless that's my job, and if that is, good luck to me because my love life is dreadful. Later on I went to a family friend's house, it was one of my brother's best friends' birthday so I dropped off his card and dropped off some beef for his mum, and that was my Thursday, quite productive if I say so myself.
What's this, it's Friday! What did I do on this day?! Nothing really, played on the PlayStation and then during the evening I met dad after work, he was getting a takeaway for us so I just met him, and helped him carry the bags home, that's it really, don't know what anyone else expected on a Friday during lockdown.
Now it's Saturday, and on this day I helped Mum with the shopping up Angel, got myself some dinners for Monday and Tuesday, helped with the bags, and I got myself a Strawberries & Cream Frappuchino from Starbucks. During the evening I spent a couple of hours on the PlayStation and that was my Saturday, nice, chilled, relaxing, plus doing something for around an hour or so, good day.
Finally we've reached Sunday, and I woke up not in the best mood, I mean it's Sunday, nothing is happening, which is now like everyday, but the difference is that everyone is in, in an overpriced flat where peace and quiet can sometimes be hard to get, so I decided to go for a walk, clear my head, get some fresh air, and in my new tracksuit which I felt really nice in. I must've been out for around an hour and a half, maybe two, going around Angel, Old Street, Essex Road, Upper Street and City Road, I then went home to nap for around 3 or so hours, and that was my Sunday.
That was my overall week, went very quick, and wasn't a bad week either, had a couple of deliveries arrive including a new tracksuit, game for the PS4, mouse for the laptop, so all of that is good, and the news of the week was Biden becoming President and Harris becoming Vice President, the only thing I got from that was a question, and that question is why does everyone in the UK care about the US Election so much? Why does the UK have this mad obsession with America? It's as if they're all living there. I don't know, and I don't care, sometimes it's hard for me to care about things, if I don't understand it, or if I can't relate to it, I'm just not going to care, you can convince me to care, but it won't work, you can even torture me to make me care, it just won't work, sorry not sorry. Anyway, it's going to be really interesting to see what next week brings, nothing planned, first whole week in lockdown, let's see how mad the world will be, it's already mad enough, both with anger and insanity, yet we've all been in lockdown before so it should be fine, should be easy, I guess. So I will see you all next week, anything else to leave you with? Stay healthy, do positive things whatever they are, look after those around you, and support the arts, I know a thing or two don't match up but I wanted to get a certain message out there, see y'all next week."
October 26th to November 1st
“So, we have now entered Blog 27, the last few days of October, the beginning of November, and the number 27, there isn't really much to say about it, except there is a list called the 27 Club, a list that consists of musicians, artists, actors and other famous figures that have passed away at the age of 27, and this list includes Brian Jones, Jimi Hendrix, Janis Joplin, Jim Morrison, Kurt Cobain, Jonathan Brandis, Jade Goody, Amy Winehouse, Anton Yelchin and the list goes on, it's quite scary isn't it, I'm 24 now, 27 is just under 3 years away, and I'm an actor, so that's worrying, but put it this way, I'm planning to be around for a very long time, and if I'm not, then I hope to accomplish in death what I couldn't in life, go down as a pioneer to people like me, and of course, as an absolute legend. Geez Billy, did you need to go that deep? Well I’m sorry Billy, I couldn’t think of anything to write involving 27, then what are you going to do for 28 Billy? I don’t know Billy, why are you talking to yourself? I don’t know Billy I tend to do this on a daily basis; ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Blog 27.
After that deep and personal opening, we go to Monday, so from the beginning of this week I knew that I didn't have much plans this week, so it was going to be interesting to see what I was going to do this week, and the one day I choose to do nothing but chill on, was of course going to be this one, continued watching This Is Us which I am loving, and I don't recall doing anything else, just relaxing, having a me day, not worrying about a thing, and sometimes those kind of days are just absolutely necessary.
Going onto Tuesday, originally was meant to be a work day but I booked the last of my annual leave off on this day. Tuesday this week was similar to Monday, that I was chilling, watching This Is Us, and then the evening came, and the evening was different to Monday's, because I decided to be a good boy and go gym, but before that, I saw my eldest niece and nephew, who were staying at my eldest sister's house for the next few nights, ended up chasing my nephews up and down the flat floor, another realisation of why I need to work on my stamina. I then went to the gym, where I worked on my thighs, legs, chest and shoulders, and I came back feeling great, which is always good when a workout is done.
Next is Wednesday, in the day just like the two previous days I was just chilling and watching This Is Us, and then in the evening is when things got busy, had quite of bit of family members come up, if I mean quite a bit, I mean all of my siblings, spouses and children, and they were all staying and chatting in my eldest sister's house, while my part of the family, we had to do the babysitting with my nieces and nephews, and if I mean babysitting, I mean all five of them, in the same house, and there is one more of them than us, so my parents, younger brother and I had a numbers disadvantage, and it showed, there was a lot of noise, tantrums, play fighting between the kids that could've got out of hand, and much more mayhem, there was also a point where I actually would have one of the kids on my shoulders, and I would perform squats, did 5 with the eldest nephew, another 5 with my youngest nephew, and tried to do 5 with my second to youngest niece, and couldn't do more than 2, so now I know my limit when it comes to performing squats with extra weight on my shoulders, which is 12, and after those squats my thighs were killing me, I was feeling the pain for the next 3 days. After what felt like forever, the kids all went into my eldest sister's house, and all was quiet, it was over, it was done, and there was peace for the rest of our evening.
We follow up with Thursday, began Thursday with a friend of my mum's, her daughter and granddaughter coming up which was nice, and then I went to my drama class during the evening, and everything I was in, I was doing great with, along with my confidence this class, I just kept making everyone laugh, I felt like I was on fire, and this momentum just kept building, and then the ending happened, so to conclude the class, we all got around in a circle, and we all had to say starting with the letter A, a name, what they bought, and what country or city did they buy it in, and you couldn't do the next letter until someone got eliminated, and the thing is with me is that I have a short attention span, so I missed that little part out, and I thought we were all doing different letters, so one person does A, the next does B, the next does C onwards etc. So in the rotation chosen, I was looking to go third, and while the first person did A, I spent the next moment thinking of what to say, while completely missing what the second person said, so in my mind I'm still thinking it's C, so I say what I think, which I believe was "Conor bought Cars in Connecticut," and just like that, first one out, well done Bill, well done, but I didn't let that affect how well I did that evening. Afterwards myself and 3 others went to The Shakespeare's Head and that's Thursday done.
Right here is Friday, and Friday was quite productive, I started the day seeing my friend from the previous Saturday, I went up to her house, and her son was there too, spoke to him a lot about films, shows and public transport, and it was a really nice two and a half hours. Later on I had a really nice chat with Ms. Vidal on the phone, we spoke about what's been going on this half term, what could be happening next with COVID in the country, and what we've been watching, the chat was around 25 minutes, and it really was lovely.
Now it's Saturday, which is odd because the previous day felt like a Saturday. and on this day, I was working, now I know what you all are thinking, Billy, why would you work on a weekend? Well it was Halloween and with COVID going on I had no plans, and it was also the last day on my contract as a VSA worker before they put me back into the Events Host position, so I thought, well why not? Sometimes I need to tell myself to not be that optimistic. To start, I got onto the tube, Angel Station, the Northern line, and I only find out once I'm on the tube that the tube was terminating at Moorgate, one stop before I had to get off, once I got off, I find out that some of the Northern line is closed for the weekend, of course it would be, so from Moorgate I had to get the Hammersmith and City line to Liverpool Street, and then the Central line to Bank, and then the DLR to Cutty Sark, where I got to work just a couple of minutes before briefing started, I got so lucky. Then the day came, horrible weather so people were trying to get in as quick as they could, some people were having problems booking their tickets through the website, it was all really overwhelming. I spent the majority of my day keeping an eye on the exit, and the exit has two automatic glass doors, one is used for when people leave the museum, the other is for when people leave the cafe, in between are barriers, and I would turn my head for a brief moment, the next thing I see is someone going under the barrier, and there were a couple of people that did that, and people did that to either enter the cafe, or go into the shop, I mean they could've just gone around the two doors, would've taken a few extra seconds but still, and we even had a woman have a go at us because of the one way system, so if you wanted to leave the museum and go to the cafe, you'd have to leave the museum, walk down for like 5 seconds, and go through the door, and this woman wasn't having it, only because it was raining, so you can't be bothered to go outside, for 5 seconds, like 5 seconds in the rain isn't going to ruin your hair or makeup, when I said people were getting cranky last week, I meant it, and it's gotten worse. During the last hour, yep there's more, I get told that I'll be staying an extra hour with a team leader to keep an eye on the cafe, I had no idea, and the team leader that told me slapped himself on the forehead, he thought someone would've told me already, these are stressful times, I wasn't too bothered about staying back, would've I prefered to have been told this earlier? Absolutely, but I'll be a good boy, stay that extra hour, make myself look better, and maybe get paid extra for my next payroll, also, they're relying on one team leader, and another team member, that being me to keep an eye on one area, I think that's pretty cool. The hour past, it was easy, and it was time to go home, got on the DLR, and got off at Bank, and I went to get the 43 bus but here's the problem, due to the insane number of roadworks going on, I couldn't travel anywhere, so I ended up walking all the way home from Bank, what a day. We weren't done yet, everyone was waiting for Boris' announcement and it was what we expected, lockdown for the next month, it was obvious it was happening, plans could change in the next few weeks for better or worse depending on the number of cases, we'll see.
Finally it's Sunday, on this day, and I made this plan a couple of days prior, I decided to take a trip to Croydon, I did ask two friends who live near there if they wanted to meet, but neither of them could make it so I was riding solo. I got to Highbury & Islington Station and took the Overground line to West Croydon and from there I took a walk around the place and went into a couple of shops, I ended up going into Lush and buying nearly £60 worth of bath bombs, yes, you read that correctly. I then went to get lunch in Kaspa's, I have never been to Kaspa's and have expressed interest before, so why not? I went in and got myself a Bubblicious Sundae and a Bubblegum and Sour Skittles Milkshake, and both were amazing. After this I was looking to get on the tram but some of the stops were closed so I got onto the 410 bus and got off near Wandle Park where I took a look around and took plenty of pictures, I then got onto the tram, which from my experience is like a bus on the inside because of the layout of the seats, and on the outside it's likeness is close to a tube, I was wondering what to do next and I saw that there were two stops with the word "Mitcham" so I decided to see what was going on, and see the difference between the two Mitchams; got off at Mitcham Junction, on one side was the golf club, and on the other was a road and a pathway with trees surrounding it, I walked down this path just to realise it was leading to someone's house, so I turned around and got back onto the tram. Got off the next stop at Mitcham and, it was houses, just lots and lots of houses, so the difference between the two is that one has more houses than the other, so I got back onto the tram which took me to Wimbledon. Once I got off at Wimbledon I took a look around the area and then went to the Prince of Wales pub. After this I got onto the train to Waterloo and once I got off I walked to the bus stop where I waited for the 341, and I must've waited for around 20-25 minutes, these roadworks are delaying all of the buses, eventually I got on the bus and got home, by the time I got home it was nearly 7pm, so I was out for around 7 hours.
And that was my week, it went so quick, I felt like it went quickest from Monday to Thursday, that went in a flash, and here we are, now in November, 2nd to last month of the year, the time the weather begins getting colder, the night comes earlier and the Christmas adverts begin to come on TV, and now as I’m writing, we’re approaching a second lockdown which from the start was inevitable, a lockdown that’s meant to go on for a month, I’m not too fussed about it, if we could go over 3 months without pubs, restaurants, gyms and cinemas, we can do it again easily, plus I’ve got a lot of This Is Us to watch so that’s going to keep me busy, and with mum, dad and Frankie at work, that gives me plenty of time to catchup on a lot of stuff on the fire stick. I am always going to think of the what if scenarios, what if it gets extended, what if it stops in some UK cities and continued in some, could you imagine one UK city in lockdown during Christmas and New Years? I don’t even want to picture that, we’ll see what happens, I’m hoping for the best, for everyone. Also I have to question one thing, so we can’t mix in with anyone that doesn’t live with us but we have to go to nursery, school, college or university where there are a mix of people from different households, yeah sure, that makes so much sense. Before I go, gotta give a shoutout to a good friend of mine, Claire Churchman aka The Unusual Stereotype, who has written some fantastic blogs involving topics such as mental health and OCD, and they’re all fantastic, with plenty of advice and plenty to learn, highly recommend them; I met Claire five years ago at the Anna Scher Theatre and we’ve been good friends since, and collaborated numerous times in plays which was always fun, she’s always been really supportive and has given me great advice especially when I’ve been at my low points, she’s a really great friend and she’s always going to have a special place in my heart, the link to her blogs are below, please give them a read if you have the time. That’s the blog guys, nice mixture of emotions, events and quite a bit of This Is Us (I am becoming obsessed with that show), and I will see you next week for when we enter lockdown again, we’ve done it once before guys, we can do it again.”
October 19th to October 25th
"So Billy, we have a very special question to ask you, do you know what the question is? The question is, what can you write for blog 26? How can you introduce this one blog? I can't. What do you mean you can't? I can't think of anything regarding the number 26, there's nothing there. Ok, so should we just get on with it? Yes Billy, let's get on with it.
Monday, what a wonderful day to start the week, and it can't get any better than doing a work shift, how splendid! So what happened was that I was doing the rotation on the ground floor and one person didn't come in last minute, so instead of swapping around or calling someone to come in, we've all just decided to swap amongst ourselves anytime we wanted to, made things easier, easier than looking at one rotation the whole day, and Monday is normally one of the more quiet days so that helped, but I did realise that some people coming to the museum have become more cranky, many still asking if they can come through despite explaining that they needed tickets, or they needed to go to the entrance on the other side, slowly but surely people are losing their minds, we've just got to prepare for it, anarchy is amongst us. Overall it was a fine day with a fine work shift.
Next up is Tuesday, and I went for a blood test at my local clinic, just by Exmouth Market, used to go here a lot as a kid so it was bringing back memories, and my mum works there now so that's good. Last time I remember going here was actually for a blood test as well, at the time the thinning in my hair was getting more significant so I had a blood test to determine if the thinning is natural or due to stress, and it was natural, yikes. This blood test was to do with my sweating, something that was overdue, and a problem I've been having on and off for seven years, so I went in, and saw the doctor, who actually used to attend the sixth form in St. Mary Magdalene just like me, small world, we're having a little chat, next thing you know a needle is in my arm, could barely feel it, and then the tube comes in, and I did what no one should do when having a blood test, I looked at the tube, and saw the blood go in, and then I felt funny, then one tube was done, and then the next one began, and then I started to hold my head up with my right arm, which was on my right knee, and I began giggling it was so weird, then it was done, and I had to put pressure on a piece of cotton on where the needle was injected to stop the bleeding, and then I was done, right on time for my mum's lunch break where we got a coffee and I got myself a nice lamb doner with a whole bunch of stuff in, portion was big enough for a dinner, would definitely recommend the food stalls in Exmouth Market; back on topic my mum tried to send a text to let me know to drink loads of water before the blood test, the text didn't come through, and as I am typing I have bruising around where I had the blood test, luckily it doesn't hurt. For the rest of the day I was relaxing, and filmed my monologue for the previous blog, good day.
Wednesday now, last day before I go work tomorrow, and my oh my what a miserable day, did not stop raining, it was my older brother's birthday and I didn't fancy taking a trip to his in this weather, so I met my sister in law and youngest niece outside of St. John the Evangelist RC Church where I gave them his cards, and picked up my youngest niece's sister from her school, she had this colourful facemask on, and was jumping up and down when she saw me, as soon as her teacher let her go, she ran into my arms, it was so lovely, a bit on sunshine on a miserable day. During the evening I went to the gym for the first time in like 4 weeks, I need to be more motivated and get my head straight, and I was focusing on my shoulders, thighs, legs and chest during my workout, it was a good workout, a well needed one too.
Welcome to Thursday and on this day I was working a shift, on this day I didn't know this but the new exhibition was open to the members of the museum so it made a difference, I was supposed to open the gates at the entrance but they've been open for the last hour, and I presumed everything else on that side of the museum was open so I didn't bother getting the keys, around an hour or so later one of my colleagues notice that the propeller isn't on, so one of the team leaders covers me while I go to get the keys, which my ID card still didn't work for nearly a year later, I got the keys, turned on the propeller, and got on with the day; I also had to check off a checklist that had the names of members visiting the exhibition, one of the surnames was Chandler, a relative maybe? In the end despite the misunderstanding with the keys, it was an alright day. During the evening I went to my drama class, did an improvisation set during Singles Night, which was fine though some jokes I said didn't land which I realised on the spot, and I also had to do an improvisation where myself and whoever I was acting with had to begin each sentence saying "well what you say makes me feel" and that was quite hard doing that on the spot. Afterwards we went to Shakespeare's Head, it's a shame with the curfews we can't spend more time there, though I did mention that we should all meet one evening and go there for a few hours, and since the people at Shakespeare's Head know us, surely they wouldn't mind.
Now it's Friday, and on this day I didn't do much, just chilling and relaxing, I did however wake up to hear my results of my blood test, and long story short, blood is fine, but regarding the sweating I need to improve myself physically and then have another one in the next two or three weeks, and pick up a lotion from Boots that helps with sweat, so all of this is fine, and if that doesn't work, maybe I can see if it's my anxiety, and see what happens from there. I also went to the gym too, just to get that exercise in and to get out of the house for a bit, was mostly working on my shoulders, chest and thighs, and I felt good afterwards, I definitely needed it.
Coming up is Saturday, and I began my day meeting a friend of mine, she's the same friend that had that birthday for one of her neighbour's a few months ago, and this was the first time we were seeing each other since Thorpe Park last month; we went to the cafe which was her treat and was really nice, and she did some shopping which I accompanied her for, then we went back to her house for a bit where we had a chat, at one point she facetimed her cousin, and her cousin played my missus in The Ends 3 years ago, and ever since then I'd ask my friend "how's the missus?" and she would know that I'm talking about her cousin, and now she has a baby, it's unbelievable what could happen in 3 years. Later on in the evening, my family had to do some babysitting, was looking after my youngest nephew and my two youngest nieces, and put it this way, there was so much noise, so much going on, it was hard to keep up with what they were doing, it was for around 3 and a half or 4 hours and I couldn't believe we got through it. After this, yes the day is still going, I watched a wrestling pay per view and that was my Saturday.
Finally it's Sunday, spent the day chilling and relaxing and I went to the gym during the afternoon, and worked on my chest, arms, legs, thighs, arms and stomach, it was a very good workout, and I ended my evening, weekend and overall week watching another wrestling pay per view.
That was my week, it was good, very productive, did something everyday even when I had no plans, and next week will be interesting, I've got no plans for the majority of the week, I'm working Saturday which will be my last day as a part time VSA (Visitor & Sales Assistant) before they bring me back to Events Host to do zero hours, which I don't mind because I kinda miss choosing my own shifts, and it'll be the end of October and the beginning of November, and the road to Christmas continues, what is going on with life right now, we're having a pandemic Christmas and New Years, I can't even digest that. I have to mention as well that I watched the first episode of This Is Us, a friend of mine keeps asking me to watch it, now I'm watching it, and that reveal at the end blew my mind, looking forward to seeing what happens next. Take care guys, have a good week."
October 12th to October 18th
"25 is a big number obviously, it's the silver anniversary, it's quarter of 100, it's the number after 24, I'm 25 next July, Ed, Edd n Eddy wanted 25 cents for a jawbreaker. Can't think of anything else regarding the number 25 except it's the follow up to one of my biggest and most important blogs, which was 24 which marked half a year / 6 months worth of blogs, it's gone so quick since I published it I honestly feel like this week has flown by, yet I find myself struggling to remember some of what happened, so here we are, blog 25, did some stuff, did some relaxing, a lot of eating, seeing family, going to the cinema, and preparing for some stuff next week too, so let's get to it shall we.
Kicking things off with Monday and I was just chilling all day until the evening, had a really late screening to go to a part of the BFI London Film Festival, it was held at the Curzon cinema in Mayfair and the film was called Supernova. Supernova is about two partners played by Academy Award Winner Colin Firth and Academy Award Nominee Stanley Tucci who travel across the UK to see family and friends, two years after Tusker, played by Stanley Tucci, got diagnosed with dementia. The film is wonderfully acted, beautifully shot and well written, it is also composed by Keaton Henson who does a fantastic job. If you love the scenery of the UK countryside you get a handful of beautiful shots of it in this film, and if you love astronomy, some of that is involved too, would highly recommend this film.
Coming up next is Tuesday, and I was going to meet up with Jack, he told me he had a work meeting and he was going to contact me to let me know when he was on his way to mine, and it would be some time after 12:45pm, I get woken up around 12:15pm by my house phone (I didn't have the best sleep which is why I woke up late) and turns out his meeting ended much earlier than expected, and he's been trying to contact me for over an hour, WWWWWHHHHHHHHAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTT!?!??!??!??!?!?!? So I get ready and let Jack in, so what's our plan? We were going to go Jollibee, if you don't know what Jollibee is, it is a Filipino fast food restaurant chain with over 1,200 outlets worldwide with products that include fried chicken, spaghetti, burgers, rice, chips and more, the Jollibee in London is only one of two stores in the UK. Our plan was to travel to Earl's Court, eat there then head home, but the terrible weather was looking to change our plans, so we looked to ordering online from Uber Eats or Deliveroo, but they didn't deliver to my location, so now we're travelling there, which we did by taking two underground tubes, then walking for 10 minutes, eventually arriving there, and letting us in. We ordered a bucket meal with chicken, bacon and cheese burgers, and we knew this was expensive, if you look at the prices they're insane, but we weren't aware of how much we were going to get, with the bucket of chicken pieces, which I believe was either 8 or 10, we got 4 medium chips, 4 boxes of spaghetti and 4 medium drinks, yes all of that is a part of the meal, add the two burgers, and we have enough food to feed a family of 4, maybe even 5, it was like 2 trays full of food, the workers must've thought we were mad; we couldn't even finish our food, so we took whatever we had left, put it in the bucket, and made our way home. We decided to get the bus so we could walk some of the calories off, plus going straight to the underground could've potentially caused one if not both of us to be sick, so we spent ages trying to find a bus stop, found one that had a bus that could take us to Hyde Park Corner, and being on this bus felt like an eternity, the traffic was unbearable and the weather wasn't helping, so we decided to get off at Hyde Park Corner, and instead of getting the 19 or 38 we got onto the tube to take us to King's Cross, and then change to the Northern line to get to Angel to get to mine. We finally get home where Jack has a nice catchup with my mum, they haven't seen each other since before lockdown so it was good that they saw each other, and we had a cup of tea before Jack made his way home, it was a good day, it was just the weather and the traffic that made it quite irritating.
Following up with Wednesday, and I am at work, and going into work, I was in an optimistic mood, the weather wasn't as bad as it has been the last few days, they've got me on a good rotation, today was going to be a good day! Then the briefing happened, so after checking the rotations for everyone and talking about what's going on, we're informed that someone couldn't come in at the last minute, and my position has been changed, so this new rotation I got would normally be me in two different locations the whole day, a bit annoying but at the same time it was different, so I was remaining optimistic, then I realised the one way system changed, again, and then when it was time for me to change to a different location I found out that this rotation in the last week has changed, and it involves me working on the second floor, hang on what? I haven't even been trained on the second floor, the only thing I know about the second floor is my way around it, like how to get to each gallery, and that's it really, I don't know about locking up each of the galleries, or the evacuations, the best part of this is that where I started and where I'm ending is easy to do, but this, this isn't the best idea at all, and I was just doubting myself, so I spoke to one of the team leaders, he told me he'd meet me in one of the galleries, and I spoke to one of the managers who made a good point, she said that I handled the issue with the lost child a couple of weeks ago, so I could do something like this, which is true, but this isn't about one person, it's about every person on that floor, in those three galleries, and if there is an evacuation, chances are I'm messing that up and someone's life is in danger because of me, plus seeing that the workers should be aware that I haven't been trained on that floor and that I'm on the spectrum, they should be aware of how risky of a move this is, but I guess desperate times call for desperate measures, so what did I do? I just did it, there was nothing else for me to do so I just went and did it, luckily there was no evacuations and the day went along as it did, went quite quick too, and I felt like I learned quite a bit about the navy at sea from years ago, it wasn't the best day for work, but it wasn't the worst, I just need to stop judging myself and believe in myself more when I'm thrown into the deep end.
It's now Thursday, and I went out with mum to do some shopping in Old Street, and then we popped up to see Uncle Trevor and Auntie Susie which was really nice, I spoke to Uncle Trevor about my shift at work and he helped me see the more positive side of it. During the evening I attended my drama class, was involved in an improvisation that was supposed to be comedic, and the setting was at an undertaker's shop so it was going more towards dark humour, and while the idea was good, the execution was a mixed bag, I later on was involved in an improvisation where each of us involved could only use 3 words in a sentence, it is quite difficult but can be easy if you're thinking of the right response on the spot. Afterwards we went to The Shakespeare's Head to end our evening.
Look what we've got here it's Friday, originally I was meant to be in work but I used my annual leave on this day, there isn't much reason behind why I chose this day, just saw this day and I was like "yeah, I'll take it off, why not" and this day was a mixture of different things going on, began in the morning by taking part in a masterclass by Siena Castellon, two weeks ago I was answering the questions now I am with the pupils, listening to Siena and asking her any questions, after going through her website and listening to some of her backstory in this masterclass, it's incredible to see how far she's come, even accepting awards from BBC Radio 1 and being invited to Kensington Palace, could you imagine how much further she could go 5 years from now, the sky's the limit for her, I'll leave the link to her website below the blog, it contains plenty of useful information on Asperger's, Dyslexia, Dyspraxia, Anxiety and so much more. Later on in the day I didn't have anything planned so I played on the PlayStation for two hours, then nothing much happened after that, and then the evening came and we got a surprise visit from my older brother, sister in law and youngest nieces, and seeing that hours from that point people will no longer be able to go into other people's households until who knows when, we had to make the most of it, and it was lovely, the youngest of my two nieces didn't want to leave me, made me smile, I absolutely love that kid, she's two, nearly three and she's so funny and so loving, and she is so well behaved it's unreal, I'll do anything for her.
Right onto Saturday, and on this day was my third and last screening of this year's BFI London Film Festival, and this was for this film called Soul, the latest film by Pixar which recently got announced for a Disney+ release for Christmas Day, because if there is one thing COVID likes doing it's alternating film releases and making films worked on by hundreds if not thousands of people lose money. Now, I've been looking forward to this film since the release of it's teaser trailer last November, plus Disney always has a special place in my heart. The screening was held at the Cine Lumiere in South Kensington, my second time visiting this cinema, and I'm happy to say that Soul truly does deliver in every single way, I don't know how else I can compliment the movie except it was everything I wanted and more, it's one of those movies that makes you laugh and cry, and, it's going to be wild of me saying this, but if you watch this movie when it comes out you'll understand where I'm coming from, it actually makes you appreciate life that much more, an animated movie doing that, who would've thought, from things such as sight, smell, taste, and moments we share with our loved ones, from our favourite times, to even our last with those loved ones, this film showcases all of that beautifully, and there's nothing else I think I can say about this film, it was perfect in every way. Also, advice to anyone ever getting a bus from South Kensington, don't, because chances are you'll be stuck at Harrods for around half an hour with very little movement from the bus driver.
Finally it's Sunday, and I didn't really do anything, didn't fancy doing anything either, it just didn't feel like one of those days, so I chilled, and relaxed, and prepared for work the next day.
So that was my week, very productive for the most part, and very descriptive too, I think this is up there for one of my longest, which is suiting for a 25th blog, and with COVID, we have a long way to go, unless a vaccine comes out, SOMEONE GIVE ME HOPE PLEASE. Thank you all for reading, see below me performing the monologue I did a week or two ago in my drama class, and also involves me talking about some other stuff too because it's very easy for me to go off topic and change topic, and hopefully this time you'll be able to see the cookies my mum, youngest nephew and I baked. Thanks for reading, see you all next week.“
October 5th to October 11th
"24 is a bigger number than I expected when it comes to the blogs, I turned 24 at the end of July, crazy how that was already 2 and a half months ago, there's 24 hours in a day, 24 is an acclaimed TV series, and there's 24 weeks in 6 months, by that last one, is why this blog is bigger than most of the blogs I've done, I've been doing these for 6 whole months, half a year, I can't believe it. By the way this pandemic was going, I wasn't expecting these blogs to go on for half a year, to be fair I don't think any of us expected this pandemic to go on for this long, but here we are. I have found these blogs to be therapeutic mentally from when everything or nearly everything was closed, I have found these blogs to be something that I can keep busy with, give me something to do going from 45 minutes, to even 3 hours because I have a constant need of going through every sentence and making sure everything is right. I do admit there are times when my timing is poor, like last week, I don't know where to begin with that, was in Southampton Sunday, next day I went home and was really tired so I typed half of it, went to bed, got up for work, went home, slept, had dinner, continued writing and was planning to finish it and then I fell asleep, and woke up the following morning realising that I didn't finish it, I believe I finished it Wednesday afternoon, and the worst part was, I left certain things out which I couldn't believe, so I had to do a day in the blog again, and by the time it was published, I believe it was Thursday evening, which is bad considering we're half way through that week, hopefully now I will get better with my timing. This is blog 24, 6 months of blogs, half a year, let's go.
Clearly you know we're starting on Monday and you all know that I'm in Southampton and I make my way home, anything else? Well I had a shower, met mum and dad, we went back to The Standing Order to have breakfast and drink as much coffee as we could, we then went to Westquay Shopping Centre to go through some shops and see what we could find, got myself some bath bombs from Lush, and got myself some donuts and a milkshake from Krispy Kreme; after this I decided to head back to my parents room since I already checked out of mine and chilled until my parents came back. We all relaxed for a bit, at one point I went onto their balcony and saw a massive cruise ship, honestly it must've been bigger than the hotel we were staying at. Afterwards we decided to head out for a walk until my train came along, got myself Subway so I made sure I was full enough, and then got the train to Waterloo. Once I got off at Waterloo I got the 341 home, because sometimes getting the bus to certain places can be quicker than getting the tube. Once I got home I got myself a takeaway, yeah I know I've eaten too much, and that was it really, that was my Monday, kicking off the week.
We then follow onto Tuesday where I go to work, had a rough sleep so I wasn't in the best of moods, nor did I feel motivated to do anything, if I had things my way I would've called and taken the day off, but I never liked to do things like that unless there's an emergency. When it came to my shift there wasn't really anything to say about it except that it did take me awhile to get into my shift mentally, and I had trouble locking the toilets at the end of the shift, other than that nothing else happened, it was a fine shift. Once I got home, I knew I didn't have work the next day and felt so tired so I ended up having a sleep, by the time I woke up it was around 8pm, didn't need to wake up in the morning so I didn't mind, had dinner, continued writing the blog and I've fallen asleep on the sofa.
Wednesday starts with me waking up the next day on the sofa in disbelief, by the time I fell asleep, it must've been between 12am and 1am, I'm surprised that I wasn't up until 3am or 4am because of how late I woke up, and then reality hit me, I haven't finished the blog, wonderful. I was very slow with it as well because my parents came home, and it was my dad's 60th birthday, so I spent the day chilling indoors with my family. Other family members came up during the evening including my eldest sister, brother in law, youngest nephew, eldest brother, sister in law and my two youngest nieces, it was all really nice, a lovely evening.
Heads up it's Thursday, to start Thursday off, I didn't have anything planned besides the evening, but I got a text from Jack, he wants me to pop down to his workplace, give me something he got me which he didn't have to do, so I came to see him, and he got me a t shirt, and it was the Spider-Man symbiote logo, which I thought was really cool, I've got more than enough black shirts, but I'll make an exemption, him and I had a chat until his lunch break ended and I went back home. Later on in the evening I went to my drama class and that was good, I was in an improvisation about two old friends reuniting at an AA meeting which was good, volume of the voice went down a bit towards the end but good nonetheless, and I performed a monologue based on a groom anxiously waiting for the bride which was great, and class ended half an hour earlier than last week, EVEN BETTER! I almost rushed out of class once it ended to get to The Shakespeare's Head, and it was a nice way to end the class, the curfew is still rubbish though.
It's Friday, and I had nothing planned, so I played on the PlayStation for a few hours, and then I went for a walk during the evening for an hour, going around Angel and Old Street, and that's it really, that was my Friday.
Next up is Saturday, on this day I was supposed to be at work, but seeing my contract is coming up at the end of the month, and am going back to zero hours in November, I had to use my annual leave, so I took this day off, because it's a Saturday, and you regular readers of these blogs remember the last Saturday I worked right? So yeah, I took this Saturday off simply because it was a Saturday, and my family was out most of the day so I had the house to myself. During the evening, I attended one of the three screenings I have booked for this year's BFI London Film Festival, it would've been more but I've lost track of anything regarding this year, I was shocked that the BFI London Film Festival was going ahead. This screening was at the BFI Southbank and the film was called Mogul Mowgli starring Emmy Award Winner Riz Ahmed, the film is about a British Pakistani rapper who during the breakout of his career gets diagnosed with an autoimmune disease. The film was really good, especially the performances by everyone involved, and I found the film to be shot nicely.
Finally we've reached Sunday, October 11th, I've known this day as one of my best friends' birthday, but because of COVID he didn't want anyone up, didn't want to do anything and it's understandable, everyone is treating these crazy times differently, so for the first time in, I don't know how many years, I'm not seeing him on his birthday, so, what did I do? Just stayed in really, went for a walk around Angel after dinner and that was my Sunday, and my week.
This was a decent week, looking back I can't tell if it went quick, or it was slow, I weirdly remember things that happen earlier in the week more than what happened recently in the week, if that makes sense, as for an update on myself, I've been having mood swings, everything going on with the pandemic isn't helping at all, and I finished watching The People v. O. J. Simpson: American Crime Story which was so good, had a blast watching it, would happily watch it again, now I need to find something else to watch, I'm open to suggestions. Thank you for reading, history has been made, 24 blogs, 6 months worth of blogs, now we await the big 25, see you all next week, also see below the cookies my youngest nephew, mum and I made a few weeks ago, yet again from Gookie Dough, Funfetti Cake Batter flavor."
September 28th to October 4th
"Say Bill, what will you say about 23? I don't know Bill, I mean you were 23 3 months ago, and that's really it. I guess you can say how life was as a 23 year old; put it this way Bill, it started off fine, in fact it was mostly fine, and then COVID happened, and we don't want to talk about that now do we, except the curfews because THEY WILL NOT WORK AT ALL! I'm at the point where I don't know what's going on with the world, and at this point, I don't think I want to anymore. This is blog 23, how are we even here, and this is another week, end of September, start of October, nearly at 6 months since beginning these blogs, LET'S GO!
Kicking it off with Monday, clearly, obviously, I mean we're not starting anywhere else. To start this week off, I've got to be honest my memory isn't as clear as usual but from what I remember I didn't really do much, just chilled, relaxed, and I played on the PlayStation, and that was my Monday really.
Next is Tuesday, first of two work days, and they had me working in one of the galleries on the first floor which I didn't mind at all, easy to open, easy to close when no one is around, and from what I can remember nothing much really happened, I did have a conversation with a work colleague at one point, and I can't remember the word but I asked my work colleague if it was the right one, and she said "I wouldn't know, I'm dyslexic," we both laughed, and then I said "and I'm Autistic, we're the best of both worlds," and we both laughed again, it was nice. That was the day really, there wasn't much to it, it was fine. Got home, chilled, played on the PlayStation, and that was my Tuesday.
Onto Wednesday, second of two work days, and the rotation I was doing was called Relief, now there's a different number of Reliefs, and this was the first time I was doing one; so in the morning I had to go around doing different jobs like checking the outside of the museum and keeping an eye on the bridge that crosses from the centre of the first floor to a staircase, and I was told I had a break at 11:30am, I presumed it was the lunch break because that's the only break we all get, so I leave my position, get lunch, eat it in my bubble's mess room, and then one of the team leaders call me on the radio to come over, I come over, and turns out it was supposed to be a 20 minute break, and I actually follow a rotation in this position, I presumed I would be taking jobs the entire day but nope, I follow a rotation, so the rotation I don't normally look at on the sheet, I presumed it was for those working Lunch Cover, turns out it was the Relief Rotation, I did feel frustrated but in the end, you learn something new everyday. I can't forget to mention the new NHS Track & Trace, I thought, if people are getting tickets to go into the museum, we already have their details, so why do they need to do this new scan brought out by the government? I don't know, none of this makes sense, I even had a woman ask me about it and I just said "I don't know, just ask the government." We had to stop letting people at 3:30pm since we close at 4pm unless they already had tickets, and 3 girls came in, and we couldn't let them in because they didn't book tickets, but in return I helped them with a video they filmed, answering questions about the museum and Greenwich which I was more than happy to do, and it made me feel good too, in the end, despite the obvious mixup, it was a good shift. After I got home, I don't recall, nor do I remember doing anything, I guess I did play on the PlayStation, I obviously had dinner, and a bath, and yeah, that's Wednesday.
Coming up next is Thursday, don't recall doing anything in the morning and during the day, besides playing on the PlayStation, again, I did go to my drama class in the evening and that was good, got carried away during my improvisation, my performance was good, it was that I didn't know when to stop, and being repetitive which is easy to be, it's a flaw that doesn't get to me, it just finds its way to bite me when it can. Class was longer than usual, ended at 9:30pm, which sadly was the same time as last orders at The Shakespeare's Head because of the 10pm curfew, remember when there wasn't a curfew? Yeah me too; so we all just went straight home, felt like I commited a crime, not going to The Shakespeare's Head after class.
Well look what we've come across, it's Friday, I was definitely planning on going to the gym but I didn't have the energy or motivation, though it was quite a productive day. I did a masterclass for The Courtyard Sixth Form students, answering questions that Ms. Vidal asked and questions asked by other members of staff and the students watching which I really enjoyed doing, I've always enjoyed doing things where people ask about me and I get to provide answers, and it does make me pleased that the students were really invested and I hope that the answers and advice I provided them will help them all in the future. Afterwards I went to Fara to see Jack and his colleagues, Fara is a charity shop near Angel, it's really good, plus they're doing great deals right now, got myself a shirt for £2. Later on I had a chat on the phone with a mate of mine for 20 minutes and that was nice too.
Right here is Saturday, originally I was supposed to go to a friend's birthday but that had to be cancelled because of COVID, and then I was meant to meet up with a friend in Wanstead but that got cancelled, so I just had a relaxing day, played on the PlayStation for a bit, was planning to go gym but like yesterday I felt tired and lacked the motivation, but I did prefer to look after my youngest nephew, saves my mum from putting up with him the whole time, and he did facetime my eldest niece and eldest nephew at one point, you would've loved their excitement, "oh hi Bill," it's not hugs and kisses anymore.
Finally it's Sunday, and I took a trip to Southampton with my parents, they were planning on staying there until Wednesday while I was just staying the night. We checked into our hotel rooms and then we went to walk around and see what we could find; firstly we went into a Wetherspoons, I believe it was called The Standing Order, and afterwards Mum went to do some shopping while Dad and I went into this pub called The Red Lion Inn, which was built in the late 15th century, and was used as a courtroom in the year 1415, so there was a lot of history with this place. Afterwards Dad and I met Mum and we had dinner in Byron, and then went back to our rooms for over an hour. During the evening I went to the Showcase Cinema to watch Bill & Ted Face The Music which I really enjoyed, got back to my hotel room, watched a wrestling pay per view and that was my Sunday, and my week overall.
So that was my week, decent week, a lot of me time personally, sometimes things are best like that, got to look after myself somehow. I realised I forgot to mention two things in the previous blogs, one was last week Sunday night I watched a wrestling pay per view, and around 2 or 3 weeks ago my youngest nephew, Mum and I made cookies, can't believe I forgot to mention those. Also I should mention, especially for those reading that love video games, as you can see on my blog I mention the PlayStation more times than usual, that's because I've been playing Final Fantasy VII Remake, I've been really hooked on it, it's so good, can't stop thinking about it. Also I've begun watching American Crime Story, half way through the first season, the first season is about the O.J. Simpson murder case and that's been really good so far, so all of that has been keeping me busy. Hope you've all had a good week, and I'll see you all with the next one, take care."
September 21st to September 27th
"I don't know about you, but I'm feeling 22, tell me Taylor Swift, how is it feeling 22? To me it's no different to feeling 21, 23, 24 etc. Just by that one sentence I'm sure you can tell that it is my 22nd blog, and judging from the world especially this country right now, we are far from the last as whatever is left of normality begins to slowly fade with wearing masks more, curfew times that most people aren't going to pay attention to anyway, and Christmas and New Years plans changing, to be brutally honest we aren't getting out of this mess until a vaccine arrives, which will be, I don't know, I hate 2020, and I'm dreading 2021, this is blog 22, time for me to change the mood, hopefully.
It's Monday, that doesn't change the mood at all, that probably makes it worse, and to start my week I went to work, now that makes the mood much worse, because places might close down again with a potential second lockdown, I know I shouldn't be foreshadowing things but THE END IS NIGH THE END IS NIGH RUN AWAY THE END IS NIGH! So I went to work, with plenty of energy after an 8-9 hour sleep, and my shift was fine, I don't remember much from it except I did well, I was dozing off during the afternoon which I couldn't believe, and I didn't bring a coat, so I wore one of my workplace's coats, which helped when I was outside looking after the entrance, and then I looked after the exit, with no shade, and I was drenched in sweat, soaked from the shoulders to the lower back, wonderful. In the end it was a good shift, quiet, wasn't stressful in any way, plus I got to help a colleague on his day back which was nice, so yeah it was a good shift.
Now it's Tuesday, and it has it's similarities with Wednesday, you'll notice them in a bit, so with Tuesday, I just spent most of the day lying down, bored out of my mind, I did go to the gym for 45 minutes, did work on my arms, shoulders and legs which was good, and then I got home and felt bored again, had dinner later on, feeling better, and then I went for a walk around Angel, City Road and Barbican, so the evening was significantly better than the day itself.
This is Wednesday, and as I said it has its similarities with Tuesday, the difference was that after gym I spoke on the phone with Ms. Vidal for 20 minutes which was nice, and we spoke about me doing a masterclass so that should be fun, really looking forward to that. Met Mum after her shift to pick up a takeaway which was nice and then I went for another walk through St. Paul's and to the Bankside Pier, I remember heading to the Bankside Pier, leaning over the ledge by the Thames and staring at the buildings on the other side that stand under a foggy night sky, I got to admit I got emotional looking at it, I don't know what it was but it really got to me, I guess it's the realization that one day none of us will get to have views and images like that, because of death, or the apocalypse caused by a nuke, by how 2020 is going so far and what 2021 will potentially be like, I am expecting anything and everything. After this I walked home, not before I stopped in Tesco's and bought 3 Krispy Kremes, because if there is one thing that keeps me happy it's Krispy Kreme. That was Wednesday, if I had to compare the two, I definitely liked Wednesday more.
Oh look guys it's Thursday, I spent the day resting while I went to my drama class in the evening, another good class while I performed a good dramatic performance, and a good comedic performance, best of both worlds. Afterwards some of my classmates and I went to The Shakespeare's Head, same night the new 10pm curfew was introduced, and I believe the new guidelines involving masks too, and do you want my opinion? I hate it, I absolutely hate it, so we can go anywhere but we have to wear masks unless we're seated, plus bartenders have to come to us for table service, but what if the person seated passes the virus onto one of the bartenders, also what if someone, especially with the 10pm curfew, stays in a pub from 3pm, seated until curfew, that person could still pass on the virus, my brain just hurts talking about it, I was going to say you're better off closing pubs, but then how will the owners of those pubs cope? It's a mess, it is all such a mess, and the worst part is, WE DON'T EVEN KNOW WHEN IT'LL END, I know they said 6 months but chances are it could be longer, it's going to get worse from here. Oh yeah besides my ranting, did I do anything after The Shakespeare's Head? Nope, went home and that's it.
It's Friday, do you wanna get down on Friday? I would, but first let me go to work, so I went to work, and it was a decent day, much more busier than Monday, or it felt like it, and I did begin to get cranky during the last hour, I was thinking "WHY ARE YOU GOING TO A MUSEUM ON A FRIDAY IN THE LAST HOUR!? WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?!" and getting people out was a pain too, it's like people know it's closing, and they just don't want to go for some reason, but in the end it was a fine shift. In the evening, I went down to The Old Star to meet some friends, including one, who I helped with his audition tape weeks ago, if you've been reading the blogs you'll know who I'm on about, as this was his last shift before starting drama school, it was a good night, and I got a burrito on the way home, because burritos are nice and are very underrated in this country in my honest opinion.
YAY IT'S SATURDAY, so Saturday was quite productive, went out with my mum to, I can't remember the name of the store near St. Paul's but I got new black chinos to wear for work, and then we went to Angel, got a coffee in Pret, had a look around in H&M, and got some food from M&S, and during the evening we looked after my youngest nephew, his parents were out for their anniversary so we had to look after him and that was good, him and I played Fall Guys for a bit which kept him busy, and yeah that was Saturday, a good day.
Finally it's Sunday, also a productive day, Mum and I went shopping again, we went to Iceland to get some food and then after that I went to Cex to get some games, Cex is pretty much heaven to any kind of gamer, you want your new games and consoles they're there, you want your vintage games and consoles they're there too at reasonable prices, can't recommend it enough; Mum and I got a bite to eat from Gregg's and then we went home. After a while at home I did feel quite bored, so I went out for a walk to kill some time before dinner, went for a walk near Exmouth Market, Angel and City Road. That was Sunday, nice way to end the week.
So that was my week, it was a pretty good week, personally I felt like it got better the later the week went on. Next week should be alright, going to be on the PlayStation more with my new games, working two days in a row, got the Masterclass on Friday, should be a good week. Thanks for reading and I'll see you next week."
September 14th to September 20th
What's 9 + 20? 21. Yeah I wanted to make a reference to that old meme, plus I didn't really have an idea for an intro. Welcome to blog number 21, the one before 19, the one after 20, and the number that represents a special time in every young adult's life, and well that's it really, that's 21. Can't really say anything else, spoke about being 21 a couple of blogs ago, at this point I may as well get on with the blog.
It's Monday, yay first day of the week, and I went to work; originally I was dreading working this week due to the weather, and work didn't get off to a great start. So I was located to the entrance for opening and closing, and I was told by a team leader to get the keys to the entrance, which took me by surprise because the last few weeks I was told by a different team leader to not worry about opening, didn't make sense, I know the opening and closing procedures changed recently but I didn't know I had to help. So I go down, request for the keys, card gets denied (zero hour contract workers had to ask to receive keys, I'm now a part time worker) so I've got to speak to one of the managers and get that sorted, I presumed I wasn't going to be given the keys so I turned around, went to go back to do my shift, get called back, got the keys. The rest of the day was fine, no problems, no worries, there was a moment when I was working outside, I just stood there, and looked around at the sight in front of my eyes, the grass around me, the number of trees with green leaves, one tree with a touch of brown; along with a slight breeze, I felt so calm and at peace I was just lost in the moment, definitely something I'm going to remember for a while. Good day overall.
Next up is Tuesday, back into work, they had me working on the first floor, which I didn't mind, some people needed to go downstairs in the lift, so I helped people with that, made me feel good. I found this to be an easy shift, only problem was, and this is going to take some explaining, so with the one way system, especially with the majority of the museum now open, if guests wanted to explore all of the museum that's open, they had to go straight to the second floor, well at one point two women with prams came up, and they only stopped on the first floor, now they could've read that the door was emergency use only, but instead, they went right through the door, and one of them asks me where is the way down, so, you go up the lift, stop on the floor you shouldn't be on unless you're on your way out and ask of member of staff on how to get down, I just couldn't react, so I just took the women with the prams to the lift and sent them down. At one point during the afternoon, I see this boy with a water bottle enter the gallery I was working in, and he seemed to be hovering around, not knowing what to look at or what to do, and went to go out the way he came in, I told him he has to follow the one way system, and took him to the exit, around 10 minutes after he leaves the gallery, a woman walks fast through the exit, I know she went the wrong way but I honestly didn't know how to react, after a minute she approaches me, and asks me if I've seen her son, I immediately thought of that boy, asked her if he had a water bottle, she said yes, I asked her to describe him to me as I took her to the gallery's exit and told her where she could go next, I briefly spoke to one of the managers about this and then reported it on the radio so anyone in the museum would know, and as soon as I do this, one of the managers comes in and tells me he has been found, which I would then report on the radio, very adventurous. Overall this was another good day with another good shift, now I'm done with work for the week, lovely.
Here's Wednesday, and on this day I went to Thorpe Park with a couple of friends, it was going to be interesting to see what it was like going to a theme park during a pandemic. We met at Angel, got on the tube to Waterloo, got McDonald's breakfast, and then got the train to Staines (brought back memories of when I went on that marketing job in November 2017, not pleasant memories), and then got the shuttle bus to Thorpe Park. Once we get there, we had to get our temperatures taken, bags searched and in we went; we get into The Dome where the entrances and exits all worked on a one way system, we got into the lockers where we put some of our stuff away, and away we went to enjoy our day. I went on most of the rides, with rides I can be very picky, I could easily go on one like Colossus which has a couple of loops but I won't go on Stealth which goes up to 205 feet and accelerates from 0 to 80 mph in 1.9 seconds, plus I went on that in 2013 which I did not enjoy at all. We all had to wear masks on the rides and I was wearing the mask that you've seen in a blog or two (it has teeth) and the thing with this mask is that it isn't tight enough, so occasionally on the rides my mask would come off my nose and mouth, especially on Colossus where I was trying to keep my mask on while going through numerous loops, also I can be excited, maybe too excited on some rides, one example being the Nemesis Inferno, before going down into the first loop I shouted out "GO ON LETS HAVE IT" before going down, the excitement really got ahead of me. We left Thorpe Park around the time it closed which was 5pm and we were waiting ages for the shuttle bus, didn't get on until the 3rd bus, which was a between 30 and 45 minute wait, and from there it was an easy trip home, didn't get home until before 8pm, so I was out for over 12 hours, great day.
Here we go with Thursday, met up with Jack and we then met up with an actress we've worked with a few times to do headshots, we all met at Angel Station and went to find a good place to shoot the pictures, we all ended up going back to my flat, the brick wall for the background worked very well for the photos, and it was all going well, another actress we knew came to have her's done, and then both of them (the actresses) persuaded me to get mine done, so I went upstairs, changed my shirt, went downstairs and had my photos taken, glad to say they looked good. Afterwards we went to The Angel Wetherspoons for a bite to eat and said bye to each other. Afterwards I went home for a little bit and went back out to The Angel Wetherspoons to meet a friend of mine, after that we went to the drama class which I thought was good, my mindset wasn't the best going into it but I thought I did well overall. Some of my classmates and I went to The Shakespeare's Head afterwards and that was it, that was Thursday, good day.
Then it was Friday, and I didn't really do anything, played on the PlayStation for a bit, did plenty of lying down, and I just felt physically and mentally tired, and the same went for Saturday and Sunday, didn't do much and just felt very tired.
And that was my week, not a bad week overall. I can't really think of a conclusion, but I do have to say after all this COVID news going on in the UK, and the possibility of a second lockdown, if we can do one lockdown, we can do another, no problemo. Have a good week guys, take care.
September 7th to September 13th
“20, 20 blogs, that’s 5 months worth of blogs, I have been doing this for 5 whole months, without missing a week, I don’t know how I’ve been doing this for this long, and I don’t even know how you lot keep coming back for a blog every week, but I appreciate each and everyone of you. With 20, I do think of my 20th birthday, what I remember of it, a few friends and I went for a meal at Banana Tree, afterwards we were meant to see Jason Bourne, and I tried getting the tickets I order a while ago printed at the cinema, nothing happened, went to the desk, one of the workers printed them off, and we went to go into the screen, and then we were told that these tickets were for July 30th, the day before, I even had to check my email, it said July 30th, I never make mistakes like that, couldn’t believe it, so one of my friends went home (he wasn’t feeling well), the rest of us had milkshakes at Ed’s Easy Diner, another friend went home (couldn’t be ask to wait for the next screening, can’t blame him), and then whoever was left and I went to see it, packed screen too, we were right near the front, decent day. Also with 20, not really anything else, except 2020, I don’t want to talk about it, I will not talk about it, we all know what this year has been like, therefore, I will not talk about it, except that we still have 3 and a half months left, and things could get worse, with cases on the rise, groups going from 30 to 6, wait, since when was groups of 30 a thing? Any way, on the bright side, some West End shows will be back in the next few months including Everybody’s Talking About Jamie which opens back up on November 4th with 6 performances in 4 days a week, did I say that in a way that makes sense? I hope so. I’m just trying to be optimistic and positive during these times, because that’s the best thing we can do, I can’t even picture a second lockdown, even if the government can afford to go through another lockdown, could you imagine being in lockdown during Christmas? Don’t get me started. Anyways guys, this is blog number 20, 5 months worth of blogs, let’s see what I got up to.
Kicking off with Monday with a chilled day, spent most of the day relaxing, went on the PlayStation for a bit, I did go to the gym, did a workout there using the Cross Trainer for 35 minutes, and that was it, and now I am prepared for the next two days of work.
Here’s Tuesday, and the first of two work dates this week, and how did it start? Not the best. So I get into work, go to the Mess Room of where my bubble is, and I find out from one of my team leaders that my rotation might’ve changed, the thing with a workplace like mine is that is that you have to expect the unexpected, and expect changes and announcements even at the last minute, it can be frustrating, but you have to accept it. So I was told to look into the other Mess Room to find out where I’d be, and I saw that I was going to be doing a rotation on the first floor, which just opened up in the museum, loosening up the restrictions on the museum, and of course keeping a one way system, the majority of the museum opened up and it did come off as risky to me, but if this was the only way to open up more of the museum with a one way system in it, then so be it. The shift was fine, despite the humid weather which had me sweating for the majority of the day, and I am one of the worst sweaters you’ll ever meet, even in winter; so yeah the shift was fine, until the ending, so the museum was closing in 10 minutes, and one thing you have to do is let people in the area you’re keeping an eye on know that the museum is closing and they need to make their way out soon, and nearly every person or group I came across in my area thought it was closing at 5pm, which it says when you type in the museum name on Google, the results will tell you the old hours from before lockdown, so it’s no ones fault it’s just a internet search engine providing people with the wrong information, and trying to get people to leave was a pain, I even had a mum looking for her adult daughter who was still in a gallery after who knows how long, and by the time every area on the first floor was clear, mine wasn’t, BECAUSE PEOPLE WEREN’T GOING! And even leaving our positions to go back downstairs, there was a toddler going into one of the museum’s shops wanting to buy something, and it was like “please, everyone, just leave, we all want to go home too,” it gets very irritating, and now the shift is done, the day is done, now we go home, and prepare for tomorrow.
It’s time for Wednesday, second of two days at work, and you want to know how I started? Similar to yesterday, so I looked into both of the Mess Rooms, my rotation didn’t change so I presumed I was going to be in that rotation, and then the briefing happened, so in the briefing we’re told our positions and anything regarding the museum like an event happening or the café being open until 5pm instead of 4pm, so in the briefing my position for my rotation, or where I was supposed to be was one of the first announced, and my name wasn’t said, and I thought “don’t tell me they’ve changed my position, only now,” and yep they did, I was quite annoyed seeing that it was just at that moment that I found out my position was changed, but as I said with the day prior, expect the unexpected. Now with this position I was involved, compared to yesterday where I was on a different floor keeping an eye or 4 or 5 different areas, on this day I was keeping an eye on 2 areas, now if this was the first shift after a hectic bank holiday weekend, I would’ve felt fine, but after a day where I was in 4 or 5 areas, this one dragged, because it’s the same 2 places every 40 minutes, plus on my rotation my lunch was very early which made the day feel longer, it just went on, and on, and on, and on. I finished the shift eventually and now I can go home and relax, oh no, I can’t, I have that interview with Soapbox Islington on Instagram, with a video and sound test on Zoom at 5:15pm, so I had to rush home, and get changed quick, and get the video and sound test over and done with, did it all on time while being hot, bothered, stressed and of course, very sweaty. Eventually I do the interview, and performed my monologue and it went so well, better than I thought it would, and I was very pleased with myself, my mum and brother were downstairs watching it on his phone, and seeing how happy my mum looked after finishing was so satisfying, now I can rest, finally.
Now it’s Thursday, and I spent most of the day chilling, playing on the PlayStation which got too much at one point because I ended up getting a splitting headache from being on there for too long, then I went to my drama class afterwards. For the drama class I did an improvisation that involves the themes anger and forgiveness, and the person I did it with actually knew my grandad, uncle, auntie and my dad from years ago, small world, especially in Islington, and it was a powerful improvisation, felt misty eyed afterwards, that’s what happens when you get into character sometimes, you can really feel their emotions. Did a movement piece after that which was quite funny, watched the others do their thing, and that was class, it was good. After that most of us went to The Shakespeare’s Head until it closed, got home around midnight.
It’s now Friday. So originally I didn’t have anything planned so I was going to have a nice relaxing day, played on the PlayStation for a bit, booked tickets for a friend and I to see Back To The Future The Musical in May, and that same friend texts me asking me to come to his pub, so now that’s my evening sorted. I head to The Old Star, sit at my table, another friend shows up, we chat, and our friend finishes his shift early and joins us, and it was a laugh, met some nice people, enjoyed chatting to some of the people that worked there, even met people that play music for the Queen so that was cool. Afterwards we went to McDonald’s, had a meal there, another friend met us there, and afterwards we went to my friend’s house (to avoid confusion, it was the one that worked at The Old Star) and we were chatting for ages, by the time I got home, it was around 4:15am, great night.
Here we go with Saturday, now I had plans this evening, yes, another busy evening, and one of my friends from my drama class was planning a blues themed evening, and with the government announcing groups going from 30 to 6, a get together like this would be the last for a while. This evening was really good, lovely to be around familiar and new faces, and a variety of talent including actors, musicians and singers, the night was supposed to end between 12am and 12:30am, and I thought that I’d probably get home between 1:15am and 1:30am, myself and some friends stayed for a while, sitting around a table inside just chatting away, didn’t leave until 3:15am, got into an Uber with a friend, got out at Essex Road, then got the bus home, got home just before 4am, great night.
Finally it’s Sunday, so Billy how are you going to end this week? Well Billy, I didn’t do much, was relaxing, played on the PlayStation for a bit, had a chat with one of my neighbours, went to the gym to do the Cross Trainer for 35 minutes, and that’s it really, that was my Sunday.
That was my week, decent week, plenty of being out of the house, giving myself plenty of rest, tons of socialising, yeah I’d definitely say it was a decent week. Next week should be interesting with the new rule about group gatherings, and I’m dreading work, I’m working Monday and Tuesday, hot weather, in my work uniform, help me, ASAP! Have a good week guys, take care. Also check out the link attached, it is my interview and monologue from this week, and a video I filmed just after writing this.”
August 31st to September 6th
“19, so this is 19, the one after 18, the one before 20, seeing that I turned 19 in 2017, which I spoke about already, there’s not much I can think of that I can talk about, there’s last year, 2019, 2019 was a pretty good year, completed my HNC in Performing Arts course, which I passed with a merit, went to Turkey, Amsterdam and Georgia in America, all were great, completed my confirmation course, then I finally got my current job after countless applications submitted, and yeah, there were some downs here and there, but overall 2019 was a good year, looking back, I should feel more grateful for 2019, especially with this pandemic going on. Anything else regarding the number 19? Well, for those reading that like wrestling, my favourite WrestleMania is WrestleMania 19, I remember watching that for the first time when I was a kid, got it on DVD for my 10th birthday, good times. What else? Can’t forget this one, I was 19 when I began attending the Anna Scher Theatre, can’t remember the date but it was one Friday in September 2015, I went to class after hearing about it, and the rest is history, how has it been 5 years already? That’s insane. Anything else regarding the number 19? I think that’s it, not bad Bill, not bad at all. This is Blog number 19, thank you all for coming here to read yet another blog, whoever stopped reading before this one, can’t blame them really, I mean it’s 19 blogs, it’s a lot to read; and those still reading, I don’t know how you all are doing it, but I feel grateful for it. Now let’s see how this week was.
Starting with Monday, obviously and clearly, and it was Bank Holiday Monday, and I had a special one planned. To begin, my family and I went to Leicester Square, we had a drink in The Moon Under Water and after that we went for a meal in TGI Fridays, it was the last day for the Eat Out to Help Out scheme and it was a really good idea to go, in the end we all enjoyed our meals. Afterwards, I went straight from TGI Fridays, to Blue Posts in Soho where I met up with 4 of my friends, another 2 of our friends would join us later on; so in the end including myself there were 7 of us, and it was really nice seeing that some of us haven’t seen each other since lockdown started. We left Blue Posts between 9:30pm and 10pm to look for any other places that were open, and we were looking for ages, and there wasn’t any places open, and if there were, they were closing soon, this didn’t surprise me since this was a Monday. We then went our separate ways and by the time I got home it was just before midnight.
Here we go with Tuesday, and I began my day having a Google Meets Video Chat with Ms. Vidal, she was on her way to The Courtyard, first day back, can’t believe the summer holidays are already over, doesn’t feel that long ago that it was late July, we had a really nice chat as usual, spoke about work, her’s and mine, we even spoke about cars, never thought I’d have a chat to one of my teachers about cars, and spoke about other things too, and yeah, really nice chat. The rest of the day I didn’t do anything, I felt tired so I wanted to chill out, relax, and prepare for work tomorrow.
It’s Wednesday, and today I had a shift at work, didn’t have the best start to be honest. So I found out I was going to be keeping an eye on a location in the museum that was meant to be for a staff member in another bubble, I did ask a team leader about it, and he explained it, and it made a lot of sense, seeing that in the briefing to start the day the two bubbles would normally be together, it definitely made sense. Afterwards I would go on to unlock the rooms around the location I was looking after, and one of them was the kitchen, what kitchen? You mean a part of the cafe? But that’s not in my location, why is this my problem? And I looked around the location a few times to find this kitchen, couldn’t find it, presumed it was to do with the cafe, so I decided to leave it, and then my anxiety kicked in, I kept thinking about this kitchen, I kept thinking about how I made this mistake, and potentially annoying one if not more than one team member which I didn’t want to do, I couldn’t stop thinking about it, and then I thought, and this was over an hour into my shift, “there’s people in the cafe, and no one has approached me about the kitchen, so I should be fine right?” And then I calmed down, along with some deep breathing, a team member came over and asked if I wanted a 10 minute break, which helped too. Another hour passes, and I’ve actually asked a team member who was passing about the kitchen, he showed me where it was, and I just laugh, it was at a part in the location I was looking after that I went past twice, and I never knew it was there, I couldn’t help but to laugh, all of that overreacting for that, brilliant. At one point a team member and I swapped places for 20 minutes which made a nice change, and my line manager came over at one point and gave me a mask that was made by workers at the museum, and it was great, soft material, doesn’t feel tight anywhere, can breathe properly, absolutely great, it was a quiet day too, which made a nice change after that hectic bank holiday weekend, in the end, besides my anxiety at one point, it was a good shift. As some of you may know already, the Soapbox Instagram Stream got postponed by a week, so now I had a free evening, and how should I spend it? Well The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 1 is showing at the VUE cinema in Islington, and I’ve already seen The Hunger Games: Catching Fire, so yeah why not? Booked my ticket, went straight to the cinema, ordered a Strawberry Milkshake, and got into the screen, and I found out, one hour after it ends, The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 2 will play, in the same screen, so I booked my ticket just before Part 1 came on, and why not, both parts in one night, and I’ve got no work tomorrow, so why not? Once Part 1 ended, I went home, ate dinner, got changed, and went back out for Part 2, also, what did these two screenings have in common? I was the only one in there, and I was absolutely loving it, now, I know what some of you are thinking? Billy, you went to see Catching Fire, Mockingjay Part 1 and Part 2, why not the first? Well that’s because I watched it back in April or May when Lionsgate for one month, once a week would live stream a film of theirs on YouTube, The Hunger Games was one of them. I got home around midnight, lovely evening, and a good day overall.
Getting onto Thursday, and I spent the whole day resting, and then in the evening I went to drama class. Began class with a body warmup, and then did an improvisation based on one of the seven deadly sins, one person and I did one based on Sloth, and that was really good, better than I thought, the scene in my improvisation was my idea and I didn’t know how it was going to be executed but luckily it was good, just me self doubting which is pretty often; and then a movement afterwards that involved a pair or group of 3 greeting each other and that was good; and then we get onto an improvisation with a pair, two people would get called up, one gets told the opening line, and away we go, and this one was “I got a present for you,” for mine, I was given the line, and I chose the present to be the bible, why? Because why not, and it was going well, until a slip up I made, so basically my response to something my partner said wasn’t the right one, apparently I wasn’t listening, yet I didn’t see the problem, put it this way, a teacher and student are never going to see eye to eye all the time, and there will be occasional disagreements, and the teacher will sometimes say something correct that the student won’t understand, nothing wrong with that it just happens; did it again, apparently it was wrong again, I didn’t even know what I was doing, my temper is rising and I’m trying my best to hide it with the biggest smile I can make, and then start again, last chance, and I answered correctly, WOW IT TOOK TWO OR THREE STOPS BUT WE GOT THERE, NOW GET ME OFF THIS STAGE, and I got a laugh so I definitely pulled it off, but I didn’t feel completely satisfied. Here’s a thing with people involved in performing arts, one thing that everyone involved has in common, is that they’re their own worst enemy, not a cast member, not the director, not the people working behind the scenes, everyone is their own worst enemy, including me, I’m my own worst enemy, there are times where I make a mistake, and go “oh well, I know now and I’ll remember for next time,” and then most of the time I just beat myself up like “how could you get that wrong?” “How could you let that fly over your head?” “You got that right before and you got that wrong now? Just how?” “You’re an actor that’s passed an A Level and HNC course, how are you getting things wrong? The simplest things?!” And it’s that battle with my conscience that sometimes hurts, and something that I need to improve on big time. After class, myself and a friend were heading to The Shakespeare’s Head and I brought that improvisation up, and he said “Yeah I can tell you were getting frustrated,” and now that’s hit me, someone, and maybe more people could tell I was getting frustrated, and it’s no one's fault, it’s my own, I just have a really bad temper, hiding behind a forceful smile, and that’s another thing I need to control, I decided to not let those two things get me down as him and I spent an hour in The Shakespeare’s Head and called it a night.
It’s Friday, and it’s another shift at work, and it was a simple day, quiet, and it started off with a big what was that moment, basically the gates to the museum were unlocked, and were closed, and somewhere between 10:15am and 10:20am, the museum isn’t opening until 10:30am, and this woman has gone to the gate, and she’s only gone and opened it, trying to let herself in, so I had to stop her, let her know we’re not opening yet, she asks about the toilets, so I ask her if she has a ticket (because of track and tracking), she has one, and I let her know that she has to come back at 10:30am, and then she goes, unbelievable, the gate is closed, what does that tell you? It’s closed, you don’t just open it and try to let yourself in, I just can’t get over it, and then, I think you might know where this is going, the exit, the same thing, THERE’S A BIG PINK SIGN WITH BIG WHITE FONT, AND NEXT TO IT IS A SYMBOL OF A CROSS OVER A PERSON MEANING NO ENTRY, YOU DON’T GO IN, and yet people still try to go in, someone even read the sign, and still tried to go in, like why? Just why? I mean honestly it just makes me question people, in the end it was a decent shift, now I’m off for three days, brilliant. After this, I went to Harrow on the Hill, to this pub called Moon on the Hill, to meet a friend, same friend I met up with twice and the same one that hosted the Hawaiian Themed Party over a month ago, this place we met at took me an hour to get to, and a half an hour for her to get to from where she lives, I see this as a win, and it was great, a nice start to my few days off and a great laugh; after this we went to this place called The George, which is a pub that gets lively in the evening, like loud music and flashing lights, closest we’ll get to a club for a while, and that was great too, would love to go there another time; and after that we called it a night, I got home, got myself a takeaway, and fell asleep.
It’s now Saturday, started off with a nice walk in the morning, walked around Angel and near City Road, bumped into two family friends which was nice, got home, and dozed off on the sofa, woke up an hour later, dozed back off, woke up another hour later, dozed back off, woke up two hours later, looked at the time and it was 1:30pm, was I that tired? I couldn’t tell. I was chilling for the rest of the day, played on the PlayStation for a few hours, treated my family to Pizza Hut, and ending my night with a wrestling pay per view, that was my Saturday, nice and chilled.
Finally it’s Sunday, never thought we’d get here because I don’t know when to stop writing. Sunday I was just relaxing, I did go to the gym, finally this week, and I realised that I didn’t have much time left, got there at 3:35pm, it closes at 4pm, so I get there, do some work on my shoulders and chest, leave at 3:58pm, and then went for a jog for a few laps around my flat, so I made the best of something that was poorly timed, and after that I just relaxed, and that was Sunday, it was nice.
So yeah guys that was my week, very descriptive wasn’t it? Sometimes I write and I don’t know when to stop, sometimes I want to stop and I can’t make myself stop, it’s mad, there’s just so much in this head of mine that I feel like I got to express myself, I got to let it all out. I have nothing else to say except, thanks for reading, and I’ll see you for blog 20, the big two oh, 5 months worth of blogs, that’s incredible, see you all then, take care, have a good week, and oh yeah I need to mention, third time and hopefully third time lucky, follow @soapboxislington for their live stream on Wednesday at 6pm where you’ll see me and other talent showcase ourselves. Thanks for reading.”
August 24th - August 30th
“So this is blog 18, I kept thinking this was going to be blog 19 and would have no idea what to write about, but since this is 18 it’s going to give me more of what to write about. So from my previous blogs you could have an idea of what 18 was like when I was talking about the years 2014 and 2015, so for 18 I can talk about what I remember most about my 18th birthday, myself, four friends, and yes Jack was one of them, got into a hummer that drove us around London and dropped us off at the West End where we saw Jersey Boys at the Piccadilly Theatre, it was a fantastic show, and we all got the bus home, it was a wonderful night. Anything else regarding the number 18? Well it was nearly 5 years ago I saw my first rated 18 film in cinemas, Legend starring Tom Hardy as The Krays, my brother in law and I saw it opening night, good film. 2018. I can think of as well, which was mostly an up and down year seeing that I was still going on that downward spiral that went on until March, and spent the majority of the year looking for a job, who would’ve thought I would’ve gone back to education for the year, not me, but I’m very glad I did, it was also a really good year for cinema, and I began going to see West End shows and theatre shows in Dartford and Wimbledon frequently, I also went on trips to Edinburgh and Newcastle with some friends, so looking back 2018 wasn’t that bad, I’d say a 6, maybe even a 7 out of 10 as a year. Now let’s get to the week, it was an ok week, not much happened but what can you do? Some weeks are like that, now let’s get to it.
So here we go on Monday, so Billy how did you start this week? Well Billy I can answer that for you, nothing, yep nothing, just a nothing and relaxing day.
Now it’s Tuesday, now come on Bill, you must’ve done something, well yes Bill I did, now where do I start? So it was going towards the evening, and I was going to have a call with someone from Soapbox Islington regarding my appearance on the Instagram Live the following day, I realised that evening that I couldn’t appear since I had plans made, plans that were made nearly 2 weeks ago, and it took me 4 days to realise that these two would’ve collided with each other, I was disappointed in myself, not for not being able to appear due to plans, but for not realising it sooner; we still had a chat that night, on a Zoom call, took me forever to get onto the call, first time using Zoom, was ridiculously complicated, and the call went fine, and I should be on there this Wednesday, not sure what time yet but it’ll be between 6pm and 6:45pm. After this I went to go to the gym, but what I didn’t realise was that my gym had reduced hours on certain days and that it closed at 8pm, I noticed this at 8:30pm, and this had me scratching my head because the day prior it closed at 10pm, weird. Instead I went for a jog around my flat for half an hour, it was alright, I did feel a bit paranoid since it was raining before I went out and it was wet everywhere, but luckily I was fine.
And now it’s Wednesday, so Billy what did you do on this Wednesday? Well Billy it was a busy Wednesday, and this is what I did. I began by meeting my mum for lunch, she has been doing some training for her new job so we thought it’d be a good idea to meet during her lunch break, we had a drink and a bite to eat from Pret, and since I was early to my next plan, I decided to walk to where I needed to be, and that was the BFI IMAX at South Bank, and after getting there really early, I decided to take a walk around Waterloo, and at one point I was walking past Waterloo Station, and I felt something on the back of my head, so I went to take whatever it was off, and then once I made contact I felt a sting, and whatever this was, I threw it down and saw that it was a wasp, and I realised I got stung on the back of my head, I began to panic, I was sweating, my breathing was beginning to get rapid, I needed to calm down and think that maybe this sting was nothing. I met Jack outside the BFI IMAX, he took a photo and there was a lot of red around where I was stung, and I was feeling no side effects so I felt fine luckily, and then we went on to see Tenet, the first big blockbuster realised in cinemas since February or March, and it was a great film, would highly recommend it, but it is a lot to take in and requires a lot of thinking, still a great film nonetheless; it was great being back in the BFI IMAX too, first time I’ve been there since, I think December when Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker came out. Afterwards Jack and I were filmed doing a talk for IMAX, which was a lot of fun and a good laugh, and we then went to get dinner at the Sports Bar & Grill at Waterloo Station, it was a good time too since the Eat Out to Help Out scheme was on, Jack and I had a nice meal, and Jack ordered this 1kg bucket of chicken wings, which from a far distance doesn’t look big, but when you see it up close, it’s huge, and there must’ve been at least 25 chicken wings in there, and did we finish it? You bet we did, because we love our food. That was Wednesday, personally my favourite day this week.
Going onto Thursday, and I went to the gym, did the cross trainer for around 35 minutes, it was a good workout, was well needed especially after my meal the night before. Later on I went to my drama class and that was fun, the improvisation I did was really good too. Afterwards we all went to the Shakespeare’s Head, that was also really good, it was a great night overall and I felt everyone who was in class felt the same way.
Now it’s Friday, and Friday was decent, I played on the PlayStation for a few hours, Nanny Lylie came up and I spoke to her for a bit, and I went to the gym again, another 35 minutes on the cross trainer, and that was my Friday, now to get ready to work on the weekend.
Here is Saturday, the beginning of bank holiday weekend, so how am I spending bank holiday weekend? I’m working, yep I’m working, can’t believe it myself, but remember, to play hard, you’ve got to work hard, no matter the day; because of bank holiday the Northern line wasn’t going, so I had to get the 43 to Bank Station, and then get onto the DLR, so my journey to work would be around 5 to 10 minutes longer, one mistake could cause me to be late, and what happened? I made a mistake, and I forgot my watch; now, I know what you’re thinking, why did you need your watch? Because I need it to keep track of the time, can’t get my phone out during a shift, it’s unprofessional and doesn’t make me look good as a worker, and I was mad, the one time I forget my watch for work it’s on bank holiday weekend, so I had to get off at Old Street, get the bus back to near home, and meet my mum to get my watch, and I was so mad, absolutely fuming, the only way I could get to work on time was if I got a taxi or an Uber, I order an Uber, the driver accepts only to cancel me, and then another driver accepts, and then thankfully I’m on my way to work, from how mad I was earlier, I could feel it’s side effects, my breathing was all over the place, I felt like I was going to pass out, from all the times I’ve been mad, this had never happened to me before, and it shocked me, I was able to get myself back together, just have to hope that never happens to me again. I get to work around 15 minutes before the start of my shift, and I get on with my day, it wasn’t bad, the rotation I was given gave me a really lunch break, made the rest of my day feel longer, no ones fault it was just the time. Once I got home, I went to meet a friend of mine, known him for 9 years and it was the first time I was seeing him in 3 years, and we went for a walk around the area with his dog, and it was nice, good catchup too.
Finally it’s Sunday, and I’m working again, and luckily I didn’t forget anything and my travel went fine, and Sunday’s tend to be the busiest day in my workplace, and yes it really was, all tickets sold out around 2 or 3 hours before the end of the day, even had lines of people waiting to go in with their booked tickets it was mad, and like last week, I believe I mentioned this in my blog last week, when I was outside the exit keeping an eye on things, I would have people try to go in past me when clearly next to the doors THERE ARE BIG PINK SIGNS SAYING NO ENTRY AND PEOPLE STILL TRY TO GO IN!!! Unbelievable, just can’t believe it, and once the day was done, I was glad to go home, and relax, knowing that I don’t have to be back in work until Wednesday, and seeing that it’s a weekday, it won’t be as hectic, and I ended my Sunday and my week watching a wrestling pay per view, nice way to end it.
That was my week, it was ok, and I don’t know what to say about my week besides that. Make sure to check out @soapboxislington on Instagram on Wednesday at 6pm to check out their live stream featuring myself and other talent, give them a follow too so you can get a notification of when they go live this Wednesday. Also, one more thing, and this is something that I really want to talk about; we all get invested in something to watch, whether it’s a film franchise, a tv series, or a soap opera, and we get invested with the characters, and sometimes we get so invested to where we eventually become fans of those that play our favourite characters, and we look forward to their other projects and anything they do next, Chadwick Boseman was one of those people to a lot of people including myself, and he passed away Friday 28th August after privately battling colon cancer for four years at the age of 43; I remember watching 42 in 2013, where Chadwick played Jackie Robinson, and I remember loving his performance, the following year I watched Get On Up where he played James Brown which was such a fantastic performance, and then a few months later it was announced that he was cast as Black Panther which I was so happy about, and was happy to see that more of the world will find out about who he was, he became one of the highlights of Captain America: Civil War, and then he would reprise the role in Black Panther in 2018 where it broke several box office records, made this huge cultural impact, and would also go on to win numerous awards including 3 Oscars, I was just so happy for him, that he was getting this recognition, he deserved it, and now I sit here typing this and I still can’t believe he is gone; the world lost someone truly special, a man who has been in the spotlight for 7 years and to see how much of an impact he left during that time is astonishing, and to find out that for the last 4 years that while he was living with colon cancer without anyone knowing he kept working day in and day out is so powerful and inspirational, the man was literally a real life superhero; seeing all the messages and posts about him all over social media, really made me realise how much he impacted people, men, women, children, he inspired everyone, and in death he is going to inspire more for years to come, in years more people will look back at his work, his life, his battle, and it will inspire those that will find out about him, the man has gone down as a legend, and he leaves behind a legacy that people will celebrate for years to come, rest in power Chadwick, thank you for everything.
“UPDATE, just found out Soapbox Live is actually on a break this week so I’ll be on next week instead.”
Have a good week guys, take care.
August 17th to August 23rd
“17, here we are, what I didn’t mention last week was that it’s now been 4 months since I began this blog, 4 months, how it all flies by, and here I am still doing this, and how much long is this going to go on for? I have no idea. 17 though, it is blowing my mind the more I think about it, when I think 17 I think of when I was 17, my first year in The Courtyard, meeting Ms. Vidal and all the other staff members there, beginning my A Levels, became an Uncle for the 4th time, and I had some good cinema trips here and there, 17 wasn’t bad. I then think of 2017, coming off of 2016 and how fantastic that was for me, 2017 had a lot to live up to, and did it live up to 2016? No, not even close; to start I finished my apprenticeship at Sadler’s Wells, and I was scared, being back to where I was over a year prior, having to do job searching all over again, I presumed it wasn’t going to be as bad seeing that I’ve now got an apprenticeship and a Business Administration Level 2 qualification on my CV, but nope, it was still tough, even went on this job trial, I saw it was marketing and went for it, not the marketing I thought, the trial day took me to Staines of all places, and the team I was with was trying to get people to sign with EE, now I don’t know why EE would have people in the middle of Staines trying to get people to sign up but here we are, in the cold, I also had to do a lot of writing, didn’t get back to Islington until much later than expected, I had to memorise and answer even more questions, they told me I got the job, and I nearly missed Academy Award Nominee James Newton Howard at Royal Albert Hall because of it, did the induction day, realised that I would only make money if I made a sale, and the job requiring me to be there 6 days a week, I just quit, waste of my time, WASTE OF MY TIME! I would get a job by the end of the year, it wasn’t a bad job, had a familiar face there working with me, a colleague I had a bit of a soft spot for, good opportunities, but I wasn’t needed for work as much as I wanted to be, so that’s a story that goes past 2017 and a story for another time. I turned 21, had a surprise party which was great, only nitpick I really had is that not everyone I knew turned up, but oh well, in life you can’t always get what you want, also if you saw my face when I saw everyone in the room, it was absolutely priceless. I was featured in a documentary based on my flat, and that was a lot of fun to do. I got into a professional production, based on a play I was in the year prior at The Anna Scher Theatre, got funded successfully through a Kickstarter, sold out all six nights at the Etcetera Theatre in Camden, smashed it every single performance, and I would do it all over again, you perform, you celebrate afterwards, wake up the next day and do it all over again, had a good amount of people turn up for me, even had my headteacher turn up for me, shoutout to Ms. Shepherd I hope you’re well, it was all great. After the show’s run ended, getting back to that normal life wasn’t going well, I remember the first class back and I’m like “we’re back? That’s it? What now?” And deep down I don’t think I ever recovered from that; and then I felt like I went into this downward spiral, I won’t get too into it but most of it wasn’t to do with the show ending but other things too, this time in my life was quite possibly the worst 5 months of my life, there were good things that happened during that time including going to Georgia in the States, my youngest niece being born, getting that job I was talking about earlier, the Christmas holidays, and as good as all those were, it was never enough to get me out of that black hole I was in, however just like all dark times in our lives, they end, I look back and wonder “how did that last 5 months?” In the end I’m just glad I got through it and got a bit stronger from it. Anything else to do with 17? In 2009 I saw 17 Again with a friend of mine, the only thing I remember was that I was too loud speaking to my friend in a mostly empty screen, don’t know how, ask the woman rows and rows down that told me to be quiet. Thanks again for dropping in to read this week’s blog guys, I know this was another long intro but normally I have a lot on my mind and I like to let it out, especially seeing that it’s 5:35am as I’m writing this and everyone is asleep, so here I am. As those who read last week’s blog, you know this one will be different, especially since last weeks one I ended a bit early due to me having plans Sunday evening, so here we go, about to begin my week, let’s go.
We begin Sunday evening, that’s a refreshing start, and I’ve just finished writing the blog, so I decide to chill, wait for my phone to charge, and then make my way to South Woodford to see my friends, straight forward right? Well no. If you live in the UK especially London, you would know how bad the rain was that evening, I honestly thought an earthquake was happening it was unbelievably loud. After a while, my phone was 100%, and the rain was as bad as it was earlier, it was so bad that I couldn’t get public transport, I ordered an Uber, an Uber finally comes, I get into the Uber, only for the driver to say that he can’t travel that far, so he accepts the trip, makes his way to mine, let’s me into his car, only to then realise that the journey is too far for him, what a waste of time; eventually another Uber driver came, and dropped me off in South Woodford. So the two of us, and another friend of us who was there, we normally call ourselves The Rat Pack, The Rat Pack back together, first time since March, it was a great night and it flew by, went to bed at 3:30am, those 5 hours went so quick.
And now it’s Monday, I wake up in the morning, and my mate who lives in South Woodford and his mum drops my friend and I off at South Woodford Station, where I meet my mum and a friend of my mum’s who picked me up from the station, and dropped me off at theirs. My Mum and I were there for a few hours, and my mum’s friend’s daughters and granddaughters were there too so that was really nice, I remember last year my parents and I attended a wedding and during the reception we spent some of that time looking after one of the granddaughters, good times. After 2 or 3 hours, my mum’s friend drops us off at Woodford Station where my Mum and I made our way home. After getting home, having a nap and having dinner, I decide to go to the gym for the first time since lockdown started, I didn’t know what to expect, I was quite nervous, but there’s a first time for everything, this moment was going to happen eventually, here goes nothing. The gym was running on a one way system which was straightforward, and each locker had 2 metres between them so it was quite hard to find an empty locker, and then I go inside, to find where to do my workout, everything is spaced out by 2 metres and everyone I saw in the gym had one thing in common, none of them was wearing a mask, and I was the only one wearing one, it was very awkward, very uncomfortable too, I just did a workout on the Cross Trainer on level 10, was on there for between 35 and 40 minutes and went home, and that was my Monday, now I prepare to go back to work.
Tuesday, it’s the big day, my first shift back at work, was I nervous? You bet I was. How nervous? The sweaty nervous. I didn’t know what to expect, what to do, but eventually I was able to settle in and have a proper understanding of what to do and do it well. The difference was that the hours are reduced to 6 hours, like a school day, a part of the museum was open, instead of anyone entering and exiting anywhere it will have one entrance and one exit, and because of the test and trace system, people have to book tickets online before they enter the museum. Besides my brain getting fuzzy during the last hour of my shift, it was a decent day back, and now I have an understanding of what to do and what’s going on, it should be easy days going forward.
Next up it’s Wednesday, and today it’s my second of two shifts at work this week. I was more physically and mentally prepared compared to the previous day and personally I thought as a worker I performed better in this shift, though I do have to admit, when I was at the exit, on opposite sides of the door, there are signs clearly displayed saying that there’s no entry to the museum, and people try and go inside, from the exit, THE SIGNS ARE RIGHT THERE, YOU READ THE SIGNS! Unbelievable. During the evening I decided take a trip to the cinema, the VUE up Angel, and I watched The Hunger Games: Catching Fire, I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve watched this film, but in total this was the 4th time I was seeing it in the cinema, 3rd in this particular cinema, and I had the whole screen to myself, a screen with between 100 and 200 seats, and I was the only one in it, it was overwhelming I absolutely loved it, and it was a great way to end my day, got home just before midnight.
Here is Thursday, and this week this was my favourite day, and you’ll see why in a bit. So for a little while now Ms. Vidal and I were discussing meeting up, and we didn’t know what was going to happen because I was busy, she was busy, and the weather kept constantly changing, and while I was waiting for the film to come on the night prior, Ms. Vidal emails me about meeting up the next day, and just like that, my Thursday was made. So I arrive at Regent’s Park, believe it or not it was the first time I’ve ever been to Regent’s Park, I can’t believe it myself; so we meet at The Regent’s, and her son was with her too, I’ve seen her son on a couple of Google Meets Video Calls, and seeing him in front of me was just surreal, it brought me back to July 2016, Ms. Vidal tells me she is pregnant and I was just so happy for her, it also brought me back to November 2016, the day Ms. Vidal was going to go on leave, I go to The Courtyard to see her, and I remember seeing her baby bump and I let out a massive gasp, I still laugh at myself looking back on it, and now we fast forward to present day, and here they both are, and here he is, life is incredible and full of wonders. We began by sitting at The Regent’s, having a coffee and a chat, got to know her son more, and we began talking about dinosaurs, and that was really nice. We then went for a walk around Regent’s Park while her son rod his scooter, he said my name at one point and my heart just melted, felt the biggest smile grow on my face. I still couldn’t get over how I’ve never been to Regent’s Park before, it’s so beautiful and it’s only 15 or 20 minutes on the bus from where I live. Eventually we went our separate ways, and said bye, and I just couldn’t believe it, nearly 7 years ago she started teaching me in The Courtyard, nearly 7 years later we’re meeting up, with her son, in Regent’s Park, unbelievable, this was without a shadow of a doubt my highlight of the week. Once I got home, I had lunch, was chilling in my bedroom, heard noise on my balcony, went out and saw it was one of my neighbours chilling out there, it’s a shared balcony don’t worry, and we spoke about her family, my family, and she said she’d be back in a bit, did she come back? Nah, she didn’t, and I just sat out there, on my own, in the sun, and Naturally by Gilbert O’Sullivan began playing in my head. I was supposed to go to my drama class later but I decided to give it a miss, felt tired from the sun today, and I didn’t have a good sleep the night prior, so I gave the class a miss, they can miss me for one week no worries, and that was Thursday, good day overall.
We now head to Friday, and I met up with a friend at his workplace, which is a pub called The Old Star which is next to St. James Park Station, and once he finished his shift, we had a few drinks, and I even met someone that he works with, who every week hosts a talent showcase on Instagram Live, and guess who’ll be on there Wednesday, yep your boy is showing off his talent and answering questions for 15 minutes, will put details at the end. My friend and I left The Old Star between 10:45pm and 11pm, we got McDonalds and then got the tube home, had a lovely time.
Oh look it’s Saturday, so I was planning to do something for Saturday, either going for a walk or go to the gym, but plans changed, I found out my youngest nephew was going to be staying with us for a few hours since his parents are going to be out so we had to look after him, I played with him on the PlayStation for a bit and for the most part he was good as gold, I did my uncle duties well, and I ended my night watching a wrestling pay per view, that was my Saturday, decent.
Now we have reached Sunday, began Sunday with meeting Jack for lunch, we went to this place at Chapel Market called N1 Grill, and it was alright, had to ask for a drink 3 times but the food was good so that was really the main thing, we got ice cream afterwards from an ice cream van nearby and that was good too. Afterwards I went home for around 2 hours, and my mum and I went to see a friend of her’s, I don’t recall if it was her birthday, or before her birthday, or after her birthday but it was to do with her birthday, and it was nice seeing faces I haven’t seen since before lockdown and catching up, and then we went and sat in the garden outside, and here I was, drink in hand, while everyone on my side was either on their phones or just staring into space and I was sitting there like “THIS IS REALLY GOOD SOCIALISING GUYS, KEEP IT GOING YOU’RE ALL DOING GREAT,” I mean I didn’t say anything but it did bother me, mum and I went home not long after that, and I ended my night watching another wrestling pay per view.
That was my week, I believe this one has the chance of being up there with being one of my longest blogs. I liked this week, because it was different, and I saw plenty of familiar faces that I haven’t seen since before lockdown, I did my first shifts back at work, met up with Ms. Vidal and her son, it was a really good week in general. Thank you all for reading again. I was supposed to take part in the Instagram Live on Wednesday 26th August for Soapbox Islington at 6pm, but I just realised that I have plans that were made a week and a half ago that collide with the Instagram Live so that means that I unfortunately have to drop out. However I do encourage those that are reading this to check out @soapboxislington on Instagram and go on their Instagram Live at 6pm to check out and support the talent performing. Thanks again guys, see you next week”
August 10th - August 16th
“It’s number 16, what can I think of with the number 16? Well I remember when my friends and I were younger and we treated the age 16 as if it was a big massive deal, one more step closer to 18, being able to do more things, nearly an adult, but looking back, the age 16 didn’t really mean much, it felt like a big deal at the time, but not now, it’s a bigger deal being 24, one year away from my mid 20s, I remember being in Year 11 as a 16 year old, being the oldest student in the school, obviously a role model to the younger students, and increasingly became less motivated as the year went on, these are the most important grades of your life they said, these won’t do much for me I said, then I ended up with mediocre GCSE results, perfect BTEC results, and then I went on to pass every other course I went on to do, A Level, HNC, Functional Skills and even a Business Administration course, and a few jobs, I think I’ve done alright in the last 7 years. Then I think of 2016, looking back, the best year of my life, finally got into work by starting a Digital & Marketing Apprenticeship at Sadler’s Wells, which also meant I had to go back to education to do a Business Administration Level 2 course at Lewisham Southwark College, also I was doing a lot of my own things like going to concerts and attending the BFI London Film Festival for the first time, turned the big 20, I went to Orlando, Florida with my family and my American family, and my social life was better than ever, looking at it, it was quite possibly the happiest I’ve been as an adult, it shows that nothing lasts forever, and the crazy thing is, while I was this happy and having all these good things going on, the road to Brexit happening started, Trump won the election, and the world lost the likes of Muhammad Ali, Prince, Gene Wilder, David Bowie, Carrie Fisher, Alan Rickman, Sir Ken Adam, Frank Sinatra Jr, Garry Shandling, Kris Travis, Billy Paul, Theresa Saldana, Harry Rabinowitz, the white oak tree from The Shawshank Redemption, Marni Nixon, Gaspar Saladino, Kenny Baker, Curtis Hanson, Rod Temperton, Michael Massee, Kevin Meaney, Leonard Cohen, Florence Henderson and many, many more; I even remember especially during the second half of 2016 that people were saying it was like the worst year ever and I was the one guy that said “well it could be worse,” and then 2020 happened, and we’ve still got 4 months of it left, and potentially a second wave, life is wonderful isn’t it, full of sunshine, lollipops and rainbows. This is blog number 16, and a different one too, I’ll say why at the end.
To start things off on Monday, I just took myself for a little trip to Mile End, just for a change of scenery, didn’t last too long because the heat was unbearable, and that was it, that was Monday, it was decent.
Onto Tuesday now, well that was quick, and it was my mum’s birthday, her and dad just got back from their little getaway, gave my mum her card and present, and also made her a nice coffee, I made sure there was plenty of chocolate and sugar, just how she likes it. In the evening I met up with Jack, and him and I took a trip to the Cineworld at the O2 to see Jurassic Park, Jack and I absolutely love the film, and for both of us it has a big impact on our childhoods, it was the first time Jack and I were seeing a film at the cinema together since we took my nephews to see Sonic The Hedgehog at the Vue at Angel back in February. we saw Jurassic Park in this format called 4DX, now 4DX is where you watch the film and feel practical effects around you including motion seats, wind, strobe lights, simulated snow and scents, and it was a fun experience, the seats got quite bumpy and my head was back against the seat so my head was going all over the place, felt like I got beat up, I actually would recommend it believe it or not, but if the seats getting bumpy gets too much for your head, just lean forward, don’t be like me and feel an aching on the back of your head for the next two or three hours.
Heading to Wednesday, my youngest nephew, my Mum and I made Red Velvet cookies out of the Gookie Dough that I still had which was really nice. Afterwards some family members came down to see my mum with her birthday being the day prior, my older brother, his partner and my two youngest nieces came down, as did my eldest sister, my brother in law and my youngest nephew, and all of us just sat outside chatting, it was really nice.
Going onto Thursday, and I went to my drama class, it was a really good class, I performed a monologue which was about a young musician who doesn’t have a good relationship with his dad, and the one time he goes to his dad, his dad wants nothing to do with him, I performed it well and everyone really liked it, I also did a comedic improvisation with a friend of mine in the class which was good too. Afterwards some of us went to The Harlequin, and then The Shakespeare’s Head and then myself and a friend, same one I did the improvisation with, went to Slim Jim’s, I called it a night after that and got home before 1am.
Here we are on Friday, and what did I do on Friday? Nothing really, some days you just don’t have the energy to do anything and this was one of those days, and sometimes it’s best to just stay at home and do nothing.
OH LOOK ITS SATURDAY, and what did I do on this day? I met up with a friend of mine, the same friend I was with last Saturday, and the same one I helped with his audition tape two weeks ago, and I was helping him with another audition tape, it was for the same role, but it was like the next stage in the audition process, just more lines and directions to memorise, and it went really well, was very happy with how it worked out, now we play the waiting game. Afterwards we went to The Finsbury for a bit which was a laugh.
Finally it’s Sunday, and I went for a walk around Angel, Upper Street, near Holloway Road and Essex Road, and that’s it for now.
Wait, what do you mean that’s it for now!? It’s because I’m going to see my friend in South Woodford and spend the night, and then I’m seeing family friends in Woodford the following day so I thought it would be best to write it now, it makes a change, and it’s different, and different is good sometimes. Next week will be interesting, will be doing my first two shifts back at work and seeing familiar faces, and I’ll see you lot then, I know it wasn’t the most busy week but not every week is going to be the same, and I hope you enjoyed my write up for what it was, see you all next week, take care.”
August 3rd- August 9th
“So here we are on 15, when I think of 15 I think of when I was 13 and I would sneak into rated 15 films in the cinema because I looked older than I did at the time, thinking about it I look at least 5 years older than I do now. 15 also makes me think of 2015, a very rocky year for me, began the year with a mental breakdown, something that I won’t get into right now, I then went on to perform in Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street as Beadle Bamford for two nights at St. Mary Magdalene Academy, 250 people per night, I finished my time at The Courtyard and St. Mary Magdalene Academy and passed all of the subjects I took, my Uncle Jimmy passed away, I tried to audition for a year long course at the Young Actors Theatre which flopped miserably, I did begin to attend classes at the Anna Scher Theatre which was the start of acting jobs, a lot of learning and a lot of lifelong friends, I also tried applying for jobs to no success and began attending the Job Centre which I hated every single minute of. Films were a big part of 2015 for me, and even helped me through the hardest of days, I took my youngest nephew to the cinema for the first time to see The SpongeBob Movie: Sponge Out of Water where he was as good as gold, Furious 7 where we all said goodbye to Paul Walker, I won tickets to a preview screening of Avengers: Age of Ultron which I got through ShowFilmFirst which interesting fact, I was told about by Ms. Vidal, amazing what you can find out and what that can lead to from people you know, Mad Max: Fury Road which I think I saw more than any other movie that year and one of very few movies I’ve watched twice in a day, Inside Out which just like nearly every Disney movie got me emotional, Jurassic World which I saw after attending an event where family and friends got together to toast to and celebrate the memory of Uncle Jimmy, Mission: Impossible - Rogue Nation which I saw on my birthday with some of my best friends at the BFI IMAX, The Visit in which Jack and I attended a preview screening of two months before its release where my reaction got recorded and put onto one of its TV spots, which you’ll see below this blog, Hotel Transylvania 2 where I took my youngest nephew to see it and we bumped into my eldest niece and eldest nephew in the same screening with their dad, Spectre where Jack and I dressed in tuxedos to see the movie and I still felt jet lagged from flying home from Georgia that same day, The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 2 which I won tickets for from OK Magazine to see at its London Premiere and it was one of the best nights of my life, Star Wars: The Force Awakens which I saw after a very bad appointment at the Job Centre, and it really cheered me up, and so many other films that I have memories of, 2015 was absolutely stacked. Another good memory I have of 2015 was surprising one of my best friends with tickets to a wrestling show at Wembley Arena which was a fantastic night. Overall 2015 was a very mixed bag of a year, and a year I felt where I don’t think 2015 itself knew what it wanted to be. I also think of the age 15, the year of me being 15, though it had good memories and moments here and there, there were bad too, my Grandad Ronnie passed away, my relationship of 2 years ended, and my Nanny Jane passed away, all of this in a space of 8 months, it was rough, times I’d rather not look back on, but I look at them as moments I became stronger from. I only just realised how much I’ve written, and I haven’t even gotten to the beginning of my week yet, HEY BILL YOU’VE WRITTEN ENOUGH WHAT ABOUT YOUR WEEK?! BE PATIENT SUNSHINE I’M GETTING TO IT!!!! Anyway, enough with me arguing with myself, here is my week for blog 15.
To begin on Monday, obviously, if you’ve read my previous blog you all know that I was going back to work to do training and shifts. I entered the museum and I felt like I never left, it was as if lockdown never happened and I was just there for a shift days prior, it was so odd, a colleague of mine that was there that day described it as going back to school. For our training this day we went through the one way system in the National Maritime Museum and the Queen’s House, the National Maritime Museum one way system is one that’s quite easy to remember, while the Queen’s House one way system is a bit more complex. We were also told about changes that were being made and were even given updated work dates, I looked at mine, released a sigh of relief and saw that I wasn’t working this weekend, WOO GET ALL YOU CAN GET BECAUSE WE’RE CELEBRATING!!! Also I was given a name badge and a house key just like a part time or full time worker, so I could use the key to get onto the museum sites whenever I wanted to, it felt incredible, knowing that they believed in me and trusted me to have something like that, and felt good knowing that I didn’t need to go to security to ask for a house key anymore. We also found out our work bubbles, and my bubble is one of the bubbles working in the National Maritime Museum which I was more than happy with. That was my first day back, good day, now to prepare for the next.
Tuesday was the second out of four days of training, and the training on this day was at the Royal Observatory, which is up high on a hill, and takes what feels like an eternity to get up there, once you’ve gone up the hill you are nearly out of stamina and sweating, but you do get quite possibly the best view in London so that makes up for it. We all took a walkthrough of the one way system and what to do if the fire alarm went off. We spent the majority of the time outdoors so, most of the time outdoors, on top of a hill, on a sunny day, do you know what this means? Me getting a colour, it’s only gone and happened again. This was a good day too, was a lot to take in but luckily I’ve got papers from work to go through to help me memorise everything.
Heading to Wednesday, day three out of four of our training, and originally this was meant to be on the first day but the person in charge this day was on annual leave Monday. So we all sat in a circle, and spoke about how we were during lockdown, what we did, how we felt at the start, and it felt really good to talk about it and hearing everyone else; I opened up about how anxious I was at first, how I coped at the start, and I also spoke about the blog and how it got it’s own article in the Islington Gazette. We were all given welcome back papers to look through and with a good amount of information, especially with what to do if anyone of us had symptoms of COVID. This was a good day too, a different day, and was nice to see more familiar faces.
Now onto Thursday, the last day of training, had to put my uniform on for the first time since March, felt weird but it also felt good, but the weather did make the uniform feel stuffy. We began sitting on desks and listening to a few people from the office talking about everything regarding the museums, opening and closing times, rotations, the one way system, ticket purchases, what we should do during our lunch breaks and a lot of other stuff, it was a lot to take in, but good information to hear about nonetheless. After the lunch break I got with some of the work colleagues in my bubble and went through the one way system, for some of them it was their first time going through it, and that was it, that was the last day of training, and now I have a week and a half to prepare for my first shift back. During the evening I went to my drama class, I felt I did better this time, not as good as I’d want to be but definitely better. Most of us including myself went to The Shakespeare’s Head afterwards and it felt really nice to be chatting, and having a laugh in the beer garden under the summer night sky. I booked for 4 people including myself a table at this bar on Upper Street called Slim Jim’s for 11:15pm, on the way there was 5 of us and once we arrived, I spoke to the bouncer saying I put down 4 instead of 5, the bouncer talks to the boss, one minute later, he comes back, and tells us to come in, perfect. We were there for around 3 hours, and I didn’t get home until 2:45am, and fell asleep an hour later, it was a good night.
Friday, woke up at 10am thanks to my alarm, but did I need to wake up? Basically I was supposed to have a Google Meets video call with Ms. Vidal which was scheduled at 11am, this was a mistake of Ms. Vidal’s, she sent the invitation to my Google Calendar just last night not realising it was 11am, but a few days ago she said we’ll talk at 1pm, and this is the funny part, I completely forgot about the 1pm part so I ended up waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting, I sat there for an hour waiting, the things I do for the people in my life, and I emailed Ms. Vidal, she emailed me back, I emailed her back, she emailed me back, and next we’re doing a video chat while she’s on the bike, she’s great at multitasking, we spoke for around 20 minutes, and it was a fun chat, full of laughs and giggles, lovely way to start my day. After this I met up with a good friend of mine who I was in the same classroom with back in secondary school, we were at The White Swan for around 3 hours or so, it was really nice, we was meant to meet up back in March but this was a day before lockdown kicked in and changed everything so it was really nice we met up on this day. He’s actually the only classmate I still keep regular contact with, think of it this way, one is better than none.
Now it’s Saturday, and just to get this out of the way, I’m so glad I wasn’t working this weekend in this weather, it would’ve killed me. Began Saturday with both of my youngest nieces coming up, along with my older brother and his partner, my Nanny Lylie came up too and her, my mum and I had glasses of Pimm’s. Later on I went to The Camden Head to meet up with five good friends of mine, one of them I was with last Thursday to help with his audition tape, one I saw just three or four weeks ago at the birthday party, and the other three I haven’t seen since before lockdown started so it was really nice to be with each other again, a great laugh.
Finally it’s Sunday and on this day I met up with Jack for the first time in a few weeks, and we went to Charing Cross to this pub called The Sherlock Holmes, because Jack likes Sherlock Holmes, yeah that’s the reason. We had a nice meal there and then went for a walk around Leicester Square, and that was it, that was my Sunday.
That was my week, a very eventful and very busy week. It was really good to be back at work and really good to see faces I haven’t seen since before lockdown began. I look forward to next week, seeing that I’m not working next week it does shakeup the week a bit. I hope you enjoyed this week’s blog, I know I went on for a bit with the intro and I know it was different but I do hope you all enjoyed it. Before I go I want to say, please think of those who have been affected by the explosions that took place in Beirut, Lebanon last week. Thanks again everyone, I’ll see you next week.”
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July 27th - August 2nd
“This is 14, already, wow, pretty big number, and my 14th blog already, this is a very special one, a part of it is because of the number, but most of it is my last writing as 23 years old, and the rest of it my first as 24 years old, and my last blog before I go back to work, here I am, sitting by my laptop with a near finished bottle of Moretti, thinking of my life since lockdown began, how much has happened since then, and now life is the closest to being back to normal, with a few things still needing to come back. Now I look forward to writing this blog because it was a busy week, a very good week, one of my favourites since lockdown started, and let’s get to it.
Monday was my least busiest day of the week, had a Google Meets Video Call with Ms. Vidal, first time in nearly 3 weeks and it was lovely as usual, always nice to chat to Ms. Vidal, got to see her son as well which was nice, her phone cut out due to her battery running out, but we were about to finish the conversation then anyway, besides the anticlimactic ending it was another wonderful chat. A part of my chat with Ms. Vidal, I just sat back and relaxed the entire day, sometimes you need days like that.
Now onto Tuesday, and Tuesday was good, it was the first time I went to the cinema since if I remember correctly, February, Jack and I took my nephews to see Sonic The Hedgehog at the VUE up Angel which was a lot of fun. On this day I went to the Everyman Cinema at King’s Cross to see The Matrix, yep I’m a massive film buff but I’ve never seen The Matrix. I first got to the cinema and it was a part of this massive office building which featured floors upon floors of offices and a posh pizza restaurant, I went to the Everyman Cinema Bar where I ordered myself a Raspberry Candy Fizz which is Raspberry Liqueur, Prosecco and Candy Floss, I felt the need to treat myself, took my seat and the seat was like a sofa single seat, very soft and cozy with a pillow, got around half an hour worth of trailers, made me cringe seeing nearly all the trailers being outdated, imagine a world without COVID and we got all these films out on time. Watching a film on the big screen felt surreal, didn’t feel real at all, and the film itself, so awesome, came out 21 years ago and was years ahead of its time. Once I left the cinema and got home I felt this incredible buzz, the feeling of more normality in my life and finally seeing a film in the cinema, whether it’s an old or new film, I was just glad to be back in a cinema screen.
Heading to Wednesday, and on this day I decided to take a walk, walked up Angel, Upper Street, Essex Road, got near Hackney, and then I went to the West End, and stopped at Her Majesty’s Theatre where The Phantom of the Opera would normally play, I’m sure you all heard at that time that they were going to stop all productions of Phantom of the Opera because of how affected it got during this pandemic, and being there, with a few camera men too, it was just sad to see, a musical, been in the West End for 34 years and just like that, it’s gone, and it’s one of the more well known, loved and expensive musicals, one of the greatest of all time, if people had to decide what musicals would be on the Mount Rushmore of Musical Theatre, most people would put Phantom of the Opera on there, and seeing how it got affected, imagine what shows could be next; though I did see a day or two later that Phantom of the Opera was looking to return with a brand new physical production so that’s really good, and when West End theatres are back, I will definitely be booking a ticket to The Phantom of the Opera. After the walk I went to see Auntie Susie and Uncle Trevor, first time I’ve been up their house since March when lockdown was about to start, had a nice chat with Uncle Trevor, collected some spaghetti for my mum and headed home, also I got colour on my face and head from the sun, I didn’t realise how warm it was and here I was with colour on my face and head, my pale skin, easy for me to get caught by the sun.
Here we are on Thursday, the last day before my birthday, last day being 23, and to start this day, I met up with a friend of mine for the first time since lockdown started to help him with his audition tape, we had a nice catchup, a good laugh and the audition tape went really well, each time we did a new take, a new idea came to mind, a reminder that the two of us are a really good team, afterwards we had lunch and went our separate ways at Finsbury Park, very nice start to the day. In the evening was my first drama class since March, and this was a special class, my teacher decided to bring some of his younger students to the class and we mixed in with them, the improvisation I did wasn’t bad, could’ve been better, on my part, a bit rusty acting again, will improve over time. Afterwards was the beginning of my birthday celebrations, a lot of us went for drinks at The Shakespeare’s Head and it was really nice, sat outdoors in the beer garden and had a great laugh. Afterwards 4 of us including myself went to look for another place to go to, went to Slim Jim’s, all booked out, then went to All For One, all booked out too, and we decided to call it a night, by the time I got home it was past midnight, and I turned 24 years old.
Now it’s Friday, and it’s officially my birthday on what is so far the hottest day of the year, officially 24, feels weird, will take some getting used to. Got some gifts including some new shirts, new Reebok trainers, quite a bit of money, £60 worth of Cineworld vouchers and the coincidence was that Cineworld opened all of their cinemas on my birthday so expect me to make some trips over the next few weeks, new set of pyjamas, 4 bath bombs from Lush, and I believe that’s it from what I can remember. For my birthday I didn’t really fancy doing anything big especially during a pandemic, my youngest nieces and my older brother’s partner came up, my older brother would eventually come down during his lunch break, my eldest sister and my youngest nephew came to see me as well before they left to play golf in Essex, at one point an old face video called me, she was the film maker behind the documentary I was in, I Am Eleven, and I had a nice catchup with her and met a friend of her’s; my Nanny Lylie would come down and the both of us and my mum had a few glasses of Pimm’s, two of my neighbours came to see me as well, and my other neighbour cooked me a massive bowl of rice, her special recipe which I looked forward to having. For dinner my younger brother and I got Five Guys, the burger I had was absolutely ridiculous, it was a Bacon Cheeseburger with, I can’t believe I’m about to say this, Lettuce, Tomatoes, Grilled Onions, Grilled Mushrooms, Pickles, Green Peppers, Ketchup and BBQ sauce, I had all that with regular Five Guys Style Fries, and a Milkshake, and I can’t believe I’m about to say this, this Milkshake had Strawberry, Coffee and Oreo Cookie Pieces, as you can tell I have a ridiculous appetite but I never complain about it because I absolutely love it. Later on my brother in law popped up to see me and my parents and I watched 7500 on Amazon Prime, which was a decent film, and that was my birthday, and it was lovely, couldn’t imagined it being any better than it was.
Now it’s Saturday, and this was a big day, it was the FA Cup Finals with Arsenal taking on quite possibly their greatest rival Chelsea, will Chelsea claim the trophy? Will Arsenal break their own record with most FA Cup wins? An Arsenal and Chelsea match is like a game of Heads and Tails, you don’t know what side of the coin you’ll get, I’m not the biggest football expert or fan, but if Arsenal are actually in the finals of something, I’m watching it. I took a trip down to South Woodford to a friend’s house, the same friend I met with before we made our way to the Hawaiian Themed Party over a week ago, and also there was his mum, his sister, his sister’s boyfriend, and a good friend of his, so including myself there was around six of us all supporting Arsenal. The game was something that you couldn’t make up, like something out of a movie, Chelsea dominates in the first 10 to 15 minutes including a goal, and then after that Arsenal takes control scoring a goal of their own while Chelsea got a couple of yellow cards, they’re getting nervous and tired; and the second half comes and their best player gets injured, then Arsenal scores another goal, then one of Chelsea’s players gets a red card, and their own captain who was only on the pitch for 10-15 minutes gets injured and then the final whistle blows, we did it, we won, there was a good chance we could’ve lost but we did it, we actually won, we went outside with the Arsenal flag and sang to one of the neighbours, who has since Arsenal went 2-1 taken his Chelsea flags down, “WHERE’S YOUR FLAG GONE, WHERE’S YOUR FLAG GONE, WHERE’S YOUR FLAG GONE CHELSEA” the neighbour gives the finger and closes the window, brilliant. Afterwards we put a barbecue on that had chicken, burgers, hotdogs, pita bread and chicken korma kebab, after this we all called it a night as I made my bed on the sofa, put The Green Mile and because how tired I was, I fell asleep 10 minutes into the film. Overall it was a lovely way to end my birthday celebration that began on Thursday evening and ended on this evening.
Finally we’re on Sunday, I had a decent sleep, and I had a few cups of tea while I played with Pepper, the French Bulldog of the family who fell asleep on my lap at one point, and chatted away with my friend’s mum, after this my friend and his mum dropped me off at Wanstead Station where I got the tube home, I got home, had lunch, had a nap for two hours, woke up, had dinner, had a bath and that was it, that was my Sunday.
That was my week, as I said at the start, one of my favourite weeks since lockdown started, this was one of my favourite to write about too. I now prepare for the busiest week since lockdown started, from Monday to Thursday I will be training at my workplace, meeting a friend from secondary school on Friday, and then doing shifts at work on Saturday and Sunday, the best part of this is that you all will get an insight on my job and how I work, and what working during a pandemic is like. Am I nervous? A bit. Am I dreading how busy I’m going to be? Kind of. This is good though, more normality in my life, more time outside my house, a step forward into the normal life, as you’re reading this I’m either doing my training or I’ve just finished my first day, you already know what my entire week is going to consist of, but that’s what makes next week so interesting, instead of wondering what I’m going to do, you all know what I’m about to do, I’ll see you all then, take care.”
July 20th to July 26th
“So this is blog number 13, I remember being 13 in Year 8 which was a real mixed bag, I was 13 when I got into my first and only relationship which during the next year was also a mixed bag, my eldest niece is going to be 13 in a month and a bit which blows my mind, my younger brother got an IPad on his 13th birthday, as a kid I took a huge interest in the Friday the 13th films, 13 reminds me of the year 2013 which was a fantastic year for films, and an interesting year for me, finished my time at Stormont House School which came with mediocre results for both my GCSEs and BTECs, and then I started at The Courtyard, which also was the beginning of studying Performing Arts, so what you’re seeing with this blog, my time and conversations with Ms. Vidal, what you know about my time here and anything to do with acting or related to the performing arts, it all started here, and it’s led me here nearly 7 years later writing this blog. I know you must think that this is a random intro and I don’t blame you, but let’s just say that the number 13 does remind me of a lot of things. This is blog number 13, let’s get into it.
Kicking it off with Monday and my mum, youngest nephew and I went to see my Auntie Susie, with how nice the weather was we stood in the middle part of her flat which has a lot of grass and a couple of benches and it was really nice, my cousin, her partner, my cousins’ children, and their neighbours were there too, some of us had McDonalds for lunch and my younger brother came down to see us after just getting home from staying at the caravan with some friends of his, it was all really nice. Afterwards my younger brother, mum, myself, youngest nephew and my cousins’ children went back to mine, and we had my cousins’ children there for around an hour or so. I also did a total of 80 pushups on this day, not all in one but I would do something like 10, and then 20 around half an hour later, it was quite inconsistent but still, it was 80 pushups and I felt really proud of myself.
For Tuesday, it was like a continuation of Monday, and not because it was the next day but my youngest nephew and cousins’ children came up just like yesterday, it’s because my older sister and cousin’s partner work in the same school and they had to go in to clean up, so we had the pleasure of looking after the kids, and they were all as good as gold, they even had their own gaming area set up in my parents’ bedroom, my nephew and the eldest of my cousins’ kids was on the PlayStation 4 while the youngest of my cousins’ kids was on the Nintendo Switch, we all then had KFC for lunch and that was it, very good day, and always a pleasure to look after them. A few hours after that, I decided to go for a jog,sometime during the previous week I wore socks too short for my shoes, and the material of my shoes rubbed up against the back of my feet and damaged the skin a bit, it didn’t really affect me in any way just felt a bit itchy, so I only went and made the same mistake, and I went on to jog through Angel, Upper Street and near Holloway, I stopped after the pain on the back of my feet got too much, and realised I still had to go back home, I didn’t have my wallet on me so I couldn’t get the bus, I had my phone so I could’ve got myself an Uber but seeing that I didn’t have my mask would the Uber driver let me in? So I tip toed all the way home, finally got home and saw a bit of blood on the back of my socks and a bit inside the shoes, looks like I won’t be jogging for a bit.
So for Wednesday it was something that I believe I mentioned in some of the previous blogs, and this something was the Hawaiian Themed Party, it was here, it was happening, and it felt surreal, originally it was meant to be this Saturday but the weather was predicted to be bad so the party was pushed forward, and I’ll get to Saturday’s weather later on. To begin I went to the park with my youngest nieces, my youngest nephew, my mum and my older brother’s partner which was nice and it’s always good to do my uncle duties. I then met one of my friends outside The Angel pub where we had a pint and a shot each, and after that we went to Angel Station to get on the Northern Line, got off at Euston, then took the Overground to Hatch End where from there we walked for 10 minutes to the party; it was really good, seeing old and new faces, just sitting out in the sun, drinking and chatting with music playing in the background, I’m honestly surprised I didn’t get burnt seeing that my skin burns so easily, some of the people at the party including the hostess I was supposed to be going to Ayia Napa with, but of course that didn’t happen, but if this was the closest we could get to Ayia Napa, I’d take it! I was chatting to one of my friend’s there and she said for a laugh that I was her temporary boyfriend, I would’ve preferred long term but you can’t always get what you want, another person at the party got sick so I helped looking after that person, at one point I took my shoes and socks off and just stood in the pool, with a can of Strongbow in my hand in my own little world, don’t know why it happened but there you go. Later on, my mate that I traveled to the party with and I watched Liverpool raise their Premier League trophy as we sang You’ll Never Walk Alone, I am an Arsenal supporter but there’s that tiny part of me that supports Liverpool for my mum; once everyone started packing away, that same mate and I sat outside on our own and sang Frank Sinatra songs out loud, these songs were Come Fly with Me, I’ve Got You Under My Skin and Theme From New York, New York; we were 20 seconds away from finishing until the hostess’ mum came out to tell us off, she couldn’t let us finish those last 20 seconds, shame. Some of us slept in the living room and I got to play with Milo for a bit who was a very good boy, spent the majority of the day in his cage and he really behaved himself, he was lying down on my lap at one point, I absolutely adore him; by the time we all fell asleep it was past 2am; at one point around 4am I woke up and went to the spare bedroom and spent the rest of the night sleeping there.
Here’s Thursday, woke up with a blocked nose and dehydration, it’s either that or a splitting headache, I’ll take the former any day. I went downstairs to see those who stayed over, they were watching a film on Netflix, the film was called Ouija, the less said about the film the better, made me wish I drank more the night before so I could’ve slept through the whole thing. Afterwards the mate I travelled with yesterday and I left the house and made our way home, we went our separate ways at Euston Station, he got the Victoria Line to Oxford Circus, as I got the Northern Line back to Angel; after getting off the tube I got myself two bacon and egg sandwiches and got home, ate them and had a nap. A few hours later I made an interesting discovery, basically do you remember the drama teacher I mentioned 3 or 4 blogs ago that told me he was going to start doing classes again? Well on this day was his birthday, on he did a Facebook post about his birthday lunch, or was it dinner? I don’t know, anyway, he ended the post with “now I’m off to my classes” something like that, and that had me scratching my head, and I remembered him saying he would email me about the classes, so I’ve checked my emails and around 2 and a half to 3 weeks ago he did email me about when classes were coming back, I must’ve missed the email or actually saw it and forgot about it, so I accidentally missed 3 classes, just had to laugh about it; so I had a good idea, seeing that most people go to the Shakespeare’s Head after class, I thought to get there before class ends and surprise everyone, so I get there around 8:45pm, wait around with a pint in my hand for between 15 and 20 minutes, and then some of the class came in, they saw me and everyone got excited, it’s nice to see everyone happy; it was a lovely evening, and got home around 11:45pm.
OMG IT’S FRIDAY! So yeah it’s now Friday, and my Nanny Lylie came up for a chat and a coffee which was very nice. I also got an email regarding my workplace and job position, got my dates for training and shifts after that, looks like my contract got extended to January 2021 which is great and the days I can’t complain about, maybe the week back, training from Monday to Thursday and then doing shifts on the weekend, it’s going to be tiring. Later on I took myself down to The Shakespeare’s Head for a drink, it was alright but it’s not the same as those Thursday nights.
Then it was Saturday, and my mum and I looked after my second to youngest niece Poppy for a couple of hours and she was as good as gold, my older brother, his partner and my youngest niece came down for a hour afterwards which was nice too. In the evening I went for a walk, walked around Angel, Essex Road, City Road and Old Street, and just before I got to Old Street it started to rain, and I got drenched, as drenched as I would be on a water ride at a theme park, could you imagine if the party wasn’t moved forward and was still on Saturday? The weather would’ve ruined everything, so I got home absolutely soaked from the rain.
Finally on Sunday it was the first nothing day in 3 or 4 weeks, I think. My older sister came in for a bit since her house was getting something done to it, can’t remember what it was, and at one point one of our neighbours came in for a coffee, and yeah that was Sunday.
So that was blog number 13, good week, some old faces and new faces, reunions, good times, positive vibes all around. The next blog is going to be interesting, Monday to Thursday will be the last paragraphs as 23 years old, while Friday to Sunday will be the first paragraphs as 24 years old, which makes this blog my last whole blog as a 23 year old, the end of an era right here. The next blog will also be my last before I go back to work so that should be very interesting, I’ll see you all then, have a great week.”
July 13th to July 19th
“This I believe is 12, blog number 12, so that means I’ve been doing this for 3 months, wow, a quarter of a year I have spent doing these blogs and I’m still doing it now, it’s crazy how fast time goes, and this is just an example, and seeing the world when this all started to the world now is like night and day, and you lot still want to read it, you are all full of surprises but I am grateful for it. Now let’s get onto my week.
Monday, my parents and I woke up early to go to Chichester, before we went we said bye to one of our neighbours, a mother and a boy we got to know during this time are going back home to China, and the child we all fell in love with, he called me Uncle Bill, my brother Uncle Frankie, my dad Grandad Gary and my mum Nanny Tina, he also loves Fireman Sam and Peppa Pig which always has him staying at ours watching it on our telly, and for a 2 year old he is so smart, speaking both Chinese and English, saying big words too, he has such a bright future ahead of him, I had a cuddle with him, mum started tearing up, so did dad, his mum started tearing up too, goodbyes are just horrible aren’t they, you know that you’ve made friends for life and you’ll keep in touch, but you don’t know if you’ll see them again but you hope you do, goodbyes never get easier, I was so glad to have met them during this time. We then drove down to Chichester, picked up some shopping for any food, drinks or snacks to have in our lodge and then we made our way to the holiday park where our lodge was. Once we checked in we sat out on the decking of the clubhouse and had a drink, the setting was perfect with the sun shining and us seated by a lake. After that we went to our lodge and began unpacking, then I began seeing messages from my work colleagues, work colleagues who just like me, are zero hour contract workers, and some of them received emails, saying they’ve been let go, or let go for now, and I was confused by this because I would’ve never expected to see zero hour contract workers to be let go during these times, and then I received an email, and it was a contract, a contract which would have me working two fixed days, overtime available as and when needed from August to October, I knew I was wanted for this as I was having conversations about it beforehand but seeing that contract in my email, it was such a relief, if they let me go, that would’ve broke me, seriously; it was one of those scenarios where I had to sit back, close my eyes, take a deep breath and count my blessings, because that could’ve been me being one of the people getting let go. After that we went out for dinner, I chose the place and it was part of the deal between my mum and I, you choose it you’re paying for it, quite the bargain if I say so myself, and it was a Mexican themed restaurant called Muchos Nachos, it looked like an old fashioned pub but filled with Mexican culture inside and out, and there was two big reasons why we went there, one was because of the buy one get one free deal on Mondays, and the other was the ribs, and my family and I love ribs it’s well documented how much my family and I love ribs; and then we found out the online menu was outdated and the ribs aren’t a part of the menu anymore, WONDERFUL! The food was lovely and filling nonetheless and the service was great, plus the portions for the mains were much bigger than I expected I couldn’t finish them, and my mum said the burger was the best burger she’s ever had, so this one burger in Muchos Nachos in Chichester is better than a burger in McDonalds, Burger King, Five Guys, Wetherspoons, TGI Fridays, Wendy’s, Garfunkel’s and any other place in the world that does burgers, I mean I didn’t have the burger so I can’t say so but that’s quite the statement, and paying for a meal that my family enjoyed really made me feel good, brought me joy, and that was our day, nice start to our holiday.
Tuesday next, of course, and my parents and I took a drive down to Haling Island, which believe or not, you can get a little view of Portsmouth from, and there was a little track for a train that’s mostly used on a few days a week and school holidays which was cool to see, and we then took a walk down to a funfair which on the outside looked small but on the inside looked massive, and is great for the kids; originally my older brother, his partner and his two daughters (also my two youngest nieces) were meant to come down but my brother couldn’t get the time off work so they couldn’t come, and I kept constantly saying at everything that was there, even the donuts we had I kept saying “imagining the kids here, they would’ve loved it, could’ve been here the whole day.” Then we found this pub which I believe was called The Ship Inn which is a nice pub near the sea where the three of us had a drink, and we then went to Harvester which was an idea of mine because we just want our ribs, is it that hard to ask for? One Harvester we went to had to cancel our booking because their oven broke, we then had to drive to another one which couldn’t take anymore bookings due to the number of tables they had to have during these times, and there was no way we were going to drive back down to near or at Portsmouth after all that so we went back to the holiday park where we had a nice filling meal in the clubhouse; after that we were all feeling tired so we decided to head back to our lodge and call it an early night.
We’re on Wednesday now because where else can we go, and today started off with another idea of mine, going into town, we all didn’t know what to expect but it turned out to be around an hour and a half or two walking around and exploring, the town centre was stacked with stores of well known brands that we knew about and others, and Greggs, can’t forget Greggs, as soon as I saw Greggs I walked right in, no saying what I was doing or anything just walked in, and came out with a piece of Pepperoni Pizza and a drink, we also had coffee at a nice nearby cafe, I also went into Lush and got two bath bombs, and got myself some Funko Pop vinyls figures from The Entertainer. After that we went back to the lodge to relax for a few hours and then we went back for another attempt at Harvester, was there going to be a problem with the oven? Would our booking be cancelled in anyway? We then arrived, expecting anything to happen and we got in, and we got our ribs, WE FINALLY GOT THEM, DESTINY HAS ARRIVED, THE PROPHECY HAS BEEN FULFILLED, TODAY IS A GOOD DAY!!!!! I do have to admit that first getting in there and sitting down did feel bittersweet, we were at a good restaurant with good food but the last time I was at a Harvester it was August 2014, myself, my mum and my Uncle Jimmy went to one after he moved to Brighton, and this was before he passed away nearly a year later, so I was thinking of him quite a bit when we were there. While eating, and this day somehow gets better, I hear my dad say something, I can’t clearly remember what it was but it was either “AH!” or “NO!” And my mum and I look up to see my older brother, his partner and my two nieces right next to us, they’ve only gone and surprised us, and my brother revealed that he was able to take Thursday off so they were going to be staying the night with us, so this was wonderful. After this we went back to the clubhouse for a bit where my brother and mum played some bingo, we all had a drink or two and then went back to the lodge to have a late night snack and call it a night, easy to say that Wednesday was my favourite day of the holiday.
Here we are on Thursday, began with myself, my dad, my brother’s partner, and my two nieces going out to feed the geese, there’s around 50 or 60 geese staying at the holiday park and all they do is walk around and eat whatever they can find, and it got to the point where I had all the geese following me, and then chase me, it was an experience which I believe is the best way to put it. After that myself, my brother and my dad took a drive to Tesco’s to buy some bits, do I remember what they were? Nope. Do I know why we went to get some bits? Nope. Just me being Third Wheel Bill. Later on myself and my brother took my nieces to the swimming pool, we had to book a time slot and get our temperatures tested which I didn’t mind, and it was nice to finally have a swim in a pool on a hot sunny day, it wasn’t Ayia Napa or Turkey but I’d take it, we were in there for an hour and obviously I caught the sun, I always have the idea of a nice day being that I probably don’t need sun cream, and then it turns out I should’ve got it, make that mistake every time. After that we went back to the lodge to chill for a bit, making an order and collecting KFC, while my mum put a Sainsbury’s pizza in the oven so we had a pick and mix, it was really nice. A while after that my brother, his partner and my nieces left and made their way home, and it was just my parents and I again, and we were already tired so we spent the rest of our time relaxing until it was time to sleep.
Then it was Friday and we just got up, had a cup of tea, brushed our teeth, got dressed and went home. After we got home, I signed and sent off my new contract for work and then went to meet Jack, it was the last time I saw him before he went to his dad’s and he’s staying at his dad’s for a couple of weeks, so he treated the both of us to a kebab meal from German Doner Kebab since he won’t be there for my birthday, we ate our meals at the park opposite Sadler’s Wells, and I decided to treat Jack and I to drinks at a pub nearby, I always have the logic of if someone treats me, I should treat them back, it just makes sense, and we got our table, treated him and I to a shot and a drink and we called it a day, nice last meet-up for a while. Once I got home I began looking after my nephew since his parents (my sister and brother in law) went out, and we made cookies with my mum out of cookie dough I ordered online, Gookie Dough, I highly recommend it, it’s cookie dough that you can do anything with, you can eat it raw, you can microwave it, you can bake it, absolutely anything, and the cookies were lovely, Triple Chocolate Fudge flavoured. After that him and I sat upstairs, watched a film together, and then he played Fortnite while I kept an eye on him. Overall it was a lovely day.
Now it’s Saturday, and I began by playing on the PlayStation for a bit, and then I went to see my neighbours, it was their son’s fifth birthday, and at one point I took my nephew down to a bouncy castle that was set up, and I ate plenty of food, especially the Goat Curry YUM, and it got to the point where, I didn’t know what else to do, I couldn’t talk to the people at the party I knew because they were either all occupied doing their own thing or they were somewhere, and I was just there, Third Wheel Bill strikes again, I just decided to go back home, I then ended my night watching a wrestling pay per view so that was a nice way to end my day.
Finally it’s Sunday, cor I bet you’re all glad, you’re finally near the end of my endless writing, I never thought we’d get here. I went down to Hatch End to see the same friend I saw last Sunday. It was the first time I used the tube since lockdown started and I didn’t know what to expect, I took the Northern Line to Euston which was the most relaxed I ever felt on the Northern Line, with all the space and seats available, I was loving it; I then took the Overground to Hatch End and walked 4 minutes to the pub on my right hand side. We had a few drinks and a nice chat, and we then went to her house where I met her mum, aunt and her dog Milo, oh Milo, where do I start, he’s a small smart handsome good boy, three months old and he is just so good at that young, and loves being picked up for cuddles, he’s like a baby except he can run on all fours. We all sat in the garden and had a few drinks, I even held Milo as he slept in my arms for around half an hour, he really is like a baby. My friend’s mum ended up cooking us dinner which was lovely, had a chat for another hour, and my friend’s aunt dropped me off at the station, didn’t get home until past midnight and ended my night watching another wrestling pay per view. Since then I’ve been looking back on this day, mostly because of Milo, but also because my friend’s mum said to me at one point “you look like someone who has plenty of stories,” which is incredibly true, give me a word or topic and I can give you a story regarding that word or topic, or you can just read my blogs on here, there’s 12 of them and depending on what happens with the world, there’ll be plenty more where that came from.
That was my week, another good week with positive feelings and moments. I was talking to Ms. Vidal through email last week and she said this could be my last one seeing that everyone is breaking up from school now, but seeing that I’ve got loads of people outside of The Courtyard reading the blog every week, I’ll be more than happy to continue it, it constantly gives me something to look forward to and plus we don’t know how long this will last, it could end, and then we could get another spike, oh no, and then a second wave, OH NO, and then you could be getting months more with me, OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH NNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But let’s hope for the best. Next week should be good too, as I’m writing this Monday is already sorted, Tuesday should be good, the Hawaiian themed party got moved to Wednesday due to weather and the rest of the week is a mystery, see you then guys, have a great week.”
July 6th -12th July
“So this is blog number 11, interesting fact with the number 11, I was in a documentary called I Am Eleven which is a documentary about 11 year olds, and year 11 was probably the most annoying school year of my life, my oldest nephew is turning 11 soon, it’s been nearly 11 years since I got into my first and believe it or not only relationship, what do all these have in common? The number 11, does this make sense? I don’t think so. Why did I put all of this down? I have no idea. To begin, this was a productive week, had something to do every day, every day felt different, I have to say this week was a very good week and one of the quickest since this pandemic got big in this country, Monday honestly felt like yesterday, so let’s get to it, should be fun, it’s 3:30am, I need to be up in the morning to go to Chichester, my sleeping pattern is nonexistent, my happiness is for some reason at an all time high and I’m a good boy.
Let’s start with Monday because who on earth would start on Tuesday. Monday was a very relaxed day, and the only thing I really did on this day was go for a walk, what made this walk different than the others was that this was in the evening and I took a different route. I walked past Barbican, and then past St. Paul’s, then across the Millennium Bridge to Bankside; I also took a little walk across the Bankside Beach which I would only recommend if you wore hard shoes, it’s all full of stones. My favourite part of this was seeing how the sunset looked over St. Paul’s Cathedral, it was majestic. Overall this was a lovely walk, though I wouldn’t recommend listening to anything scary while you’re walking alone at night, at the time I thought it was a good idea to listen to nuclear attack warnings, now why did I do that? I have no idea, I guess it was the crave for an adrenaline rush, and the worst part about listening to things like that is that you’d imagine yourself in that scenario and what you would do, honestly it is scary to think about, but seeing how 2020 has been so far I wouldn’t be surprised if we got one for absolutely no reason, remember when people said 2016 was the worst year ever? Good times.
Next is Tuesday, obviously, and I met up with Jack. We decided to go to a cafe up Chapel Market, that’s so weird to say, we went to a cafe, we actually went to a cafe, what is going on? We stood at the doorway for a few seconds, requested for a table for two, sat down, had our menus given to us, placed our order, received our order, ate it, paid for it, and that’s that, I really did appreciate how well the cafe handled things, we even had to add sauces and salt to our order which I was absolutely fine with, plus it’s more safer, also if you see in the picture below I have a big appetite, and I love my food. After this Jack and I went for a walk up to Essex Road and that was it, lovely meet up. In the evening I spent half an hour working out with the dumbbells, it was a good workout. Also I found out on this day that Elton John postponed his UK tour dates by a year so my mates and I have gone from waiting 5 months for it, to 1 year and 4 months, 2020 has been a right muppet.
We move onto Wednesday, and I went for a walk, I got to be honest I don’t remember where I went, I presume it was the usual locations. During the evening I actually did this yoga exercise routine that helps you either sleep or feel sleepy, it’s only 7 minutes and it’s very relaxing, after doing it I felt like dozing off on the floor, with no pillows, no covers, just me on a wooden floor, if you want to feel tired I highly recommend it, link is below.
Next is Thursday, clearly, and you know how we start our Thursdays, a Google Meets Video Call with Ms. Vidal, can’t start Thursdays any better than that, and it was one of my favourite chats that we’ve had since we started doing the video calls, we were talking about old memories, old faces, saying nice things about each other, it was a very wholesome conversation, and Ms. Vidal, she has this energy about her that’s wonderfully contagious and you just can’t get enough of it, I said that to her in the conversation, everything I say won’t be enough to describe how incredible she is. Afterwards I decided to go for a jog, I was actually up all night and I struggled getting to sleep so I thought a jog would help; on this jog I bumped into one of my old managers from one of my previous jobs and we had a nice little catchup, I then bumped into a very good family friend who I haven’t seen in months, my brother was very close to her eldest son back in school and I’ve always had a close bond with her youngest son, and it was really nice to see another familiar face, and we spoke for what must’ve been 10 minutes, and it was a lovely 10 minutes, she’s one of my favourite people to talk to and this conversation was a very fine example. Went home to have a few hours of sleep, and then, and it became one thing after another; to begin I was supposed to be seeing my cousin the following day but that had to be cancelled because she had to cover a work colleague that wasn’t feeling well, it’s a shame but these things happen, got a really nice write up planned for her too eventually, she’s one of the reasons why I am who I am today, and she has been an inspiration to me; so after this my mum and I went to get McDonalds, she said the one in City Road began accepting takeaways, so she placed the order on the McDonalds app on her phone, we left the house to make our way there, and the question to me remained, did they actually accept takeaways? Of course they didn’t, still only drive through, and I then realised that the walk there and back home was 15 to 20 minutes of my life that I was never going to get back, thanks Mum; so afterwards, yep it gets worse, she places the order on UberEats, we receive the order, and guess what, I didn’t get my Strawberry Milkshake, I ended up with a Coca Cola instead, yeah I love my milkshakes, receiving a Coca Cola instead broke me as a human being. Wow what a great way to end Thursday, still a decent day though.
It’s Friday now, and seeing that I now had no plans, I decided to drop off some stuff to Jack, it was a tripod and a dolly track, it’s film stuff basically, so before this pandemic really kicked in Jack and I were in the middle of a filmed production I’ve written and we would normally keep the tripod and dolly track in my bedroom to save him constantly taking it back to his and then up to mine; I went in his house for the first time in months and had a nice chat with his mum, afterwards we went into his garden to set up the dolly track, the tripod and his new camera to test it all out, since this pandemic started he has been constantly getting new equipment for his upcoming projects, he hasn’t been messing about and I couldn’t blame him; setting everything up really brought me back to when we were always on set, and we would set everything up together, feels like so long ago but this was a really nice throwback. Once I got home my Nanny Lylie came over, we all had coffee and had a lovely chat and laugh. I also found out on this day that I’ll be going back to work in early August, a few days after my birthday so I’m really looking forward to that, this was a really good day.
We now head to Saturday, started it off with 40 Squats, lovely jubbly. Then I went to see a friend of mine, who I mentioned 3 or 4 weeks ago, met her through one of my drama classes, and her neighbour came over; I saw them again for her neighbour’s birthday, had plenty of drinks, lots of food, the chicken and ribs were amazing by the way, and also some of our friends from the Anna Scher’s class came up too, which was lovely because I haven’t seen some of them since February or March, and looking at some of the photos taken, wow we’re all very attractive people. Overall it was a lovely time, was so nice to see these familiar faces, and new ones too.
Now it’s Sunday, every week’s grand finale, how did I spend the last day of the week, with another familiar face, it keeps getting better and better. We only made plans the previous morning and here we were seeing each other for the first time since February or March. We met at The White Swan at Highbury and must’ve spent around 5 or 6 hours there, we had a few drinks, looking back at it, it definitely wasn’t a few, we had plenty to eat, and we had a right laugh. We met through the HNC in Performing Arts course nearly two years ago, she joined the course a few weeks after I did and since then we’ve gotten really close, gone to plenty of pubs and clubs, had a couple of parties, shot a comedic sketch, gone to the Notting Hill Carnival together, and we were supposed to be in Ayia Napa together with a few of our friends two months ago, which didn’t happen because of what’s going on in the world, and she’s the host of the Hawaiian themed party that I mentioned in a previous blog which I can’t wait for; she’s one of the best friends I’ve made in the course and I’m just so glad to have met her. This was a wonderful way to end the week.
This was a great week, one of my favourites during this time, and one of my favourites to write about. It is nice to see things slowly go back to normal, more places are opening at the end of the month so hopefully that’ll be alright, I watched a wresting show this week that took place in Japan, it was really nice to see people in attendance, nice to see some normality in another part of the world. The next blog will be a much different one, from Monday to Friday I will be in Chichester with my mum and dad so it’s going to be nice to get away for a bit, change of scenery and I’ll see you all then, and don’t forget guys, keep safe, we’ve made progress but we’re not done yet, let’s keep on being safe and clean and we’ll get there eventually.”
Billy's recommendation to a nice workout that’ll help with sleeping, please click on the link to watch it.
June 29th - 5th July
“So here we are, the big number, the two digits, that number every kid looks forward to in age, a number used as a decade, we have arrived to blog number 10, how did we get here? I have no idea, maybe 10 weeks of patience, waiting, frustration, sadness, optimism, skepticism and an article in the Islington Gazette, quite the ride if I say so myself, so what happened to me this week? Especially with the likes of restaurants and pubs opening, let’s get to it.
Started off this week, which is Monday if some of you don’t know, and Jack and I met up and got lunch at Chipotle, first time either of us have had it and we were both satisfied, besides the pigeons nearby, which was very distracting; I also saw his mum for the first time in around 4 or 5 months, spoke about how we’ve been coping with lockdown, through this small conversation I realised how use I’ve gotten to lockdown, how I’ve gotten use to having little to nothing planned, and nearly all of my hobbies and interests stopped during the time, I never thought I’d ever get use to it, but somehow I have, that’s a lot to sink it. Jack and I afterwards went for a walk and had a nice chat, overall it was a really good meet-up. Afterwards I decided to take a walk, went from his around Essex Road, to around Upper Street, to near Liverpool Road, to Angel. While on my way home, I bumped into one of my drama teachers which was a great surprise, we had a lovely chat and hopefully class will be looking to open in the next few weeks which is going to be something to really look forward to, miss my classes on Thursday evenings and drinks at The Shakespeares Head afterwards. To end my Monday myself and two of my friends had a video chat on Houseparty, which was a laugh, what I couldn’t believe is that we were talking all night and it just flew by, looking forward to the Hawaiian themed party in a few weeks. So that was my Monday, one of the most productive days I had all week.
Onto Tuesday, and I just went for a jog, decided to do some exercising, went jogging through Upper Street, Essex Road, Barbican and Old Street, I didn’t jog the entire time because it just wouldn’t end well for me, but it was well needed and I felt good afterwards.
Next up is Wednesday, of course it is, and I just went for a walk, bad weather for it too which wasn’t very nice, went around Angel, Upper Street, Exmouth Market, Farringdon and Holborn, thought to keep the exercise up but without overdoing it. Also on this day I found out that my workplace will be opening in the next few weeks, happy days ahead and I can’t wait. Mum and I together booked tickets to see 1917 at the new Odeon at Upper Street in two weeks, can’t wait to go back to the cinema, I’m going to be there nonstop. Also I had a face mask delivered today, would obviously keep me safe but will also help with social distancing.
Now we head to Thursday, you all know what this means, it’s a Google Meets video chat with Ms. Vidal, YAY YOU KNOW YOU LOVE IT, and it was another nice chat, and it was her birthday, 35 but looking 25, great stuff, and I now realise that when we first met, I was 17 and she was 28, nearly 7 years ago, where does it go, wow, blows my mind. Later on I went for a jog, around the same locations as Tuesday, get the exercise in.
Looks like we are on Friday, and the only thing I did Friday was that I spent half an hour working out using the dumbbells, in my brother and I’s room under our bunk bed we have a dumbbell set which we don’t use often, and it felt good to use it, plus it made a change to the recent exercising I was doing. Also on this day, I can’t forget, the Islington Gazette article about me was published in the paper, felt so weird seeing myself and Ms. Vidal in the paper, in an article that took up half a page, and the buzz from the previous weekend continued, it’s all still sinking in, and knowing that I’m giving people hope, it feels really good, and this day was another reminder of it, and the project coming up is going to help even more people and give even more people hope, crazy how someone like me can do that, well I guess miracles can happen.
Here we are on Saturday, the most anticipated Saturday of the year, forget Halloween and Boxing Day which are both are Saturdays this year, this is the biggest Saturday of the year, IT’S SUPER SATURDAY!!!!! Started it off with my dad and I going to the hairdressers, but of course we had to make a stop at the betting shop first, 15 to 20 minutes of my life I’m never getting back, and then we went to the hairdressers, got my haircut, my beard tidied up and I came out looking and feeling good and fresh, shame about the beard and hair though, 3 and a half months of time, patience and progress gone in 20 minutes. I went home for a nap and then afterwards went to The Corner Bar, formally known as the The Bull’s Head, and met my dad and his mates in there, it felt so weird being back inside a pub, was a lot to take it, but it was good to be back, even if there is a glass in the middle of the table for protection though there is a metre distance between one side and the other on this table, logic; I had a few drinks and I called it a day, it felt surreal to be back, it didn’t feel real, but it also felt good, I think you get the point, I felt good this week. Today was also an end to the series I’ve been watching, I finished watching Breaking Bad which is weird to say, I actually finished a 5 season show, so what now? There’s the spinoff Better Call Saul, if you need a good lawyer, you better call Saul, a mate of mine has been wanting me to watch the second season of Cobra Kai for over a year which I kept forgetting about, and my brother in law wants me to watch Game of Thrones, for now I’m going to watch El Camino: A Breaking Bad Movie, need to see how Jesse ends up in the end; mum and I watched and finished Season 2 of Save Me, now we play the waiting game of if Lennie James moves forward with a third season. Also my dad came home 2 or so hours after me, barely ate dinner, fell asleep and didn’t remember much when he woke up the next day, just had to throw that in there, HI DAD! Also did I exercise on this day? You bet I did, 30 sit-ups and 30 pushups like a good boy.
Now it’s Sunday, and I spent the day chilling and went for a jog in the evening, jogged around Exmouth Market, Farringdon and Barbican, also at one point I went past a pub, and another time past a restaurant, I forgot that pubs and restaurants were open, it felt weird seeing people inside but it also felt good.
That was my week, a little repetitive but it was good overall. Before I go I have to say again, I won’t make it as long as the last one but thank you to those with their continued messages of support and congrats from last week it really means a lot, and another to those I don’t know who are reading the blog every week. Also, and I do want to say this because of this pandemic, we don’t know what’s going to happen next, let’s be honest, either more things are going to be going back to normal or we’ll be getting a second wave and going back into lockdown, or we could be getting a second wave and continue life as if nothing is going on like the United States, you seen what’s been going on with COVID-19 over there? It’s like an ongoing blazing fire while everyone else stands there with a smile and a single tear drop; honestly I’m expecting anything at this point, if we eventually do get a second wave and do go into lockdown again, then let’s make the most of what we’re doing now, and we’ve handled lockdown before we could do it again with ease, if we don’t then I’m glad that we’re one step forward with normality and another step towards things being back to normal. Let’s continue to keep safe, keep wearing masks and gloves and keep clean, it’s not over yet, so let’s keep making that progress towards the end, towards the day where there are no more cases and no more deaths, let’s keep it up, we’ve got this far, let’s go further, I’ll see you all next week.”
June 22nd- 28th June
“Believe it or not I almost forgot I even had to do a blog, I can’t believe it myself, my 9th entry into this series and I almost forgot to do one, unbelievable. As of right now it is 5:30am, I’ve been up all night, and here I am writing this blog and hoping to do a good write up before I only get a few hours sleep, meeting Jack in the afternoon so that should be nice, meeting a friend, having something to eat, and then I can go home and have a few more hours of sleep, I see this as an absolute win. Besides a couple of things, especially Saturday, I’m sure some of you already know, this week wasn’t the busiest, there’s a good chance that out of all 9 weeks I’ve been doing this blog that this was probably my least busiest week; I spent 80 to 90 percent of my time indoors or around my estate, anyways here we go, here’s my week.
Monday, we’ve all got to start off anything with something big right? That’s not always the case as I did nothing on this day, off to a good start, although I did get invited to a Hawaiian themed party my friend is hosting next month so that’s exciting. let’s follow this up with Tuesday.
Here’s Tuesday, did I do something Tuesday? Nope. Nothing, two days of doing nothing, this is a very fine start ain’t it ladies and gentleman, jolly good show.
So now it’s Wednesday, and oh wow, I actually did something, and the crowd goes wild, or mild depending on how you feel. On this day I met up with Jack, you remember Jack? I’m sure you do, if you don’t, you do now. We met at Upper Street, got Five Guys for lunch, first time I had Five Guys in around a year and a half. We went to a park nearby, a quiet park, don’t want a bunch of people watching us eat especially in this weather. We ate it, and it was amazing, I would go into it but I’d be talking about a burger more than anything in this blog. Afterwards we went to another park near his house, both had a drink and continued talking, kind of a struggle to keep up because of the warmth of the sun. Afterwards we said bye, I walk home, arrive home, and I could’ve crashed onto a mattress I was exhausted, plus my skin is very pale so I could feel on my face that I definitely caught the sun, I was out for nearly 2 hours and just like that, caught the sun.
Here comes Thursday, and I started off the day chatting to Ms. Vidal over the phone, perfect way to start the day if I say so myself, nearly 7 years ago we first meet at The Courtyard on my first day shaking each other’s hands, the last lesson that day was with her too, nearly 7 years later we’re having a chat and a laugh over the phone, blows my mind, we spoke about what we’ve been up to, anything we’ve watched that we would recommend, family, the usual stuff, the good stuff; she also spoke to me more about what’s coming up, this project, that’s all I’m going to say for now, in case it’s too soon to reveal anything, it did have me scratching my head, looking back I feel it’s because of how I process information, like if there’s something I need to know or something I need to do, I need to know all of it right away, and know everything I need to do, not one thing, and then I do the thing and then get told to do another thing because it’s like “woah what’s this about?” That’s a part of my Autism, a little something you’ve all just learned about me; I’ll give you an example of this, I’ll go back two years ago around this time, I got on a train from Milton Keynes after watching a wrestling show, I was supposed to see a friend who was hosting a bbq, she called it a night early because she wasn’t feeling well, so another friend who I had plans with that same night, I told him I could meet him now, he tells me to get to Manor House Station, so I get off at Euston Station, then I go to Manor House Station from there, call him and tell him I’m there, he then tells me to get onto the 341 to get off at this stop and head into a place where another friend was working, and this annoyed me because I’ve done this, now you want me to do this, I was even under the assumption that one of my friends was going to meet me outside the station, luckily, since it was the first time they’ve all seen me since I went on holiday, they all embraced me with big hugs, so I let my annoyance slide, remember that people, if I’m annoyed give me a big hug that should do the trick. Back to present day, after the phone call I spent the next hour outside my door, getting some air, it was cooler outside than inside which is mad how that works, after that I went back inside, and had a nap for a few hours. After waking up, I spent two and a half hours on my balcony, not the one I mentioned a couple of weeks ago by the living room, this one was right by my brother and I’s bedroom, a shared balcony with my neighbours, quite exciting ain’t it? So I went onto the balcony, had a little chat with one of my neighbour’s before she went back to continue her work, well that’s what she said when she went to speak to another one of our neighbours, ok then; it did feel nice, being out on that balcony, by myself, with a few drinks by my side, in the sun, it was much cooler on the balcony than it was outside and even inside my house, I could’ve spent the rest of my day out there.
Now we’re onto Friday, I’m sure we’ll all be excited for a Friday but we’re in a pandemic so that’s killjoy. My Nanny Lylie came over, the both of us, my mum and my sister sat outside with glasses of Pimm’s and had a nice chat, it was a good two or three hours, can’t remember how long it was but it doesn’t matter, it was good.
Here we are on Saturday, Saturday started big, I really do mean big, I get an email from Ms. Vidal, and she sends me a link, now she spoke to me about this last week, which I didn’t mention, and here it was, it was an article, about me, and this blog, in the Islington Gazette, I couldn’t believe what I was seeing and reading, it was me, it was Ms. Vidal, it was this, and now more people are going to know about it, and I can help more people, it was mind blowing. I shared the article on my Facebook and my Instagram, the numbers coming up and how frequently my phone was going off was a rare sight, something that I rarely see, numbers I rarely see, it actually hit me, that I helped people, and still do, I’ve inspired people, me; I’m just your everyday young man on the spectrum and I’ve helped and inspired people, I even had one friend open up about himself being on the spectrum, which neither I or the friends we had knew about, and that hit me too, and made me think “I’ve helped people open up, I’ve made an impact, what’s going on?” It’s something that I couldn’t believe, and regarding the project I mentioned earlier, it all made me realise that if I can inspire, help and encourage people to open up, imagine how many more I can do these things for, and this project will give me the chance to do that; I do have callings in life, goals I want to achieve, a full time career as an actor, good luck to me because the competition is tough, a husband which at this point in my life is looking impossible because my love life is terrible, ask all the women in my life I don’t have a chance, I also would love to be a father which is even more impossible, the kid or kids can have any gene they want just not my hair, any gene of mine but my hair; and then there’s me helping, inspiring and impacting people like I’ve done with this blog and the article, if I can help, inspire and impact these people and more, and it can always make me feel this good, then I have no problem about this being another goal in my life. Next on this Saturday, wait you thought this Saturday was over? Yeah me too but there’s a bit more. I went for a walk to South Bank, last time I went it was a week or two before I started this blog, the weather was lovely but it all looked like a ghost town, on this day it was the opposite, the weather was dull but there were people about, it’s just really nice to see some normality around.
Finally it was Sunday, and how did I end the week? With nothing, yep nothing, after all that nothing, don’t expect anything here.
So that was my week, besides the stuff I’ve done, I’ve continued watching Breaking Bad, over half way through the fifth and final season, nearly there and it’s all kicking off, I’ve began watching Save Me again, this time on a dvd boxset I ordered, because my mum thought it looked really good, and she loves Suranne Jones, already finished the first season so I’m looking forward to seeing my mum’s reaction to the second season; my dad has been watching too, kind of, he’s either dozing off, or focusing on his bets, or asking questions to things that have already happened, well done dad keep it up. That’s been it really, can’t think of anything else, wanted to continue reading The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes but I kept forgetting, will make sure to read some this week, want to continue exercising too but I keep either forgetting or I’m occupied with something else. It’s going to be an interesting week especially July 4th, hairdressers, pubs, restaurants, anything else I can’t think of opening, I don’t remember the last time I’ve looked forward to a Saturday so much, I’m already looking forward to writing about it in my next blog. Before I finish, I want to say, especially to those that have been reading the blogs so far, and have seen the article about it, I want to say thank you again for your support and your kind words, it really means a lot, it is hard to express how I feel but if I had to use words it’ll be thankful, wholesome, grateful, and it’s another reminder to me of all the people in my life, friends, family, teachers, people that know me because of people that they know or anyone else, I am so lucky to have all of you, I need to keep reminder myself of that even in the worst of times, and to those I don’t know, I am so lucky to have you as a reader and for you to know me through this, I don’t know how many more of these there will be before everything is back to normal, but this journey so far has been fun and I’m looking forward to seeing where this journey takes us next. Thank you for reading, have a great week, especially this weekend and I’ll see you in the next one, the big number 10.”
If you haven't read the article yet on Islington Gazette, click on the link below:
June 15th- 19th June
“Blog 8, I believe it is 8, if it is, then I’ve been doing these blogs for 2 months straight, unbelievable, it all just flies by, and here we are, now, for this blog, it’s not the most eventful, I didn’t have the most busy week, though I’ve still been watching Breaking Bad and currently towards the end of Season 4 as I’m writing this, a certain topic did come up this week that I will speak about towards the end, even the least serious person can talk serious.
Monday, of course, and I went for a walk for around 2 and a half hours, going around Angel, Upper Street, Essex Road, Old Street and near Liverpool Road, went out around 4:30pm and got home just after 7pm.
Tuesday happened, and that’s it, Tuesday happened, I don’t know what else to say besides that.
We get to Wednesday, most busiest day I had this week, I met up with my mate from the last two weeks, the same one I met to have something to eat and a chat, and to save confusion I may as well use his name, and I’m sure he wouldn’t mind, Jack, his name’s Jack, so Jack and I met at Angel and went to CHIK’N which I believe is new, like very new, I don’t even recall seeing it until lockdown started. So anyways him and I got that to eat, found a park nearby to eat it, sadly because of the weather we were eating in the rain and we couldn’t find any shelter nearby, besides that the food was nice, and they call themselves the best fried chicken restaurant in London, I can understand that argument. After that we took a walk to Essex Road where he lives and said bye. After that I walked down to King Square, where a wake was being held for a footballer and a friend to some of my family members, his name was James John Woolston, I don’t recall meeting him but I have heard very good things, and I wanted to come down and pay my respects; it was nice seeing family members that I haven’t seen in months, and family friends I haven’t seen in months too, it was a nice few hours, and a good turn out for a good man. I was thinking about death a lot during this half of the week, I don’t know why, I was thinking about those in and around my life and those outside of it that have gone, I thought of my mum’s best friend who we lost over a year ago who I thought of a lot on this day, I recall seeing her daughter who I told looks and sounds just like her, I thought of an actress who I had a good working relationship with in the classes we attended that passed away a few weeks before Christmas, I thought of a friend of mine who was loved dearly by myself and our friends who we all found out passed away, and I thought about the families who all lost loved ones the last 3 months. With death, it’s a reminder that we don’t get to choose our time, in a way death it’s what gives life meaning, we all know deep down that our days are numbered, our time is short, which is why we have to do as much as we can in that time, and I’ll always make sure to remember that.
So before we get to Thursday here’s what happened towards the end of Wednesday and through the early hours of Thursday. So I get home, crash, completely miss dinner, and didn’t wake up until midnight feeling rough, with a splitting headache, if you’re an adult you’ve probably guessed what this feeling is and how you could get it, and I spent the evening lying down, no sleep whatsoever the entire night. Now we get to Thursday, and it began with another Google Meets video call with Ms. Vidal, she wanted me to accompany her on her way to work, and seeing that I am a gentleman and absolutely love the women in my life, I thought why not, and then you realise that she’s speed walking her way from Regent’s Park to where she works which is right near Holloway and here I am, up all night because I got a headache which I easily could’ve prevented, just sitting there, great comparison. It was a nice conversation, a good and well needed laugh too, she makes me smile and laugh, every time. After the conversation she emailed me some good news, which I won’t spoil, yet, you’ll know it and it’s here. Also she sent me some documents regarding Autism, I can’t say what these documents will be for, or I don’t think I can say, I won’t say just to be safe, and then I saw how long some of these documents are, and realised that deep down, I’m still a student, I can never escape my past.
Anyways let’s move on to Friday for something wholesome as my Nanny Lylie came up, which was really nice, always lovely to see family you don’t see as much as you used to. Later on I went for a walk, went down to a lot of the same locations as Monday, except Old Street, did walk through Exmouth Market though, left the house at 5:15pm and didn’t get home until 7:30pm.
Now we get to Saturday, remember when Saturday was the one day to truly do anything we wanted to do and go to bed at anytime because we’d all either have school or work to go to on other days, or we had to go to bed at an appropriate time on a day off, yeah me too, now it’s nearly everyday and after a while I don’t like it. I just spent the day on the PlayStation and that was it, I also did 6 Rounds of 10 Push-ups so I got my exercise in.
Finally we’re on Sunday, I bet you’re all glad, and it was Father’s Day, and some of my siblings, their partners and spouses, and their kids came in to see my dad, and it was really nice having us all together.
And that was it, that was my week, but with my words and sentences I reckon I made the most of it. Now, time to get serious, I know I got serious earlier but here we are. Mentally I’ve been significantly better than I’ve been the last two or so weeks, and I thought I was doing well, until the 2nd half of this week came. Now as some of you may know, I love wrestling, it’s been one of my biggest interests for years, the characters, the story telling, the commentary, the fans, the moments, it’s like performing arts in a way, and myself and everyone else involved in or around or are a fan of wrestling saw the rise of a movement this week called #SpeakingOut, and this movement involved women and men coming out about their stories, experiences and accusations about people, mostly men in and around the industry, wrestlers, referees, commentators, interviewers, anyone behind the scenes, even fans; what hit me hard with this was that some of those accused are wrestlers I’ve seen up close, in venues like York Hall, Electric Ballroom and Alexandra Palace, some I’ve actually met, and the stories I heard and saw are shocking, heartbreaking, disappointing, and stories I don’t want to get into on here, I want to keep this as family friendly and appropriate as possible, but this is a reminder that not every work place is as good or as professional as people would think, and that there are people in and around our lives whether it’s friends, family, work colleagues, classmates, or people we know of that have something hiding behind a mask, skeletons hiding in their closets. All I hope for from this is that the industry itself becomes better and safer to be for all those involved. That’s this week’s blog guys, hope you enjoyed it and I’ll see you all next time. Take care.”
June 8th- 12th June
“What number is this 7? Is this blog number 7? I believe it is, if there’s one thing this pandemic has done to me it’s affected how my head processes anything to do with numbers, or maths, yeah best to say maths. We’re getting close to being 3 months into this lockdown, can we even call it a lockdown anymore? Honestly I have no idea, everything just has me so confused, my head hurts, I should lie down, but I have to write this blog, but it’s nearly quarter to 5 in the morning, THERE’S SO MUCH AND TOO MUCH!! The pandemic has affected us all in different ways and this is a very fine example, as fine as the wine I have indoors, wait I don’t even have wine, I don’t know, should I just get on with the blog? I say I should get on with the blog.
Monday, started off the week by shopping with my mum, got some good stuff, and that was it, expected more? Oh well at least I did something, moving on.
Tuesday, let’s see what happened on Tuesday, I met up with someone? WOW I NEVER SAW THAT COMING! So you know the friend I mentioned in the last blog that I met up with, went to the chicken shop, had a chat in the park, all that jazz, well we met up again on this day, I’m sure you didn’t see that coming, or maybe you did, who knows. So we met at Angel, and then we went to La Divina, got our pizzas, and sat in the park, on two benches, ate them and had a chat, interesting fact, we shot a short film in that same park over a year ago which was to help raise awareness for Autism, the link will be in the end of the blog. After this we took a walk to Essex Road, we got Tottenham Cakes from the bakery there, and that was it, plenty of calories consumed on this fine day.
We head to Wednesday now, and I went up to see another friend of mine at her house, we haven’t seen each other in well over 3 months, and we first met each other at the Anna Scher Theatre in 2015 and have been very close since, and have worked with each other on numerous occasions, including a project I’ve written that we were filming before lockdown came into play. We had a good catchup, ate some lunch, and one of her neighbours who is a good friend of ours came in too. It was all lovely, a good laugh and a really good day; with this day, and the day before, I felt a buzz, and a sense of hope, that normality is getting extremely close, we’re getting there, not long now hopefully.
Here we are on Thursday, and Ms. Vidal and I had another nice chat on Google Meets, always love our chats, and I love listening to her too, she could read me the entire Bible and I’ll just sit there and listen. She did ask me a few questions, won’t say what they are, but let’s just say that it’s going to help my CV and the only way I’m going from here is up, lovely stuff and well needed optimism for the future.
Friday now, HEY GUYS AND GIRLS WHO ARE 18 OR OVER READING THIS, HOW YOU DOING!?!? Do you guys remember those Fridays where you’re finished with everything for the week, you’re buzzing, and once you get home from college, university or work, you eat your dinner, you have your shower, you do your hair, put on something nice and meet your friends at the pub or club, from there you have a laugh, you meet some people, you probably find a love interest who 9 times out of 10 you end up forgetting about the next day and chances are you end up carrying one of your mates home, good times am I right? I remember those Fridays, they’re such a long way away. So Billy, how did you spend this Friday? Well I looked after my niece, little Poppy, 5 year old Poppy who loves us all dearly and also drives us all up the wall, which is how she ended up with us for the day, I didn’t mind obviously, one thing I love being besides an actor is an uncle, I’m an uncle to 5 and I’m already wondering when number 6 will come because I love babies. It was really nice, and it was clear that even at her age, she still loves her cuddles with her Uncle Bill Bill; another interesting fact, she was the one that gave me the nickname Bill Bill, and after she called me Bill Bill most people in my life followed, my mum, my brothers, my youngest nephew, my friends, my teachers, my coworkers, at this point you may as well put Bill Bill on my tombstone, or my urn depending on what my kids decide to do with me, GOOD OL’ BILLY WITH THIS DARK SENSE OF HUMOUR YOU LOVE IT! I mean you’ve got to, you have to.
Now it’s Saturday, REMEMBER WHEN SATURDAY MEANT SOMETHING INSTEAD OF FEELING LIKE THE SAME DAY EVERYDAY!?!? Moving on, this pandemic has affected me as a human being. So Saturday I just decided to go for a walk, I was quite surprised with how hot I felt; I took a walk to Angel, Upper Street, Essex Road, City Road, Old Street and Exmouth Market, it was a decent walk, got me out of the house and helped me get some exercise done, my family and I got McDonald’s for the first time since it closed in March, it was absolutely amazing.
Finally it’s Sunday, I bet you’re all glad, you’ve made it to the end, it’s nearly done, here’s your medal and your milkshake; and what did I do on this Sunday? Not much really, I mean did you expect me to meet with a mob of gangsters like the Krays and arrange our takeover of the nearest borough? Nope but a man can dream, a bit of reading, a bit of Netflix, looking after one of my neighbour’s children for an hour after he let himself in and ending it all with a wrestling pay per view, so yeah, that was my Sunday, it was alright.
So that was my week, now here’s an update on how I am after how personal I got with my previous blog. I am feeling better than I did last week, not perfect but definitely on the road there, I’ve had some chats with my mum, some time alone, still trying to spend less time on social media to try and stay away from any negative vibes, same with the news unless someone in the house decides to have it on you know who you are whoever is reading this; I’ve even had a little cry, which does help, you’ve got to get it out somehow, and crying does the trick most of the time, don’t let anyone tell you that crying is for babies or it’s immature, because crying helps heal some of if not all of the pain that you have, and it’s never good to keep it all in, because it’ll hurt, sometimes too much, so that’s this blog’s lesson for you lot. My self esteem isn’t affecting me like it was last week, it’s like a switch, sometimes it will sometimes it doesn’t it’s very irritating. I’ve continued reading The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes, believe it or not, Thursday night I read up to page 60, and Friday night I read up to page 73; I’m still watching Breaking Bad, currently on Season 3, it just keeps getting better, what a show; and I’m using garlic, because according to Ms. Vidal garlic helps with your hair, so that’s an experiment I’m trying for the time being. I hope you all didn’t mind my use of sarcasm and that little touch of dark humour, I’ve had a bit too much sugar in the last 24 hours so I’m bouncing all over the place, typing this blog has helped me calm down. Take care of each other, look out for each other, tell your loved ones friends or family you love them, because right now these are scary, sad, troubled and unpredictable times, and we don’t know what the endgame will be or when it’ll come, and it’s right now that we need to be there for each and support each other no matter what. See you in my next blog guys, hope you all enjoyed it, and check out the link attached along with a video I made after finishing this blog. See you next time."
June 1st - 7th June
“Another blog, here we are, I believe it’s blog number 6, I don’t even know anymore, my head is all over the place, especially after this week. There was something to do everyday, something happening, could it be described as eventful? Maybe. I am going to get personal at one point, possibly the most personal I have been with the blogs so far. Lets get to it.
Monday is obviously the first day of the week, unless you say Sunday is the first day of the week, fair argument for both reasons, but for Monday my Mum and I went down to see my Auntie Susie, there’s a part in the middle of the flats where she lives where there’s a lot of grass, benches around, a lot of space, great for everyone, and we sat out there under the hot sun. My cousin, her partner and their son came out which was nice to see, and my sister, brother in law and nephew came over which was a nice surprise, and we all got to meet a lot of my auntie’s neighbours, all lovely people, it was a really good day, easily one of if not the best day of this week.
Now I know what you’re thinking, Monday was most likely the best day, so the rest of the blog will probably not be as good, now come on guys, this is only the third paragraph. Next was Tuesday, and my mum and I met my mum’s friend who we saw, I believe in the 4th blog, I’m losing track of of all of these numbers, and we sat in her garden and had a chat, it was nice.
We now head to Wednesday, and for the first time since this pandemic started I have met up with a friend, we go back 11 years, to Stormont House School, and we’ve done a lot since then, I’ve been back in education twice and completing an apprenticeship while he went on to graduate from university, and now we collaborate on filmed projects under his direction, we’ve come a very long way, and I look forward to what we’ll do next. We met outside his local chicken shop, went to a nearby park, ate what we got and had a laugh for the next hour, it was lovely, I really missed what we use to do together, and we needed it this day and this time together.
Thursday now, and I had a Google Meets Video Call with Ms. Vidal, didn’t have one last week since it was half term, and it was lovely, and for about 30 or 35 minutes we had a really good catch up and spoke about numerous topics. Afterwards I went for a walk, and walked down to Holloway, since leaving City and Islington last year I rarely went to Holloway, and once I went down there I walked to where the building I use to study at was, and I just stood there, staring at it, how has it been nearly a year since I left? Coincidently, a year ago, we were rehearsing for our show, which was set in America in the 1920s and 30s, and based off numerous acting pieces written by some of the greatest theatre writers, and also contained various topics including racism, and you look a year later at what’s going on in America, and how I’m back at where I was studying at that moment, it’s quite symbolic, or is it poetic? I don’t know it’s one of those words, maybe both.
Friday now, remember when Friday was the day of the week where we finish school, college, university or work, and you are buzzing that you’re done for the week and ready for whatever Friday evening, or the weekend or both have in stored, is that the right saying? I don’t know I’m tired, but remember that feeling? I do too, good times, now I will proceed to grieve into the nearest pillow. On this day I just went for a walk, ended up walking to Angel, Highbury & Islington, Essex Road and Barbican, and if you’re interested I got the Ruby Flamingo Frappuccino from Starbucks, very nice.
Next was Saturday, and my older brother, his partner, and my two nieces came to see us which was a great surprise, and my Nan came up as well, another great surprise, two surprises in one day, what a bargain! In the evening I had a Houseparty video chat with a mate of mine, and it was a laugh, and we spoke until around 4am, which was much later than we both expected, but nevertheless it was a lot of fun.
Finally we are at Sunday, and I went for another walk, a really long one, maybe my longest one, there has been a lot on my mind this week no matter what I did this week, and walking it off has always been the best option for me to do, I walked to Angel, then I made my way to Hoxton, and then I went to Shoreditch, and ended up across London Bridge, left the house around 1:15pm, didn’t get home until before 6pm, if I didn’t have dinner, I probably would’ve spent the rest of the day walking, only problem was that I’d have to find my way home from who knows where.
So that was my week, when it comes to being busy I definitely was busy, definitely did something everyday, and there was something to look forward to nearly everyday, now this is where we get personal. This week has been a struggle for me mentally, and I’ve been trying to stay away from everything happening in the world as much as I could. This week, on Friday, was five years since my Uncle Jim passed away, which is something that still plays heavily on my mind especially that day, but I’ve been doing walks like he would do so I’m sure he would’ve loved to have seen me do what he would usually do. I’ve been spending less time on social media than usual, social media is powerful in many ways, right ways and wrong, and I’ve been seeing so much anger, rage, frustration, debates, arguments, judgement, any other negative word I can think of I’ve seen it, nearly any post, any story, any tweet, and this isn’t an offence to anyone because we all have a right to feel these negative thoughts and emotions during this time, and if you’re using social media as a way to express your feelings and help get it all out then that’s fine, you do you and I do me, the problem is that posts like that can be contagious, one angry post will begin to affect my mood, and then another, and another, and another, I’m seeing nothing else, or a tweet which has a ton of retweets and likes stating a fact or opinion that can easily put on a debate and frustrate a ton of people, with replies from people that come across the tweet or the person posting the tweet themselves and both can come across as very ignorant and arrogant but the way they’re worded, it’s just never nice to see and I was seeing a lot of these, it just got to the point where it became an overload; so I took a step back, and only came on social media if I got a message, or a notification; every now and then I’d come across some posts, especially memes, give some likes and that’d be it, there were even two days this week where I weren’t on social media at all, and I’d only really use my phone to play games or go on Netflix, been watching Breaking Bad, loving it so far. Group chats don’t help either, no offence lads and lassies, hope you’re all well and I miss you all and I want to hug everyone when everything is back to normal. Then away from the handheld devices and social media we have the television, with the news channels, and then the newspaper, we’re going classic and old school here ladies and gentlemen, but this one has still got it; you’ve just woke up from a nice 8 hour sleep, you feel fresh, you feel good, positive start, then you go downstairs, head right into the kitchen to make a coffee, and someone has only gone and left the newspaper by the kettle revealing a headline that makes you feel like absolutely rubbish, yeah thanks I really needed this, this definitely helped!! So I’ve been trying to stay away from the world as much as I can, which is easier said than done because there’s only so much I can handle before I do or say something that I’ll end up regretting right away. My self-esteem has been lower than usual too, especially with how I look, I would get into it but then we’d be here forever.
I know I went on and on, and I know there are more important things in the world to worry about then me talking about my feelings, but I want to use this platform, especially for those like me or younger than me, or those studying at The Courtyard to know that this 23 year old young man, on the spectrum can feel this way at times, and it’s ok, not every day is going to be good, not every week is going to be good, even a month, and in time things will get better, sometimes it takes long but we all get there eventually. Take care of yourselves, look after each other, be kind to one another, and most importantly, stay safe, I’ll see you in next weeks blog.”
May 25th - May 31st
"Not the busiest week this week, I think out of all the blogs I’ve done so far this was the least eventful and least busiest week I’m writing so I’m going to tell you what’s happened, and do a special write up at the end. Let’s go:
Monday came, woke up tired and miserable, another Monday another moody start, and it was Bank Holiday Monday, another bittersweet feeling because my friends and I were supposed to be going home from Ayia Napa that evening, what could’ve been, what should’ve been, it’s a shame, don’t know what else I could say. My Mum and I sat outside, Nanny Lylie came up to see us, it was nice, and I read more of The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes, read up to Page 30. During the evening I decided to take a walk, walked up to Exmouth Market, Angel, near Compton Street, Highbury & Islington and Essex Road, you can see some of the images I took below, the walk was the best part of my day, needed to get out, needed some time to myself, and it was well needed.
Tuesday came, nothing, yep nothing, and if something did happen I definitely don’t remember it. Moving on.
Wednesday came, and after finding out a pub near me was open for takeaway drinks, I went there, got three drinks, took them home and shared them with my brother, the coldness on my fingers, the froth around my lips, it was incredible, a great start to the day, as for the third drink I completely forgot that the taste of the drink would go dead by the time Dad would come home from work, so I had it, by his approval, you can see the image of me with the empty cup below, don’t mind how I look, I didn’t brush my hair and I have this thing where every now and then in a photo I decide to have one eye more open than the other, don’t know why, it is what it is. Evening came and I did a Houseparty video chat with two friends of mine, these two friends of mine had their ups and downs the last 7 or so months, so to have them together and have a laugh was lovely, broke the ice for the two of them, the chat lasted until 4:30am, perfect time to sleep, perfect way to end Wednesday.
For Thursday I just played on the PlayStation for most of the day, and my family and I did the clap for the NHS, which apparently is the last time, don’t know why, so we’ve been doing the clap for the NHS for around two months, imagine for the next two or three months we’re still stuck in lockdown, so the clap for the NHS would get cancelled for nothing? I don’t know, it is what it is.
Then we reached Friday, just sat outside my door and read more of The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes, made it up to Page 45, I think you can tell at this point that I’m a slow reader, and not the best reader, or the most motivated reader, by the time this whole pandemic is done I probably wouldn’t have finished the book.
Then there was Saturday, just sat outside my door for a few hours, and that was it, that was Saturday, let’s head to Sunday.
Finally we get to Sunday, began bittersweet knowing that my family and I would’ve been going to Antalya in Turkey, imagine that, a pandemic happens and both of your holidays get cancelled, absolutely lovely am I right? This day, my family and I, my sister, my brother in law and their son, all went to the park to meet my older brother, his family and his partner’s family, we all kept to the guidelines while having a laugh and keeping an eye on the kids in our families, and I found out another family member, my older brother, actually likes my beard, take that mum.
So that was my week, some good, some meh, not the most eventful but not the worst week. Now before I get onto this special write up I have a recommendation for you all to watch. I began watching this show last weekend, finished it on Friday, and it’s a show called Save Me, the second season called Save Me Too, written by and starring Lennie James, which a lot of people would know him from Line of Duty and The Walking Dead, and also starring Suranne Jones, known for, well a lot of stuff, Coronation Street, Unforgiven, Doctor Foster and a whole bunch of other stuff; the show is terrific, with brilliant writing, great characters, and twists and turns along the way. If you have Sky Atlantic, NOW TV, or know some website online to watch shows and movies, or if you’re willing to spend a bit of money on Amazon Prime or on a DVD or Bly Ray set, watch it, and if you know me personally, message me and let me know what you think, it’s two seasons worth of storytelling constantly leaving you wanting more.
Now my special write up, firstly, scroll down and you’ll see a photo I took, and if you see the background it’s fire, and my face is me smiling and my eyes saying a completely different story, so I’m saying I’m fine, when I’m not, and I’m sure that’s a lot of people in the world right now, two and a half months into lockdown, not knowing what’s going to happen next, people are beginning to get frustrated, people are beginning to not care about the guidelines perfect example being that one beach in South End and other things, you can even say that’s the summary of this year so far, we looked like we were heading into World War 3 at the start, then there were the wildfires in Australia, then COVID-19 started spreading rapidly, anything else, it’s been insane, we’re not even halfway through the year and people have had enough of 2020 and want to go into 2021 already. Then we had what happened to George Floyd, which was absolutely disgusting, and then the protests began, and then the riots which resulted in people getting hurt, a few injuries, a few deaths, buildings getting burnt, some people stealing stuff, and now the protests are happening in the UK, Berlin and other countries, the fact that this is all happening during a pandemic where we have to stick to guidelines as much as we can to get back to normal is even worse, there’s a lot of anger, rage, frustration, fear, I can just go on, I wouldn’t be surprised if there is a spike in cases and deaths related to COVID-19 over the next few weeks, it’s all horrible. This whole year so far, and everything that’s happened so far is like a movie, except you cannot get the craziest writer in Hollywood to write something like this, it’s insane. To everyone reading this, I’m not the best person to approach for help or advice or anything like that, but please, stay safe, be careful, take care of each other, be kind to one another, and hang in there, because in this time we need to be here for each other, all of us.
Hope you’ve enjoy my recent blogs and I’ll see you for my next one, back for the weekly uploads, take care.”
May 18th - May 24th
"Want to know how I started this week off, want to know how Monday went, well it was nothing, woo hoo, couldn’t have started it any better; and I had two concerts booked for July, one for James Blunt and another for James Morrison and Will Young, both concerts at Kew Gardens and both have been postponed until next summer, so that’s all of my summer plans cancelled, absolutely buzzing. Also on this day, if it wasn’t for this pandemic affecting everything, I would’ve been in Ayia Napa in Cyprus with a few of my friends; we had a villa booked and was supposed to be there for a week. I was excited for this because it would’ve been my first time going out of the country with this group of friends, the majority of them I met during my HNC course in City and Islington nearly 2 years ago; it was in a city and country I’ve never been to before, and one of my friends who has family that live over there knows where to go and what to do, all sorted; and the pandemic isn’t too bad in Cyprus either, though if our flights weren’t cancelled, and we found a flight to get there, what if a lot of where we would’ve wanted to go to or try to do was closed, and what if we would’ve had to be quarantined for two weeks there, or when we would get back home, so looking at it that way, it was a blessing in disguise, and the cancellation of this holiday is one example of why I need to make 2021 the biggest year of my life.
Next was Tuesday, Tuesday was a nothing day, though what both Tuesday and Monday actually had in common was that I went into both days tired and miserable, perfectly set the tone. During the early hours of Wednesday morning; it was between 2 and 3 in the morning, and I heard loud voices, so unusual during this time, it isn’t even a weekend, it’s during a pandemic, who would want to do something this time of the week when everything is closed, I go outside on my balcony and I see a group of women, must’ve been 6 of them, walking down the road outside my estate, all in skin tight dresses and high heels, a sight I’d never thought to see during this time in life, maybe they were coming home from a house party, or maybe somewhere someone has set up an underground club that only certain names know about, you never know, got to make money somehow. Around 15 minutes later, I felt stuffy, so I went back out onto my balcony, I looked towards the sky, that I can begin to see a bit of light blue in, sunrise was going to come soon, I felt a light breeze and could hear the fish tank from the family that lives below, then I closed my eyes, and in my mind I found myself in Ayia Napa, after a long night, I remain the only one awake, everyone is asleep, and I find myself with my feet in the pool at our villa, as I look at the Cyprus sky, what could’ve been, what should’ve been; then I snap back to reality, realising that I was in a fantasy in my mind, so I go back inside. An hour passed and I am taken by surprise at the sound of someone screaming, sounded like a woman, around my age or younger, she sounded like she was having a go at someone, did we really need this during this time of the week, during this time, during this crazy period in our lives, after a bit two men come out of my flat chatting to each other regarding the noise, and after a while police turn up to talk to the men, and they point to where the shouting was coming from and that was that, what an odd night.
Wednesday day comes, wake up tired and miserable once again, what’s new, however during the evening I did a Houseparty video chat with the friends I was supposed to go Ayia Napa with, and it was a laugh, it was fun, but also bittersweet knowing instead at this time we could’ve been there, at a club, enjoying another night, what could’ve been, what should’ve been.
Thursday, for the day and what I will say after regarding the early hours of Friday morning was the most I had going on this week; to begin Thursday I sat outside my door in the sun, reading my new book The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes by Suzanne Collins, the book is actually the 4th Hunger Games book, set over 60 years before the events of the first book, and I love The Hunger Games films and books so of course I was very excited to read it, due to time, I only read around 12 pages, but those 12 pages gave me a lot of information, and the next 500 something pages is destined to give me much more, afterwards I had my weekly chat with Ms. Vidal on Google Meets, another lovely chat which was around, 35, 40 minutes, don’t exactly remember the number but it was around that, and I got to meet her son Diego, very lovely boy; then my family and I, and some of our neighbours went next door, my closest neighbours’ youngest son was celebrating his 15th birthday and we all thought to celebrate it together, while keeping to the guidelines of course, it really was lovely, plenty of food, plenty of laughs, we all did the clap for the NHS together too which felt more wholesome since we were with each other, didn’t go back into my house until past 11pm, it was a wonderful day, one of the most normal feeling days in the last two months. We then fast forward to the early hours of Friday morning, and this was around 5:30am, I hear noises, shouting, laughing, just 2 days after what happened during those early hours, and it was a group of, I’d say between 6 and 8 people from what I remember, by the way they all looked and acted, they were definitely younger than me, one of them takes a bin man’s stick, starts hitting things with it, can’t recall what she hit, couldn’t see, another takes two baskets from the corner shop on the ground floor of my estate, don’t know why someone would do that, eventually their noise and stupidity wakes up everyone else in my house, and you could hear them around where the lifts are in the estate, there are gates all over the estate, except the lifts, if you get there, you get access to everywhere in the estate, who knows what else they could’ve done, a few police cars go past, and we see some of the group walk up the road, some must’ve gone home, and we see two police officers too, and the group, which has now decreased to 4, begin mocking them, by doing jumping jacks and jogging on the spot, because, you can’t be out unless it’s for exercise, so you decide to meet friends, get drunk or take illegal substance or both, wake up the entire estate, get told off by the police and just take the mick right in front of them, I don’t know how that’s funny, then they chat, quietly believe it or not, a bottle smashes, and eventually they all go their separate ways, finally. Then an hour later, hearing another disturbance, I recognise the voice, you’ve got to be joking, I couldn’t tell if it was one person or the group, but that one person or the group had the ego, and the decency to come back, even after being confronted by the police, and I actually recognised one of their voices from the early hours of Wednesday morning and I could’ve sworn that that was the same girl that was shouting on Wednesday, so whatever happened this morning I doubt we would see the last of her, eventually someone that lives below me has had enough, and she comes out with her dog, which I believe is a Staffordshire Bull Terrier, and next thing I know I hear barking, shouting, it’s just a joke at this point, and an example of how 2 months in, this pandemic is making everyone lose their minds, and in my opinion we’re not even half way through, it’s only getting worse from here; it all stops, finally, and we could sleep, and I can only await what happens next.
Friday was a nothing day besides the evening, had a Houseparty video chat with a friend of mine, spoke for around 4 hours, it was lovely, a laugh, what we need right now, and we spoke about future plans, including holidays.
Saturday came and my mum and I went to see one of her best friends, they knew each other through my younger brother and her son, they played football on the same team, I used a bus for the first time during this pandemic, wore gloves and a mask just to be safe, mask covered half of my eyesight so I’m sure I wore it right. During the night I ordered a wrestling PPV, AEW Double or Nothing, and it was a lot of fun, a lot of wrestling, memorable moments, title changes, they even had Iron Mike Tyson there to present a new championship, and the main event, had two teams, 5 against 5, battling in a match called The Stadium Stampede, set in an empty TIAA Bank Field, home of the Jacksonville Jaguars, and it was ridiculously fun, and for 40 whole minutes I forgot about the world and the situation we were all in, before this had also been a tough time for everyone involved in and a big fan of wrestling, during the week before this show one wrestler, Shad Gaspard, died at sea in California, him and his son got caught in a strong rip current on the beach, lifeguards came and he told them to save his son, they saved his son, he disappears underwater and his body was found ashore 3 days later, aged 39; and another wrestler, Hana Kimura, who wrestled over in Japan took her own life at the age of 22 after a series of hate comments; so before this show there was a dark cloud around wrestling and it’s entire community, and this show and this match in particular gave us some well needed light; the price alone was worth that one match, we needed entertainment like this during this time, escapism, and that match and the show brought me and everyone who watched the show that, just pure joy.
Sunday came, last day of the week, and I decided to go for a walk, get my exercise in, and took a walk to King’s Cross and Angel, and also got myself Starbucks on the way home, Strawberries & Cream Frappuccino, you know there’s a little bit of hope when Starbucks is open.
That was my week, not the most eventful week but definitely the most descriptive, if you’ve read this one first, I look forward to seeing you read the next one, if you read this one second, then hope you enjoyed both of them, and I’ll be back with the one blog a week from next week.”
18th May 2020
“Here we are, third week, it was nice seeing the feedback I got for my previous blog, especially what people said about my Nanny Jane, it was both heartwarming and flattering, thank you all for that. For this blog, don’t expect much in this, not much really happened this week, however there are moments that really do stick out, for both good and bad, let’s go.
Nothing happened Monday and Tuesday, great start, absolutely wonderful. On Wednesday, started off on not a high note, at all, for Christmas I got my Dad tickets for him and I to see Westlife at Wembley Stadium on August 22nd, and because of this pandemic I kept wondering what they were going to do with the concert, and I found out that day that it got postponed by a year, so now instead of 3 months, we have to wait a year and 3 months for it, I laughed, but at the same time I felt annoyance, like a hammer hammering a nail into my head, and it was a sign of me beginning to think that for the first time, we won’t actually have a proper summer, give it 2 or 3 weeks and I’ll begin thinking that we won’t even have a proper rest of 2020; afterwards my mum and I dropped off some shopping to my Auntie Susie and on the way home we got a present and card for Paul, who is the husband of my mum’s best friend, on this day was his birthday, and luckily we bumped into one of Paul’s daughters, who we passed the present and card on to, did we have luck or what; then I had a chat with Ms. Vidal on Google Meets, what else can I say, I absolutely love talking to her, at one point during our conversation we spoke about superheroes due to my Marvel mug, and she mentioned that I should mention it in my blog; superheroes are a way of escapism, who they are as characters, their powers, their worlds, the people around them including friends, family, allies and of course their enemies, whether it’s in the comics, the shows or the films they bring us in their world and help us escape from ours, a perfect example of this is the Marvel Cinematic Universe, so far 23 films all connected with each other, I always looked forward to each instalment, and seeing each film, with their characters, was always like seeing an old friend; with superheroes one question does pop up with everyone, if you’d have a superpower what would it be, and I would always be between these two, flight and invisibility, flight because why not, you’re flying, simple, if I had that power the first thing I would do is fly to the nearest island, country, or even a city that isn’t affected by the pandemic, the other is invisibility, because you’re invisible, obviously, and what I’d do with that is go into anyone’s house every night and keep finding ways to wake people up, make them think their houses are haunted; in a world that we’re living in today with these circumstances, we need superheroes more than ever, someone with a big brain like a Tony Stark, Bruce Wayne, Peter Parker, Bruce Banner, Reed Richards or a Shuri to create a vaccine quicker and help get us all out of it sooner, but that’s not our reality, that’s an alternate reality, like a different timeline or universe; but we’re lucky to still have the people we have working, doing their jobs in these circumstances for us, they’re our superheroes, never forget that. On Thursday it was my brother’s birthday, 21 years old, and the present I got him was a video message from James Buckley, best known for playing Jay in The Inbetweeners, and my brother loved it, for the rest of the day family members, friends and neighbours came down to see him, of course we all kept our 2m distance, it was just really nice to see some familiar faces during these times, we celebrated his birthday the best way we could during these times. On Friday, I spent most of the day on the PlayStation, and then I went down to my Auntie Susie to drop off a bit of my brother’s birthday cake, I got to see my Uncle Trevor in the doorway, first time I’ve seen him in two months, which was a lovely surprise, had a nice little chat and that was it, now I can only anticipate the day I’m able to go into their house for some of my Auntie Susie’s amazing cooking, I also spent the evening with a friend of mine and friends of his, and his sister, and his sister’s partner, on HouseParty, all doing a quiz, it was all last minute, I was anticipating him and I to have a catch-up, and then I find out an hour before that there’ll be a quiz, so I prepared 10 questions based on films, music and wrestling, and then once I got onto the HouseParty app I see another 7 or 8 people are on there too, so that was a surprise but I wasn’t complaining, the more the merrier, I won two of the rounds, not sure if anyone else did, and then the girls were one team asking questions, and then the boys were one team asking questions, and then I had no idea what was going on, but in the end it was a really nice evening, good way to end a Friday. On Saturday, I spent most of the day on the PlayStation, and I had a catch-up with a friend on HouseParty to end the evening which was really nice, spoke about possibly going to L.A. once this pandemic is done, I want to be the earliest flight hotel I can find. Finally, on Sunday I went for a walk, ended up walking through Oxford Circus and Carnaby, some parts of Oxford Circus were busy because of the amount of vehicles that were around, and some parts were so quiet, which was so strange because Oxford Circus is normally one of the busiest parts of London, I walked near Hamleys, a store I have very fond memories of from when I was younger, and I saw it all empty around it, all shut off, it didn’t look right, it got worse once I reached Carnaby, the place was near enough deserted, so quiet, you could hear a loud phone conversation from 2 minutes away, and with the “Stay Alert, Control The Virus, Save Lives” signs all around, it all felt very apocalyptic, quite haunting, the image of the sign by Oxford Circus Station has glued a place of its own in my mind.
That was Week 3, to me, it was just another week, thankfully it’s going quick, and we’re already over half way through May, just get me to June and show me more signs of hope, because after this week, I need some.”
11th May 2020
“It was amazing seeing the feedback I got for my blog last week, messages and comments from friends, families, people I’ve worked with, people I know that live in different countries, so surreal. Knowing that I can help people with this, inspire people with this, can let people know that we’re all in the same boat with this, inspires me to do more, and motivates me to keep going, and I’m also glad that I’m doing something productive in a time where it’s hard to have the drive to do something, anything, I can’t be bothered to work out, learn something new, read, it’s tough, but at least I have this. For those that read my first blog last week, thank you all so much, I honestly didn’t know how everyone would’ve thought of it, but I’m so glad that it got the love and the kindness it received. Not every week will be as descriptive or interesting as the other, not every week will be a laugh, not every week will be a tearjerker, every week will be different and I think that’s the best part of this blog, every week is something different, a different story, a new stage living in this pandemic, and I look forward to taking you all with me. Now let’s get on with the blog for the second week.
Monday was more interesting than the Monday before, before dinner I went for a walk, went down to Exmouth Market, near Farringdon, Barbican, and Old Street; the one moment that stuck with me from that walk was when I took a walk through Fortune Street Park, I used to go to that park often when I was younger, mostly with my mum and my Nanny Jane, who passed away 8 years ago, once she was gone we barely walked to that park, or even past it; at one point I stopped, and I looked at the trees, and through it was the sun shinning with a sunset setting, and I stared at this sight for what must’ve been minutes, I took a picture and looked back at this moment all week, on one hand it was a way of telling me “there is light at the end of this tunnel” and on the other hand, it was as if my Nanny Jane was watching me, which makes a lot of sense since she use to live just around the corner from Fortune Street Park, maybe it was both, I don’t know, whatever it was, it was a moment that I haven’t gone a day without thinking about, and a moment I will remember even after this pandemic is done. For Tuesday, I only went to my aunt’s house to pick up chicken, and that was it, yeah, on to the next one. For Wednesday, do you remember last week when I mentioned my brother on the PlayStation, well surprise surprise, I was on it that day, and I was on it all day, made for a change, something different. For Thursday, since the weather was lovely, my family and I sat outside our door in the sun, along with my sister, brother in law and nephew, where we kept the 2m distance, and it was nice, and was well needed after the mostly poor weather from last week, for half an hour of that day, I had another Google Meets call with Ms Vidal, another lovely conversation with a lovely teacher, I could just speak to her all day, in the evening, instead of our weekly “Chicken Lickin’” I treated my family to Pizza Hut, first time I treated my family to a takeaway, felt pleased with myself, and also loved that though I treated my family, I could get what I want, I mean of course I could, it’s my money, the benefits of being an adult; I also went onto The Courtyard’s website, and checked out the careers section, and a page titled “Develop your employability skills,” Ms. Vidal wanted me to give it a read, see what I thought, and I did, and I feel the information on the page would definitely help students of The Courtyard, especially those doing their exams and are preparing to go to college or university, the page contained linked to online sessions, apprenticeships, skills festivals and career advice sessions, these are the most important years of these kids’ lives, and potentially anything on that page would help them in a big way. For Friday, it was VE Day, so my family and I, sister, brother in law, nephew, and my neighbours, and my Nanny Lylie, sat outside in the sun, keeping the 2m distance, and playing songs that used to be played during World War II, incredible how good those songs are all those years later. For Saturday, which was the best and most normal day this week, everyone who was out Friday and other neighbours, all had a BBQ, and keeping the 2m distance, it’s mad how much you can still do with people, even with the 2m distance, it was a lovely day, and a wonderful reminder that we’re all in this together no matter what, my brother and I stayed until the end, which was past 11pm, and I ended the evening sorting my brother’s 21st birthday present out, his birthday is on the 14th, turning 21. For Sunday, I just stayed in, spent most of the day laying down, and my family and I watched Boris’ speech, the closest my family and I will ever get to being political, we’re the least political family you’ll ever meet, as for the speech, yeah, could’ve spent 5 minutes reading about it online instead of watching it for 15 or 20 minute to be honest; I also showed my mum and dad what I got my brother for his birthday, they loved it, I know he will too, I won’t spoil it on here, I’ll let you all know what it is next week.
So that was the second week, each day was different, each day had something to remember, so yeah overall a decent week, let’s see what week 3 brings.”
By Billy Chandler
4th May 2020
“It’s going to be challenging doing something like this, because some days nothing happens, some days something does, and I’m forgetting which day is which, it’s pretty messy, and when it comes to writing sentences I can write 10 words and then spend the next 10 minutes daydreaming, what am I having for dinner? What film will the family and I put on tonight? Will my brother actually get off the PlayStation? What part of the house is my mum going to paint? When is the missus coming over? Then I realise I don’t have a missus and that I’m single and lonely. So yeah, as you can tell already a lot goes through my head and I do plenty of thinking. So yeah, here goes nothing, my first blog of the week, let’s see if I can make a mostly not so much week in a pandemic seem interesting.
Monday, nothing happened, brilliant stuff. Tuesday, something did happen, WOW I KNOW RIGHT, I actually had a Google Meets call with Ms. Vidal, it’s amazing to think that from 2013 - 2015 she taught me and now almost 5 years after I left here we are having a chat on Google Meets, she’s seen me on my darkest days, my brightest days, and she’s one of those teachers that I could talk to about anything and talk to all day, she’s incredible, we had a lovely chat for around 45 minutes, and put it this way, it was the best 45 minutes of the day, and was also when I found out about doing this blog. Then came Wednesday, and I had a surprise knock on the door from my two nieces, first time I saw them in weeks and if you saw me I was jumping around excitedly like a dog and they were loving it, and for the next 10 minutes we all had a good catchup with my older brother and my sister in law, who are my nieces’ parents, obviously, while also keeping an eye on the nieces, it was lovely, 10 minutes of normality, and it helps make the rest of the day easier. Thursday came and from what I noticed in recent weeks, everything feels quicker once Thursday comes, and there’s a weekly routine, I meet my dad by his workplace, we collect our order from the chicken shop nearby, which we call “Chicken Lickin’” go home, eat it, and then do the 8pm clap for the NHS, while seeing everyone in my estate clap I couldn’t help but to think “imagine if one week the entire estate begins playing Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana,” like one door will be playing the guitar, another will be playing the bass, another playing the drums, and another doing the vocals, a man can dream. Then came Friday, and my mum and I did some shopping up Angel, I normally get my own stuff and it would normally be more than it should be, but mum always finds way to fit it all in the fridge and freezer. Saturday came, and nothing was expected or planned, I woke up and realised “ah it’s one of those days” so I decide to go for a walk, get my exercise, and get out of the house, I walked through the West End and walked up to Buckingham Palace, as nice as it was to walk to the West End, there was a sadness that I felt, see the streets emptier than they should be and seeing all the theatres look lifeless hit me hard, and the realisation of how many people that work at theatres like front of house, bar, backstage, musicians, actors and everyone else involved not doing any kind of work right now, it may be a tough industry but imagine the industry where everything stops and none of these people are working, and then I went home, and had a nap. Finally there was Sunday, and it was my nephew’s birthday, 9 years old, he, my brother in law and sister only live across the landing, my brother, sister in law and nieces also came up, and their nan too, we all kept our 2m distance while also having a laugh and keeping an eye on the kids, it was wonderful, and hours later I had a chat on the phone with a good friend of mine for a good hour and a half, at the end of this day, I felt Sunday was the most normal day I experienced all week.
So that’s my first week, emotionally it was one of the more easier weeks, now we await a new week, with more questions, hopefully more answers, and maybe a shot of hope would be great, it should be interesting.”
By Billy Chandler